Shenanigans
Bluelighter
My Trip Report
This for Sunday August 18th, 2002.
Chemicals: Mushrooms, Salvia A Dorium 10x, Marijuana
Wow, this past Sunday has been such an eye opener to some of the brains deepest inner workings. My trip begins with my two friends who we shall cleverly refer to as Jay and Bob. Jay instant messages me and informs me that he has his house all to himself for a few hours, and wants myself and Bob to come over to hang out while experimenting with consciousness. Keeping in mind that Jay had about 5 – 6 grams worth of dried caps n stems waiting for me, I was not one to pass. My earlier attempt with mushrooms (1 cap + stem) produced only small yields. I found everything funnier and noticed that stars had halos. I also became 50x more creative than normal, but had no outlet for it at the time. Given all of this, I was eager to see if I could venture into the level 5 arena of life to see what it held for me, or at very least, get some killer visuals going. I had done all of my research before in the past, reading trip reports from all over the net and absorbing as much information as I possibly could on the subject of mushrooms. To say this trip was years in the making would be an understatement.
I called Bob up on Sunday morning and told him to head over to my house. After checking around, I made sure I had all the essentials, and if I didn’t I at least had everything needed where I could buy it at Jays place. Bob and I headed off, and I put on my earplugs to get a little more grounded and centered. I found out, after a concert, that wearing ear plugs was one of the best ways one could get in tune with what they were feeling, what thoughts were going through their mind, etc simply because the sheer amount of noise pollution we are normally subjected to is no longer present. Shortly after about half an hour of driving, we arrived at Jay’s place to find him half asleep but as soon as he saw who it was, he got up and got himself together. Our first order of the day was to go out and get the salvia since Jay had no more to his name and for that we turned to the oracle known as the internet. I always held the misconception in my mind that Salvia could only be purchased online, and sent to an address, or grown; to my surprise, SEVERAL head shops in town carried it and one in particular carried the liquid extract. We all got ourselves together and headed out. Now being the smart guys that we are, you would assume that we called in advance to make sure that they were open, and that they actually carried the product which we were looking for, but no J. After a little creative thinking, and some burning petrol, we arrive back at Jay’s pad with Salvia and bong in hand ready to go.
I loaded up the bong with Salvia and took the tour lighter to it. BOOM! One hit and I was gone elsewhere. In retrospect, it’s amazing the short amount of time it takes this chemical to hit you. From what I remember about the trip, Jay and Bob were friends of mines from some lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng time ago whom I just happened to be sitting in front of. After about 5 minutes or so of sitting in front of Jay’s AC unit, I came back fully and was stunned by what I had just seen. Even though I hadn’t broken through and achieved some of the astounding trips you hear of while on Salvia, I had done well in my own opinion.
During this entire time, I had slowly been consuming my baggy of dried caps n stems with oj to mask the taste. I lit up a small bud but Jay and Bob decided they wanted none. While sitting on the bed, I remembered one of Jay’s friends walking in and it really surprised me for some reason. We all went outside and shared a joint.
This is where the trip begins
While passing the joint around, thinking about nothing in particular, Jay, myself, Bob and Jay’s friend all share a good laugh about this news camera helicopter passing overhead, twice! I took another hit of the joint and my attention was directed towards Jay’s sidewalk; it contained these tiny ant like creatures which caused the cement to move! Keep in mind this is my first time ever seeing a visual of any kind so I was pretty ecstatic. I informed everyone of my new discovery but they just all kind of chuckled and went back to talking about nothing in particular. I stood up and began to walk around Jay’s backyard, just examining all of my surroundings, and taking in everything I could. I looked at this one tree Jay has, and for the first time in my life, I could perceive each of the 3 dimensions separately and appreciate each one. I had a feeling that I was in this art gallery which featured an exhibit called “the 3rd dimension” and this tree was it. For the first 10 minutes, I spent my time just wondering “meaninglessly” around Jay’s backyard, and simply exploring all that it offered. Something caused me to walk inside his house, and I sat down on one of his beanbags. One of the really cool things I now had the ability to do was get lost in my imagination and so that’s what I did for a moment J Jay has these bean bags which are just really fun to play with, so I began to get lost inside of them. In my mind, I was in this house, and there were all these pictures which had a quicksand like ability to literally draw your physical body into them. Each time I felt myself being pulled into one of these pictures, I shook myself out of it and went “Whoa!!” I also remember pretending one of the beanbags was a female, and started to caress it as if was such. Bob really got a kick out of this, and it drew me out of my daydream.
