harlemspikes
Bluelighter
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- Dec 5, 2017
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I’ve been abstaining from Suboxone for over three weeks now. I used some low-level (for me) dosing of Oxy and 30 mg morphine sulfate pills to avoid the worst of the Sub withdrawals, as I jumped off at a very high dose (16mgs after being on the strips for 3 1/2 years. This was done out of necessity). I was down to literally nothing for almost a week and having a shit time, as prior, I hadn’t gone a day without opiates in probably six years.
So last night I went to make myself a protein shake and I found a little packet of Oriental Pleasure H (some strong stuff) that I apparently hid in there a long time ago and forgot about. The temptation was too great and I wound up snorting half and plugging the rest.
I feel exhausted this morning, as the insomnia of withdraw has been killer for me, but otherwise I feel significantly better than I have in weeks. I’ve been taking comfort drugs like Gabapentin, Kratom and Klonopin for RLS, muscle aches, anxiety, etc, but I still was having a pretty rough go of it.
Did I just f*ck myself by completely restarting the withdrawal process? I’m so mad at myself. Trying not to be as I can’t go backwards, but if I have to start this hell over, I’m going to be really pissed.
Did I hit “reset” on my recovery?
So last night I went to make myself a protein shake and I found a little packet of Oriental Pleasure H (some strong stuff) that I apparently hid in there a long time ago and forgot about. The temptation was too great and I wound up snorting half and plugging the rest.
I feel exhausted this morning, as the insomnia of withdraw has been killer for me, but otherwise I feel significantly better than I have in weeks. I’ve been taking comfort drugs like Gabapentin, Kratom and Klonopin for RLS, muscle aches, anxiety, etc, but I still was having a pretty rough go of it.
Did I just f*ck myself by completely restarting the withdrawal process? I’m so mad at myself. Trying not to be as I can’t go backwards, but if I have to start this hell over, I’m going to be really pissed.
Did I hit “reset” on my recovery?