And I was standing in front of it. I swear to god that the courts in SD is a dick measuring contest with the PD holding the ruler (thought of this at court today). I got offered the joke of the day as a deal and than to make matters worst, they gave my wife the same bullshit. I told them I need a 2 week extension (get it extension, dick measuring contest, hahaha) and got it of course. I definately need to find a way to make money so I can get a real lawyer. It's so funny how they fuck you so much that they make you do the shit that gets you into trouble. I am going to try to do this legit, I am too tired of the underground scene to try it a different way.
I didn't use with all this stressful bullshit, so at least I am happy about that. Eventhough my family is kind of giving up on me, because I rather out instead of in. I cant go in because I need to work. I need to work so I don't become homeless. It's just one great fucking circle.
I got to see the most beautiful woman today. I made love to her twice and got to give her head to boot. God we were so sexually frustrated since we weren't allowed to see each other. She told me that she told her ma that she cannot be able away from so long because we are very sexual (I guess you can say that because we have sex almost everyday for 10 years.) So even though I had the shittiest of court dates, I am still happy I got to see her.
I know they are fucking her (the DA) because of my past. She has no record at all (just 1 infraction). My record, you can make a movie with. It's bullshit, I told her family to get a real lawyer and to try her seperate from my loser ass. I can do jail time standing on my head, especially since I wont be in withdrawls this time around. Maybe I can become homie in a prison gang and get my fac tatted.
I just have so much shit going thru my head and I am so alone because she had to leave. I am going to try and get into a program tomorrow and get the job back tomorrow so if anyone sees this, cross your fingers and wish me some luck. This has been a good outlet though and I recommend it all the time. It has good reads and just blogging I believe is letting alot of those emotions that I hid for a very long time out.
Oh I forgot, I got to get my own place, I am also a burden on my family now. I hate cops, I think NWA got it right.
I didn't use with all this stressful bullshit, so at least I am happy about that. Eventhough my family is kind of giving up on me, because I rather out instead of in. I cant go in because I need to work. I need to work so I don't become homeless. It's just one great fucking circle.
I got to see the most beautiful woman today. I made love to her twice and got to give her head to boot. God we were so sexually frustrated since we weren't allowed to see each other. She told me that she told her ma that she cannot be able away from so long because we are very sexual (I guess you can say that because we have sex almost everyday for 10 years.) So even though I had the shittiest of court dates, I am still happy I got to see her.
I know they are fucking her (the DA) because of my past. She has no record at all (just 1 infraction). My record, you can make a movie with. It's bullshit, I told her family to get a real lawyer and to try her seperate from my loser ass. I can do jail time standing on my head, especially since I wont be in withdrawls this time around. Maybe I can become homie in a prison gang and get my fac tatted.
I just have so much shit going thru my head and I am so alone because she had to leave. I am going to try and get into a program tomorrow and get the job back tomorrow so if anyone sees this, cross your fingers and wish me some luck. This has been a good outlet though and I recommend it all the time. It has good reads and just blogging I believe is letting alot of those emotions that I hid for a very long time out.
Oh I forgot, I got to get my own place, I am also a burden on my family now. I hate cops, I think NWA got it right.