Well, I'm looking for some advice right now, so I don't know if I will be any help to you. This is what I did when I was in your shoes. Had a good job, had a great girlfriend that didn't know about my addiction to pain pills, and I blew it all. The relationship had taken its toll threw my secret addiction, and the job...even if you have a good one, because I did. Quit. Or even better, live off of it. If you have it in your insurance plan, take out a short term disability. This can be done TOMORROW. All you have to do is take the call-in to work, call your HR department and tell them you are getting help (they will be supportive and they CAN NOT fire you at this point because addiction is an illness) and then you will need to call your insurance group and tell them you are taking a short term disability. This will also give you the cash you will need to survive (usually between 50-60% of what you averagely earn) and it will give you the insurance you are going to need to go to what they called it as a IOP Program. This is a suboxone or subutex program that will get you out of that sickness you are feeling. If you feel like you need more time, you can always sign yourself into detox and do it that way to. I did it all the outpatient program. I got high as hell on a Wednesday, went to work on Thursday feeling awful, ended up calling my DM, and leaving to go home, and my bags were already packed. I didn't get into Inpatient, primarily because I was not a high risk IV user, and it was a Friday which I hear that makes a difference. But, they did give me the number to the local Suboxone IOP program, and I was there first thing Monday morning. They do all the insurance side of it while you are filling out paperwork and getting checked by a nurse. By about 10:30am (1/2 way through my first ever group session) I had my first Suboxone strip, and 30 minutes I felt FANTASTIC. I felt like the person I was BEFORE I started using. It's a great feeling man, and I feel like you will feel like such a better person doing it that way. Plus, kick the H before it kills you. I have seen way too many friends die because of that stuff.