I ventured back outside, and I just stood in amazement at all the patterns the grass now formed. They now looked very similar to aloe plants that you see in the desert or gardening shops. I could feel something drawing me closer to the ground, and I didn’t mind this feeling so I obeyed it. When I got down to the ground, it just felt right for some reason, not that I was meant to crawl on the ground but that being close to the earth is the way to be. When I got down to the ground, billions of thoughts were going through my head, but one in particular had struck me, and hard; I became God. I thought to myself “what a tremendous responsibility” and I got lost in another one of my thought patterns. In my head, I became Adam from the biblical story of Adam and Eve and saw myself turn into God from this. One of the best ways I can explain it is to say that I no longer existed as me, I existed as EVERYTHING, and there was no separation in regards to what was me, and what was not me. I recall thinking about dying in this state of perspective, but it really didn’t affect me at all because I felt like death (not existing) was such a falsehood. Looking back on it all, it was almost as if my survival was guaranteed by some unseen force and was no longer a something to be thought about in my head. I dipped in and out of this mode many times; it never stayed constant for some reason. All of this occurring while I was on lying on the ground, just embracing life.
I stood up, and began to see what I would come to know as “reality tracers”. They were these small objects which looked like bee’s, and when they catch the corner of your eye, they trace reality, very quickly. I started to walk back to Jay’s bedroom to see what all they were doing in there and found that simply moving from point A to point B had became something of an adventure in and of itself. Upon entering his room, I didn’t posses the memory of walking there, I just showed up. I announced to them that I was now God, and I was mainly responsible for making all things happening. Later on in the week, Bob told me that they would give me some logic tricks while I was in the God mode, and that I would “become” myself again and not know what happened, then once the questioning stopped, I would become God again. Unfortunately I remember none of this L One thing I notice about deep mushroom trips is that it seems to transcend your mind, and so you have a really hard time remembering everything which took place while tripping.
I went back outside and ventured down to the ground, exploring it some more, and communicating with all the creatures (read: bugs) which seemed to be playing with my body. Jay and Bob were becoming really hungry so they ordered a pizza which seemed to take two forever’s to get made. While the pizza was being made, I would slip in and out of the God mode, but a strange thing happened, when I was “not” God, I was this celestial traveler and Jay n’ Bob were my intergalactic friends who just happened to be hanging out in the same physical space as myself. Now this is one of the few places where I remember every single event of the trip, but my account varies from what everyone else experienced. We all began to eat, and I have to say, this pizza had to have been one of the BEST pizza’s I’ve ever tasted. I remembered eating a slice, playing with some cheese for a second, and then putting it down. When I asked Bob what happened, he says I took destroyed the pizza and begin to play with its cheese, even though everyone got fed. What really happened? The world may never know.
Pizza time was over, and I felt like being driven somewhere, so we all stepped outside, and I observed Bob’s car putting certain parts of itself together. It was almost like that scene out of AI where the aliens land their ship, and it just sort of splits apart. I hopped in the passenger seat, and we drove. Let me tell you, being driven somewhere while shrooming has got to be one of the greatest things you can engage yourself in. I would pretend I was superman, or pretend that I was on a roller coaster and just laugh at everything we would drive past. I put on my headphones, and put this really chilled out cd into my cd player. When I started playing it, I closed my eyes, and started to feel my feet melting into Bob’s carpet! This really surprised me and I shook myself out of it every time before it went too far and I melted completely into the carpet. We finally got off the freeway and we stopped at a few coffee shops before reaching our final destination. I remembered we would drive past these houses, and for the first time in my life, I knew what it meant to be truly thankful to be alive and existing. Each time we stopped, I would notice the females that were gathered around and I kept thinking in my head for some reason that they were friends of Jay’s, and they would be joining us soon.
