kanyeknievel
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I am really torn with what to do here.. so I figured I would post something like this..
I always used to tell my self, nooo i would NEVER do needles. But then again I also told myself ' Noo i would NEVER smoked weed and became the biggest smoker and dealer when i was in highschool. Never do more than weed, I did ecstasy and became the biggest dealer for THAT too for a year in highschool. Told myself I would never do more than those and ended up doing lsd once, shrooms once, coke a handful of times, adderall type stuff, salvia a few times, and then finally painkiller pills, and eventually OC80s all the time when they were out.
But then I told myself, nooo but I would NEVER do heroin.. not that.. i know i said it all ebfore but that not.. but i did because the price and it being stronger per dollar spent.
And it seems just everyone I used to know that has done heroin went to needles at some pint and used needles and some stopped, some dident, some others started when i was clean and stopped and started and use a needle now. So its not like its impossible to stop.
I used to do heroin a bunch and be borderline addict, or maybe i just tell myself I wasnt and I was. I stopped when I finally had no money and I wasn't going to resort to sellings just to make more to buy more.. so i got on suboxone and i was clean for 8 moths until a week or so ago when I just wanted to have some fun again
-So i found someone with AMAZING deals so i was able to get a lot, but he got busted today and I can't get anymore today, so thats one point to a possiblity of me doing it.. since he got busted n i cant get it from him n he was the only person.
-I am on suboxone and plan to stay on suboxone for aslong as I need to be, and it worked very well for 7 monghs but i slipped up once .. prob cuz i took less than prescribed. So i have plenty of suboxone and am on suboxone if i decided to for when these are gone and i can stop pretty easily i would think.
So my question is.. should i try it out?
I ask because sniffing just doesnt really do what sniffing used to do anymore, its not really as euphoric, but i dont know if i want to get myself into some vey huge if i do it.. or if shooting it and it being a huge thing is really just all this propaganda ive heard and believed my whole life and it really isnt as bad as it is made out to be. I mean.. heroin is heroin .. right? I mean, ive done heroin and ive done a lot and plenty of it over time and tons of times, and its heroin either way, is it really that big of a difference and a whole new level that i shouldnt do it?
The reasons for thining of trying it just now is because its just not doing what sniffing used to do as much anymore.. my only guy i know got busted today, and i dont even do it.. i was clean for over 7 months. I have suboxone and ive been on it for the past 7+ months I've been clean.This is the last of I have and can get since my guy is done. Ive just been curious about it for such a long time but been ehh about it because i never knew if it could or would turn into anything... and ive read so many times that if ur going to even DO HEROIN in the first place, snorting and smoking are a complete waste.
Also, one last thing .. if you go to shoot, can you go back to sniffing?
I always used to tell my self, nooo i would NEVER do needles. But then again I also told myself ' Noo i would NEVER smoked weed and became the biggest smoker and dealer when i was in highschool. Never do more than weed, I did ecstasy and became the biggest dealer for THAT too for a year in highschool. Told myself I would never do more than those and ended up doing lsd once, shrooms once, coke a handful of times, adderall type stuff, salvia a few times, and then finally painkiller pills, and eventually OC80s all the time when they were out.
But then I told myself, nooo but I would NEVER do heroin.. not that.. i know i said it all ebfore but that not.. but i did because the price and it being stronger per dollar spent.
And it seems just everyone I used to know that has done heroin went to needles at some pint and used needles and some stopped, some dident, some others started when i was clean and stopped and started and use a needle now. So its not like its impossible to stop.
I used to do heroin a bunch and be borderline addict, or maybe i just tell myself I wasnt and I was. I stopped when I finally had no money and I wasn't going to resort to sellings just to make more to buy more.. so i got on suboxone and i was clean for 8 moths until a week or so ago when I just wanted to have some fun again
-So i found someone with AMAZING deals so i was able to get a lot, but he got busted today and I can't get anymore today, so thats one point to a possiblity of me doing it.. since he got busted n i cant get it from him n he was the only person.
-I am on suboxone and plan to stay on suboxone for aslong as I need to be, and it worked very well for 7 monghs but i slipped up once .. prob cuz i took less than prescribed. So i have plenty of suboxone and am on suboxone if i decided to for when these are gone and i can stop pretty easily i would think.
So my question is.. should i try it out?
I ask because sniffing just doesnt really do what sniffing used to do anymore, its not really as euphoric, but i dont know if i want to get myself into some vey huge if i do it.. or if shooting it and it being a huge thing is really just all this propaganda ive heard and believed my whole life and it really isnt as bad as it is made out to be. I mean.. heroin is heroin .. right? I mean, ive done heroin and ive done a lot and plenty of it over time and tons of times, and its heroin either way, is it really that big of a difference and a whole new level that i shouldnt do it?
The reasons for thining of trying it just now is because its just not doing what sniffing used to do as much anymore.. my only guy i know got busted today, and i dont even do it.. i was clean for over 7 months. I have suboxone and ive been on it for the past 7+ months I've been clean.This is the last of I have and can get since my guy is done. Ive just been curious about it for such a long time but been ehh about it because i never knew if it could or would turn into anything... and ive read so many times that if ur going to even DO HEROIN in the first place, snorting and smoking are a complete waste.
Also, one last thing .. if you go to shoot, can you go back to sniffing?