I'll drop him a note, asking him to email me. He may not like that, and may not respond, which isnt neccesarily anything to worry about. He's told me previously that he's tried to leave the site but failed, ironically enough i was to blame for that, for it was my phenazepam meltdown that bought him back last time. Which did show that he was lurking and also that he cares about other people, which is often something that gets overlooked.
Beyond that im not gonna reveal or speculate any more on Sammy G. Its kind of invading his privacy as he has been quite open with me in our communications, in assuming that what he said to me was private, unless it was in a public post and not a private message, which i wouldnt repeat publically, not because uit against the rules, but because i dont like to break confidentality. Having said that, tbh I cant rememeber for sure in what cicumstances the story of my phenaz meltdown and SGs return was told to me, but i hope he wont feel too annoyed about me mentioning it publically. He'd probably be embarrased more than anything else.
(Jesus, sorry to put all that in such a waffly and long winded way. Im usually quite succinct, i think its O-dt that makes me waffly)
But frankly Eve, i dont think because someone stops posting that that automatically means there's something to worry about. Although due to the nature of the site and the discussions held here i can understand why someone might worry.
I think sometimes BL can become a 'bad addiction' when it takes up too much of your time and life. Ive definately been there, got a fucking giant cargo container of t shirts to say ive been there. Sometimes people want to quit some of their 'bad addictions'. I want to quit my 'addiction' (not really an addiction, just compulsive behaviour) to stim allnighters as well as a couple of other drug habits.
Sometime it becomes the right time for someone to leave BL. For the sake of the site I hope he hasn't quit and that he will return, because of his his very high intelligence, his wit, and the caliber of his posts and the depth and breadth of his counter-cultural knowledge he was / is an extremely valuable and interesting contributor. He helped set the bar for standards very high. And if anything wasnt up to his high standards he would pounce on it. But for his own sake, IF he has left, I hope it's because he wants to make some life style changes, and leave all this behind him. Thats why im not sure if the note through the door will be welcomed. Actually, i think he will probably appreciate it, that people have demonstrated that they also do care.
Edit: just been browsing an old thread where i think there was an 'exchange' of posts between myself and Sammy G, his posts seem to have gone, and hes gone off everybodys friends list. It seems like he really did want to leave. In the light of that, i think that changes everything. This is all news to me, ive not had the time, energy or inclination to log onto BL much for months so im really caught unaware and shocked by all that ive missed.