Once we arrived to our final destination, we sat down, got ice waters, and I asked Jay and Bob to find me a pen. Once they did this, I asked them to find me a paper, because I could feel myself going into the God mode for the final time and I wanted to explain how reality worked before I lost this perspective. For some reason, none of us could find a sheet of paper to write on, and neither Jay nor Bob had the balls to ask one of the thousands of students there for a sheet. Slowly, I felt “God” slip away, and I became myself again. Even though the trip was coming to the close, I was still pretty well submerged into my own little world n whatnot. I could put on my headphones, and get lost in the music. Closing my eyes no longer meant shutting off light, but it put my entire consciousness into this void.
For some reason, Jay and Bob decided they were going to go somewhere, and they would be right back. Let me tell you right now it is a VERY BAD idea to leave a friend who’s tripping their balls off to fend for themselves in our kind of world. I had to literally dig myself out of a hole, and in the process, my trip lost a lot of its appealing factor. To make matters worse I saw an old friend/coworker of mines who I hadn’t seen in years, but I couldn’t really talk to him in the condition that I was in. After waiting for what seemed to be 10 eternities for Jay and Bob to come back, I got all my stuff together, and went outside looking for them. I thought of asking for help but I pictured how that would look in my head (heyyyyy, have you seeen these two guys runnin around here ???? Yea they were just here, and I can’t seem to find them anywhere. No I’m not crazy! They were right there!!) You get the picture. It took every ounce of what I had in me, but I found them after a few minutes of searching around the outside patio. I never felt so angered/betrayed/relieved in my life. Jay bummed a cig off this one girl who was sitting outside, and we soon left. I felt that the trip was over, even though I had small “high lights” where I would see patterns where patterns normally do not show up.
We dropped Jay off back at his house, and headed to mines. When I got home, I was strangely aware of all the objects in my room. It was if my trip had now enlightened me too things I usually pay little attention to. I poured myself a cup of coffee and was amazed by all the swirls and patterns it forms. About an hour after coming home and getting settled in, I attempted to goto sleep, but my mind was still racing with all things I had experienced in the past 7 hours. I had so many questions (still do) in my head. Did that God thing really happen? Why didn’t they take in my note pad or ask anyone else for paper? Did I really rip apart the pizza? After a long shower and many minutes of stillness, I was finally able to fall into sleeps graceful arms.
Conclusion: This trip taught me a lot. It also made me remember quite a bit as well. Perceiving everything as yourself makes you really think everything through, would you want that done to yourself? Would you not? Things like that. One of the best ways I explain tripping from mushrooms is that it is very similar to being a kid with a VAST imagination and that while the shrooms are in effect so to speak, you have the ability to use your mind in any fashion you like. One thing, which really puzzles me, is how/why I became God, and saw things the way I did. You could say the obvious, and say that it was due to the mushrooms, but it was much deeper than a simply visual trip. I do not know if this could be classified as ego death or not, but I failed to simply be just a conscious entity inside earthly flesh, I was/am everything. I also felt the power which a god must feel, and its nothing like you’ve ever experienced but with your power comes the same amount of responsibility. This trip showed me that we have so much to learn about the brain, and how it functions and interacts with everything.
I also discovered that Salvia is not a visual drug, but rather it’s a drug which puts you into a dream-like state of mind very quickly
If you ever a sitter for someone, look out for them as if they were a baby. There’s tons more to be said on the subject, but that is what I would like to add here.
I think my life/perspective on things has been changed a lot by this trip. I’m a lot more easy going now, and many aspects of life engage me where as before they were simply there, and that was all. I can say without a doubt this trip was definitely a push in the right direction for me.
My next trip, I will definitely be more prepared. I am currently in the process of designing a cloth that will be worn while the trip is going on, so that the tripper has the ultimate in comfort, but also is able to interact fully with reality, and looks pretty decent while in the process J I am also in the process of securing a piece of land where I can be truly free and without responsibilities while tripping.
Safe and happy tripping to all of you.
[title edited to meet guidelines -mash]
[ 25 August 2002: Message edited by: masheadatronic ]
This for Sunday August 18th, 2002.
