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SALVIA 10X - first trip, didn't even know what it was - Turning Into A Beach
i had only heard of salvia and seen a few people do it, but didn't really understand what the big deal was, only that people described it to me as otherworldly. i had only been smoking pot for a few months, and done mushrooms once, so i was not in any position of drug authority. as such when i did substances in those days i'd trip amazingly hard since i had no expecations for my drugs. i'd simply open my mind and send out feelers to see if there were any effects. i ordered 3g of salvia divinorum10x and my buddy m and i marched down to the beach by a river with a bong to discover what salvia had to offer, if anything. i remember laughing about internet warning about people "spending years as paint on the wall". that doesn't seem so ridiculous anymore.
m asked if anything was happening
and i said that my vision was tilting up
but that didn't make sense
so it turned into the whole world tilting up
and i nervously laughed because it kept getting weirder
and i handed him the bong
then i looked at what was below the image of the world tilting up
think about moving this browser window up the screen
and the browser is your world
i glimpsed the world behind my world
it was pinkish black
and then things sped up
my entire universe, within my vision that is, and all visions i had thought and known, all truths basically, seemed as though they had their legs kicked out from under them
and they crumpled into a tiny ball and i looked at how little i knew
and how great the blackness around it all was
and wanted it all back, even though i knew i could not be the same
so it shot at my head and we exploded, and i reviewed everything i knew that pertained not to me
i traveled along all the "facts" that i know about physics
and saw them all in a new light
(physics is ruined for me now. it's like seeing the puppeteer)
and then along my travels decided to go back home
saw the big bang, the universe, the galaxy, the solar system, earth
saw molten planet turn to dinosaur land turn to wasteland
saw great waters come and go
and was left at an overhead view of church point from the beach
felt calm
and then tried to walk away, forwards
and then realized that was silly since i was a beach and beach's can't walk
and that's when the panic set in
since in my ego loss and careful memory review i guess i forgot how to be a man
that's the only way it makes "sense"
and i wondered how long i had been holding the waters back
behind my "shoulders" as the water was
i had a great weight
and struggled to keep the sand dry and hold back the tides
as i desperately searched my beachy memory for how i came to be
and found no answer
and then realized
salvia
somehow smoking salvia turned me into a beach, and i almost cried because i didn't know
i didn't know that salvia would turn me into a beach
and i tried to run but i could not
i thought about calling for help but i could not
i wanted to shoot myself but i could not
i was a beach forever and terrified to the bone
and then i looked down
i hadn't tried that
and there were my feet
so i rushed through to those feet
and it was like falling out of one of bill and ted's time wormholes
i fell onto the beach and hit the ground running
i still couldn't leave
i still felt the waters behind me
but i was in my body moving around
and didn't feel like stopping to figure out what was happening
the more i moved the more i just wanted to forget what had just happened
so i tried to wipe the waves off on the sand
just running around
and i said to m "we can't leave this place!!!" since i still felt that way
but he was drooling
my whole trip took a minute, maybe one and a half
the utter lack of time seems like eternity
eternity doesn't necessarily involve measures of time
more of depth
but being a beach "forever" scared me
when i started being a beach time was working "normally" i thought
it was slow thinking. i guessed at one point that each thought i had must take at least a thousand years
but they sped up
once i assumed a new role and stopped playing my mind on 'the infinite universe' time once more started going
but not at it's normal pace
only when i got through the hole did it get normal
when i said that we couldn't leave m looked over his right shoulder into the bushes
and he saw something there he didn't like
and i knew our experiences were terrifying but different
and was amazed by how strange salvia is
but still not thinking about the drug too much as a drug but more as "that which fucks shit up that you put in a pipe"
and then he started drooling wildly and trying to speak
and i laughed kinda
but i understood
thought it was strange that he couldn't speak
and he moved his arms about
then he got up and walked towards the bushes
shouted
and ran straight back into the river
so i tried to get him and pulled him out
and he looked at me like he was seeing me for the first time
grabbed my right forearm with amazing strength
and tried to run away from church point
and this is interesting
i was still reeling from my experience
and when we got to a certain point i said "no man, we can't leave here. we're stuck dude. salvia makes us stuck"
and he said "WE CAN'T?!"
and then we both laid down on the cement slab of the cross
and he went into his sweatshirt
and i looked at the sky
and felt sand with my fingers
and we both just sat there until we felt that we could leave
i think it must have been an hour or two
and that, my friends, was a motherfucking salvia trip
apparently his world turned into a rolodex of possibilities and he was stuck in single frame images that would morph and show him information
and at various points he'd realize what was happening and try to break out
and then another would be forced
all the time being shown these things by the "fuckers" in the bushes
what salvia does is make you so stupid that any external stimulus becomes a thunderous truth.
including your own thought as an external stimulus
so that when i thought things were tilting up, they were and then changed and kept changing and changing
and exponentially getting crazier the more the drug took hold
and then piecing back together as it wore off.
salvia is horrifyingly precise. i'd compare it to hell only because of the timelessness and the fact that things happen so quickly that you completely forget you're on a drug. that's scary. i must have done salvia a hundred times since that, with trips of varying intensity. but none are so etched in my memory as this first one.
