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Room 101: what is , or was, your greatest fear.

panic in paradise

panic in paradise

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In the spirit of George Orwells 1984, and room 101 what is your greatest fear? or rather, what was your greatest fear?

Be honest, everyone is frightened of something, be it deep water, cats/dogs, spiders, social situations, there is a phobia for anything.

My hope here is for you to share your own fear, and others too as well in all seriousness. No matter what it is, you never know, some one else may feel the same way, and not speak of it because they feel silly, or are embarrassed. Your step forward might prove that you are not alone, and help others to feel the same.

For me I have social phobia. To go more into detail(and it is odd) I can feel very comfortable on a stage BUT, talking to an individual most of the time can make me feel sick, and like I am going to pass out sometimes. Often walking through the grocery store I just want to run out of there because it feels so awkward.

I (obviously) am comfortable here with you all, the thing is though that I cant see you, and you cant see me. Still though I am myself, and that gives me more confidence in myself.

I recently took on a job at a shop, and when it came time for me too jump on the register and chat with customers I thought I was going to pass out, I could feel myself sweating but went through with it and then headed t'words the back of the store where I felt I belonged, packing away beer and such(hehe).

I thought about it later and felt ridiculous, I also do some firkin dangerous work, and am scared of hights. My fear of hights though is thrilling to me, it, makes me feel high. I took that realization and said to my self that these people arent going hurt me like a 25' fall to a steel boat deck would, so I forced my self out of the back, and now look forward too meeting and greeting customers, and further developing my repertoire with them.

So, please now share with us, learn from us, and lets help each other.

life, love & laughter for you all

panic_in_paradise
 
Losing my mind. It's happened before, and I'd literally do anything to prevent it from happening again.
 
Bears, dogs and aliens (/UFOs).

Dogs is the most everyday fear I have.

I'd get terrified, panic and turn pale if I saw a living bear out in the wild nature.

Then again, I'd probably lost my mind if I saw aliens, so I definately don't want that to happen!
 
I (obviously) am comfortable here with you all, the thing is though that I cant see you, and you cant see me. Still though I am myself, and that gives me more confidence in myself.
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You are a deep, intelligent and beautiful self which everyone loves.=D
Well done on getting yourself to the front at the till ~ it just takes baby steps, do a little at a time my love but keep up the positive vibe!!!!=D =D

LOVE xxxx
 
Hmmm.. No fears now.. I shed my shell so long ago. BUT in my younger days.. I had fears of open spaces, and crowds. And that's pretty much it. I don't fear spiders, I kill them with my bare hands... My girlfriend finds it disturbing that I can do that lol. . . .
 
here's an odd one....

i hate needles. i can't stand them. i hate getting anything injected into me, or blood drawn. i give blood often though, cause i am a universal donor. my blood can go to anyone.

also, i am a piercer (not my main job) and work with needles virtually everyday.
 
massiveinminiature :)" c'mon be free you know who iam, were just living people" cat power

thank you, i do feel this love you speak of, as most show it with no denying. you emerate it as well massiveinminiature, stick around please. we have lost many TDS locals, the fear of not knowing who might be next is almost overwhelming too.

a ripple in still water shapes all streams-rivers-ponds-lakes-oceans, and the life that inhabits them all. -slightly plagerised from the GD

i was hoping aliens would be mentioned, because just as deep water, it is the unknown. the unknown is only conquered with a great dive into it, the unknown.

another thing my wifey mentioned that i should as a fear is being sober.... i do fear it, or justify not being.

life,love,and laughter.
 
I'm not sure what my greatest fear now is. Failure and ending up spending my life slaving away in a shitty job, bored and miserable, perhaps? I've always been a bit scared of that, but it motivates me to do well so I can't complain.

In the past: cancer, aliens, vomiting, social situations, having a panic attack in public, dogs. I still hate dogs. Even little ones freak me out a little....I'm always slightly worried they're going to bite me. I'm not a huge fan of huntsman spiders, but other ones don't bother me.