Chemicals: Mushrooms, Salvia A Dorium 10x, Marijuana
Wow, this past Sunday has been such an eye opener to some of the brains deepest inner workings. My trip begins with my two friends who we shall cleverly refer to as Jay and Bob. Jay instant messages me and informs me that he has his house all to himself for a few hours, and wants myself and Bob to come over to hang out while experimenting with consciousness. Keeping in mind that Jay had about 5 – 6 grams worth of dried caps n stems waiting for me, I was not one to pass. My earlier attempt with mushrooms (1 cap + stem) produced only small yields. I found everything funnier and noticed that stars had halos. I also became 50x more creative than normal, but had no outlet for it at the time. Given all of this, I was eager to see if I could venture into the level 5 arena of life to see what it held for me, or at very least, get some killer visuals going. I had done all of my research before in the past, reading trip reports from all over the net and absorbing as much information as I possibly could on the subject of mushrooms. To say this trip was years in the making would be an understatement.
I called Bob up on Sunday morning and told him to head over to my house. After checking around, I made sure I had all the essentials, and if I didn’t I at least had everything needed where I could buy it at Jays place. Bob and I headed off, and I put on my earplugs to get a little more grounded and centered. I found out, after a concert, that wearing ear plugs was one of the best ways one could get in tune with what they were feeling, what thoughts were going through their mind, etc simply because the sheer amount of noise pollution we are normally subjected to is no longer present. Shortly after about half an hour of driving, we arrived at Jay’s place to find him half asleep but as soon as he saw who it was, he got up and got himself together. Our first order of the day was to go out and get the salvia since Jay had no more to his name and for that we turned to the oracle known as the internet. I always held the misconception in my mind that Salvia could only be purchased online, and sent to an address, or grown; to my surprise, SEVERAL head shops in town carried it and one in particular carried the liquid extract. We all got ourselves together and headed out. Now being the smart guys that we are, you would assume that we called in advance to make sure that they were open, and that they actually carried the product which we were looking for, but no J. After a little creative thinking, and some burning petrol, we arrive back at Jay’s pad with Salvia and bong in hand ready to go.
I loaded up the bong with Salvia and took the tour lighter to it. BOOM! One hit and I was gone elsewhere. In retrospect, it’s amazing the short amount of time it takes this chemical to hit you. From what I remember about the trip, Jay and Bob were friends of mines from some lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng time ago whom I just happened to be sitting in front of. After about 5 minutes or so of sitting in front of Jay’s AC unit, I came back fully and was stunned by what I had just seen. Even though I hadn’t broken through and achieved some of the astounding trips you hear of while on Salvia, I had done well in my own opinion.
During this entire time, I had slowly been consuming my baggy of dried caps n stems with oj to mask the taste. I lit up a small bud but Jay and Bob decided they wanted none. While sitting on the bed, I remembered one of Jay’s friends walking in and it really surprised me for some reason. We all went outside and shared a joint.
This is where the trip begins
While passing the joint around, thinking about nothing in particular, Jay, myself, Bob and Jay’s friend all share a good laugh about this news camera helicopter passing overhead, twice! I took another hit of the joint and my attention was directed towards Jay’s sidewalk; it contained these tiny ant like creatures which caused the cement to move! Keep in mind this is my first time ever seeing a visual of any kind so I was pretty ecstatic. I informed everyone of my new discovery but they just all kind of chuckled and went back to talking about nothing in particular. I stood up and began to walk around Jay’s backyard, just examining all of my surroundings, and taking in everything I could. I looked at this one tree Jay has, and for the first time in my life, I could perceive each of the 3 dimensions separately and appreciate each one. I had a feeling that I was in this art gallery which featured an exhibit called “the 3rd dimension” and this tree was it. For the first 10 minutes, I spent my time just wondering “meaninglessly” around Jay’s backyard, and simply exploring all that it offered. Something caused me to walk inside his house, and I sat down on one of his beanbags. One of the really cool things I now had the ability to do was get lost in my imagination and so that’s what I did for a moment J Jay has these bean bags which are just really fun to play with, so I began to get lost inside of them. In my mind, I was in this house, and there were all these pictures which had a quicksand like ability to literally draw your physical body into them. Each time I felt myself being pulled into one of these pictures, I shook myself out of it and went “Whoa!!” I also remember pretending one of the beanbags was a female, and started to caress it as if was such. Bob really got a kick out of this, and it drew me out of my daydream.