i had only heard of salvia and seen a few people do it, but didn't really understand what the big deal was, only that people described it to me as otherworldly. i had only been smoking pot for a few months, and done mushrooms once, so i was not in any position of drug authority. as such when i did substances in those days i'd trip amazingly hard since i had no expecations for my drugs. i'd simply open my mind and send out feelers to see if there were any effects. i ordered 3g of salvia divinorum10x and my buddy m and i marched down to the beach by a river with a bong to discover what salvia had to offer, if anything. i remember laughing about internet warning about people "spending years as paint on the wall". that doesn't seem so ridiculous anymore.
m asked if anything was happening
and i said that my vision was tilting up
but that didn't make sense
so it turned into the whole world tilting up
and i nervously laughed because it kept getting weirder
and i handed him the bong
then i looked at what was below the image of the world tilting up
think about moving this browser window up the screen
and the browser is your world
i glimpsed the world behind my world
it was pinkish black
and then things sped up
my entire universe, within my vision that is, and all visions i had thought and known, all truths basically, seemed as though they had their legs kicked out from under them
and they crumpled into a tiny ball and i looked at how little i knew
and how great the blackness around it all was
and wanted it all back, even though i knew i could not be the same
so it shot at my head and we exploded, and i reviewed everything i knew that pertained not to me
i traveled along all the "facts" that i know about physics
and saw them all in a new light
(physics is ruined for me now. it's like seeing the puppeteer)
and then along my travels decided to go back home
saw the big bang, the universe, the galaxy, the solar system, earth
saw molten planet turn to dinosaur land turn to wasteland
saw great waters come and go
and was left at an overhead view of church point from the beach
felt calm
and then tried to walk away, forwards
and then realized that was silly since i was a beach and beach's can't walk
and that's when the panic set in
since in my ego loss and careful memory review i guess i forgot how to be a man
that's the only way it makes "sense"
and i wondered how long i had been holding the waters back
behind my "shoulders" as the water was
i had a great weight
and struggled to keep the sand dry and hold back the tides
as i desperately searched my beachy memory for how i came to be
and found no answer
and then realized
salvia
somehow smoking salvia turned me into a beach, and i almost cried because i didn't know
i didn't know that salvia would turn me into a beach
and i tried to run but i could not
i thought about calling for help but i could not
i wanted to shoot myself but i could not
i was a beach forever and terrified to the bone
and then i looked down
i hadn't tried that
and there were my feet
so i rushed through to those feet
and it was like falling out of one of bill and ted's time wormholes
i fell onto the beach and hit the ground running
i still couldn't leave
i still felt the waters behind me
but i was in my body moving around
and didn't feel like stopping to figure out what was happening
the more i moved the more i just wanted to forget what had just happened
so i tried to wipe the waves off on the sand
just running around
and i said to m "we can't leave this place!!!" since i still felt that way
but he was drooling
my whole trip took a minute, maybe one and a half
the utter lack of time seems like eternity
eternity doesn't necessarily involve measures of time
more of depth
but being a beach "forever" scared me
when i started being a beach time was working "normally" i thought
it was slow thinking. i guessed at one point that each thought i had must take at least a thousand years
but they sped up
once i assumed a new role and stopped playing my mind on 'the infinite universe' time once more started going
but not at it's normal pace
only when i got through the hole did it get normal
when i said that we couldn't leave m looked over his right shoulder into the bushes
and he saw something there he didn't like
and i knew our experiences were terrifying but different
and was amazed by how strange salvia is
but still not thinking about the drug too much as a drug but more as "that which fucks shit up that you put in a pipe"
and then he started drooling wildly and trying to speak
and i laughed kinda
but i understood
thought it was strange that he couldn't speak
and he moved his arms about
then he got up and walked towards the bushes
shouted
and ran straight back into the river
so i tried to get him and pulled him out
and he looked at me like he was seeing me for the first time
grabbed my right forearm with amazing strength
and tried to run away from church point
and this is interesting
i was still reeling from my experience
and when we got to a certain point i said "no man, we can't leave here. we're stuck dude. salvia makes us stuck"
and he said "WE CAN'T?!"
and then we both laid down on the cement slab of the cross
and he went into his sweatshirt
and i looked at the sky
and felt sand with my fingers
and we both just sat there until we felt that we could leave
i think it must have been an hour or two
and that, my friends, was a motherfucking salvia trip
apparently his world turned into a rolodex of possibilities and he was stuck in single frame images that would morph and show him information
and at various points he'd realize what was happening and try to break out
and then another would be forced
all the time being shown these things by the "fuckers" in the bushes
what salvia does is make you so stupid that any external stimulus becomes a thunderous truth.
including your own thought as an external stimulus
so that when i thought things were tilting up, they were and then changed and kept changing and changing
and exponentially getting crazier the more the drug took hold
and then piecing back together as it wore off.
salvia is horrifyingly precise. i'd compare it to hell only because of the timelessness and the fact that things happen so quickly that you completely forget you're on a drug. that's scary. i must have done salvia a hundred times since that, with trips of varying intensity. but none are so etched in my memory as this first one.
