Seeking help

[superwraith]

So I've been dealing with a lot the past few years. Been diagnosed with major depression and borderline personality disorder. Things seem to be just getting worse and worse as my life spirals out of my control. Last year my fiance left me and that's really when things hit me. That I'm not okay in the head and my misery is more than likely my brain's chemical imbalance warping my reality. Due to BPD I have an almost complete inability to cope or control my emotions. Which often results in suicidal thoughts. I have had little to no help from the ssris and various drugs my doctor has given me. Marijuana used to give me full relief from my symptoms but years later my tolerance is too high for that now. The only other thing that has helped me is methoxamine (mxe) but due to it being illegal it's hard for me to find. What do you recommend? Is there a substance on earth that is easy to obtain that may help me?

 

[cook]

Im afraid drugs alone are not going to help you much long term. Have you studied about the various psychotherapeutic approaches? Ive been on psychodynamic therapy for a long time for depression and personality disorder, and it has been hugely beneficial for me. Its a long road and takes commitment (and money) but I would still suggest that for anyone with deep psychological problems.

 

[herbavore]

Hey, cook, do you have any basic links that would be a good starting place for exploring psychodynamic therapy?
Might be useful for the OP and a lot of others and I'm interested as well.

 

[CaveBear]

friend, ive had major depression, been diagnosed with bi-polar, ptsd....im a drunk, im an addict (currently not using), been to war, saw death, lost arm to booting ambien, died a few times in the or during surgery and im currently very much struggling. just had a friend od on her ssris, just had the breathing tube removed yesterday, she has 2 kids and a grand baby. shes my best friends exwife. i say all that because i have hope. i'll die swinging before i off myself. ive seen hell. be damned if i surrender. dark days are hard friend, there will be light. stay strong.

 

[cook]

Hey, cook, do you have any basic links that would be a good starting place for exploring psychodynamic therapy?
Might be useful for the OP and a lot of others and I'm interested as well.

http://psychcentral.com/lib/borderline-personality-disorder-treatment/0001065#therapy

I was looking at this regarding OP, just the first google result but it looks pretty good for starters.

http://psychcentral.com/lib/psychodynamic-therapy/000119

and the basics of psychodynamic therapy