I ventured back outside, and I just stood in amazement at all the patterns the grass now formed. They now looked very similar to aloe plants that you see in the desert or gardening shops. I could feel something drawing me closer to the ground, and I didn’t mind this feeling so I obeyed it. When I got down to the ground, it just felt right for some reason, not that I was meant to crawl on the ground but that being close to the earth is the way to be. When I got down to the ground, billions of thoughts were going through my head, but one in particular had struck me, and hard; I became God. I thought to myself “what a tremendous responsibility” and I got lost in another one of my thought patterns. In my head, I became Adam from the biblical story of Adam and Eve and saw myself turn into God from this. One of the best ways I can explain it is to say that I no longer existed as me, I existed as EVERYTHING, and there was no separation in regards to what was me, and what was not me. I recall thinking about dying in this state of perspective, but it really didn’t affect me at all because I felt like death (not existing) was such a falsehood. Looking back on it all, it was almost as if my survival was guaranteed by some unseen force and was no longer a something to be thought about in my head. I dipped in and out of this mode many times; it never stayed constant for some reason. All of this occurring while I was on lying on the ground, just embracing life.
I stood up, and began to see what I would come to know as “reality tracers”. They were these small objects which looked like bee’s, and when they catch the corner of your eye, they trace reality, very quickly. I started to walk back to Jay’s bedroom to see what all they were doing in there and found that simply moving from point A to point B had became something of an adventure in and of itself. Upon entering his room, I didn’t posses the memory of walking there, I just showed up. I announced to them that I was now God, and I was mainly responsible for making all things happening. Later on in the week, Bob told me that they would give me some logic tricks while I was in the God mode, and that I would “become” myself again and not know what happened, then once the questioning stopped, I would become God again. Unfortunately I remember none of this L One thing I notice about deep mushroom trips is that it seems to transcend your mind, and so you have a really hard time remembering everything which took place while tripping.
I went back outside and ventured down to the ground, exploring it some more, and communicating with all the creatures (read: bugs) which seemed to be playing with my body. Jay and Bob were becoming really hungry so they ordered a pizza which seemed to take two forever’s to get made. While the pizza was being made, I would slip in and out of the God mode, but a strange thing happened, when I was “not” God, I was this celestial traveler and Jay n’ Bob were my intergalactic friends who just happened to be hanging out in the same physical space as myself. Now this is one of the few places where I remember every single event of the trip, but my account varies from what everyone else experienced. We all began to eat, and I have to say, this pizza had to have been one of the BEST pizza’s I’ve ever tasted. I remembered eating a slice, playing with some cheese for a second, and then putting it down. When I asked Bob what happened, he says I took destroyed the pizza and begin to play with its cheese, even though everyone got fed. What really happened? The world may never know.
Pizza time was over, and I felt like being driven somewhere, so we all stepped outside, and I observed Bob’s car putting certain parts of itself together. It was almost like that scene out of AI where the aliens land their ship, and it just sort of splits apart. I hopped in the passenger seat, and we drove. Let me tell you, being driven somewhere while shrooming has got to be one of the greatest things you can engage yourself in. I would pretend I was superman, or pretend that I was on a roller coaster and just laugh at everything we would drive past. I put on my headphones, and put this really chilled out cd into my cd player. When I started playing it, I closed my eyes, and started to feel my feet melting into Bob’s carpet! This really surprised me and I shook myself out of it every time before it went too far and I melted completely into the carpet. We finally got off the freeway and we stopped at a few coffee shops before reaching our final destination. I remembered we would drive past these houses, and for the first time in my life, I knew what it meant to be truly thankful to be alive and existing. Each time we stopped, I would notice the females that were gathered around and I kept thinking in my head for some reason that they were friends of Jay’s, and they would be joining us soon.
