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Selfishness - She told me this from so far away

Pyro

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You said it and I didn't belive you
Not even for a minute did I consider it
How would you know what is in my heart?
From so far away -- you who have never even met me.
Days go bye
and continually I think
about what you said
that my intentions were selfish.
How could it be true, that I've become something I try hard not to be?
What is even more amazing...
You saw this before I did.
Me with all my internal dialogue and introspection, totally missing something so simple.
And there you sit as you point it straight out to me.
You touched me
I jumped back a little... how could that be?
You who are so far away
Maybe I get so lost and absorbed in these thoughts
Perhaps I get so twisted up inside of them that I miss even the simplist of ideas.
Yes.
It would be selfishness
Maybe I'm not ready for it
Just like you said
Now, just like I think
It makes perfect sense...
"selfishness" - She told me this from so far away.
Pyro
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"And we were a million miles away from everyone else as we road the beat like a roller coaster. I remember vividly feeling and seeing the music consistantly pounding out of the speakers, making me move. I then remember asking my lawyer, 'what is this music?' with him replying, 'this is acid house, my friend, welcome to my world'"
 
Pyro -- I know I won't be the first Bluelighter to say this to you, but just the same, I really enjoy your posts. There's a strong yet vulnerable quality to them...your perspective is always so unique and refreshing. I like your paradoxial fragility/indifferent combinations of words and ideas.
By the way, other people *do* see the things about ourselves that we are blind to. In the past when people told me "you were way too good for him" I wondered why they couldn't have drawn that to my attention *before* I got my heart broken. But few can be that matter of fact, since society embraces politeness over honesty. But I am glad you got the chance to step outside of yourself via that girl's viewpoint and see a different angle of yourself. It sounds as if you are accepting of this "flaw".
However, I don't really think selfishness is wrong, because in the end *YOU* are all you've got. (take it from a diva!
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...word is feeling-is true empathy- when spun by a master, even one born a blackbelt, like a silver spoon in ya' mouth. You know?
I love this, that is you. Never will I forget that fire for fire is often hard to control or understand till there is a water to cool out the flames rising.
A twin- prop to you was sent long ago. Me is also glad to know that flight, for fancy, was also heard by all those curious enough to look up into the deep blue- sky to locate the sound of a machine moving brain- cases full of thoughts happening like mine, like mine.
Good thoughts friend.
I am proud to be here again, if not to share theese things so hard to express in the structure, of surviving, in a mad- world without order or a memoir to help us all know the world's angst of existing and supporting us, as a parent.
The answers are all around us, and within us too, even circling in a holding patern, until they touch down to land and embrace the good earth.
Later then...
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Pyro first of alll *Mwah*
So many times,, i have been a failur to myself in seeing things about me no matter how hard i try.
Having people be observerant, and open to share those things with me has made me a better person.
I have to say I really love this. Miles count for nothing when the soul has something to say!
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Just takes one angel to change a life
~~~~CHERUB~~~~
Aka: Mommyhen
 
...right? That is the thing about abiguity in Art. It leaves you with more than one reading or viewing. Pictures worth a thousand words are good mind candy. Words with a thousand mind pictures attached are sometimes much sweeter, just 'cause this is a form of communication defined and built by all of us here, hear?
Again these are good words dude. I'll miss your finer writings for a time...
 
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