None of my fears are particularly significant but even little ones can be crippling, so I'm thankful that I've gotten over the various fears and phobias I've had in the past. :D
 
fears? Unfortunately, lots.

Fear of failure, of ending up alone, fear of fearing aloneness, of being in love, of intimacy, and most of all, fear of myself and the myriad ways in which i like to fuck things up.

Oh yeah, and I am petrified of Lizards. Snakes, spiders, sharks and any other regular animal that people fear are fine, EXCEPT lizards. They way they crawl and chase things makes my skin crawl.
 
social situations
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here's an odd one....

i hate needles. i can't stand them. i hate getting anything injected into me, or blood drawn. i give blood often though, cause i am a universal donor. my blood can go to anyone.

also, i am a piercer (not my main job) and work with needles virtually everyday.
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also, i have a bad fear of seizures. Last year on st. patricks day a friend of mine had a seizure after the club. we had come back to my house, and it was her first (and only) time ever taking pills. her sister had given her like 4 pills over the night, and it turned out that a few other people had adverse reactions to these pills. we never found out what was in them.

it was very scary. there were 6 of us, chilling in my room. all of a sudden, my friend starts to convulse, banging her head on the wall. we put her on my bed, to keep her from injuring her head. her eyes were rolling back in to her head, and she was spitting everywhere. after she stopped convulsing, she was completely unresponsive, and there was a strange "nothingness" in her eyes.

she was blinking, but not moving, or talking. everyone there was in tears. it was a very painful thing to see. eventually, she came out of it. i learned that she had pissed my bed, but i just didn't care. after she was okay, she took a shower, and I gave her a pair of pajama pants. i was so relieved to see that she was alright.

recently, i have began having them. i had one just before new years eve, and another one 3 days ago. the one in december wasn't witnessed by anyone, but my fiance found me in my kitchen, passed out in a puddle of vomit.

the recent one was witnessed by everyone. it was in my apartment building. everyone here knows who I am, because I used to work here. i was transported to the hospital by ambulance, and given large doses of ativan. they sent me to see a neurologist, who put me on Keppra, an anticonvulsant.

The Dr. that put me on the anticonvulsant also referred me to a physical therapist, a physician, and a neurological institute to get an MRI, a CT scan, and an EEG. All this is making me nervous. I used to have a brain tumor, which was surgically removed.

I'm just kinda worried.
 
^^^The ironing is delicious, P-)

The older I get, the more stuff frightens me. I was involuable in my 20s. As my 30s draw to a close, I DO worry about mortality, illness & pain. Thankfully, the world changes; as a kid I was totally convinced that any day was going to be nuclear holocost. I live 13 miles from the centre of Manchester, so close enough to die, sadly not close enough to die instantly....
 
Change. (well, so that one word includes just about everything..) I fear death too, even though some of you might beg to differ..
 
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Change. (well, so that one word includes just about everything..) I fear death too, even though some of you might beg to differ..
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Change is annoying, but I don't fear it.

I welcome death, I fear what lies beyond it.
 
^ I must admit death isn't massively appealing to myself either rumpled.
In fact it was only 5 weeks ago I actually accepted the fact that I wouldn't live forever (in an emotional type sense, not inellectually, obviously)
Suffocation is another thing that I am afraid of.


Mentioned by the OZCREATURES is a simalar theme "fear of failure" paradoxically I pretty much embrace failure (as judged in conventional terms) I don't quite know why, but I know it's not for a fucked up reason .
 
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I dont know, ppl and especially girls in some situation, Apart that an not afraid of anything. I do get scared in my dreams sometimes, but can't do a thing about it or on a drug, but can hardly help with it. I must say after all am quite scared of some drugs like 5-MeO-DMT.
 
When I take 5-MeO, I THINK I'm going to die! Stick to N,N 'the original and still the best' tryptamine.
 
for me it would be staying immature forever ( addictive personality )

:(
 
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