Once we arrived to our final destination, we sat down, got ice waters, and I asked Jay and Bob to find me a pen. Once they did this, I asked them to find me a paper, because I could feel myself going into the God mode for the final time and I wanted to explain how reality worked before I lost this perspective. For some reason, none of us could find a sheet of paper to write on, and neither Jay nor Bob had the balls to ask one of the thousands of students there for a sheet. Slowly, I felt “God” slip away, and I became myself again. Even though the trip was coming to the close, I was still pretty well submerged into my own little world n whatnot. I could put on my headphones, and get lost in the music. Closing my eyes no longer meant shutting off light, but it put my entire consciousness into this void.
For some reason, Jay and Bob decided they were going to go somewhere, and they would be right back. Let me tell you right now it is a VERY BAD idea to leave a friend who’s tripping their balls off to fend for themselves in our kind of world. I had to literally dig myself out of a hole, and in the process, my trip lost a lot of its appealing factor. To make matters worse I saw an old friend/coworker of mines who I hadn’t seen in years, but I couldn’t really talk to him in the condition that I was in. After waiting for what seemed to be 10 eternities for Jay and Bob to come back, I got all my stuff together, and went outside looking for them. I thought of asking for help but I pictured how that would look in my head (heyyyyy, have you seeen these two guys runnin around here ???? Yea they were just here, and I can’t seem to find them anywhere. No I’m not crazy! They were right there!!) You get the picture. It took every ounce of what I had in me, but I found them after a few minutes of searching around the outside patio. I never felt so angered/betrayed/relieved in my life. Jay bummed a cig off this one girl who was sitting outside, and we soon left. I felt that the trip was over, even though I had small “high lights” where I would see patterns where patterns normally do not show up.
We dropped Jay off back at his house, and headed to mines. When I got home, I was strangely aware of all the objects in my room. It was if my trip had now enlightened me too things I usually pay little attention to. I poured myself a cup of coffee and was amazed by all the swirls and patterns it forms. About an hour after coming home and getting settled in, I attempted to goto sleep, but my mind was still racing with all things I had experienced in the past 7 hours. I had so many questions (still do) in my head. Did that God thing really happen? Why didn’t they take in my note pad or ask anyone else for paper? Did I really rip apart the pizza? After a long shower and many minutes of stillness, I was finally able to fall into sleeps graceful arms.
Conclusion: This trip taught me a lot. It also made me remember quite a bit as well. Perceiving everything as yourself makes you really think everything through, would you want that done to yourself? Would you not? Things like that. One of the best ways I explain tripping from mushrooms is that it is very similar to being a kid with a VAST imagination and that while the shrooms are in effect so to speak, you have the ability to use your mind in any fashion you like. One thing, which really puzzles me, is how/why I became God, and saw things the way I did. You could say the obvious, and say that it was due to the mushrooms, but it was much deeper than a simply visual trip. I do not know if this could be classified as ego death or not, but I failed to simply be just a conscious entity inside earthly flesh, I was/am everything. I also felt the power which a god must feel, and its nothing like you’ve ever experienced but with your power comes the same amount of responsibility. This trip showed me that we have so much to learn about the brain, and how it functions and interacts with everything.
I also discovered that Salvia is not a visual drug, but rather it’s a drug which puts you into a dream-like state of mind very quickly
If you ever a sitter for someone, look out for them as if they were a baby. There’s tons more to be said on the subject, but that is what I would like to add here.
I think my life/perspective on things has been changed a lot by this trip. I’m a lot more easy going now, and many aspects of life engage me where as before they were simply there, and that was all. I can say without a doubt this trip was definitely a push in the right direction for me.
My next trip, I will definitely be more prepared. I am currently in the process of designing a cloth that will be worn while the trip is going on, so that the tripper has the ultimate in comfort, but also is able to interact fully with reality, and looks pretty decent while in the process J I am also in the process of securing a piece of land where I can be truly free and without responsibilities while tripping.
Safe and happy tripping to all of you.
[title edited to meet guidelines -mash]
[ 25 August 2002: Message edited by: masheadatronic ]
Whoa.. any idea why? 