rocovering 34 yrs now stuck on scripts

[rocovering]

So who knew? Somehow thought I was sober but a clear-eyed view back sez not so. Been using illegal and legal drugs for 45 years and I think I'm getting off them now? My current cocktail is down to six or eight or so pills, split out three to four times a day. I'm trying to substitute for withdrawal from clonazepam and tramadol. I tried gabapentin with no luck, altho I felt better for sure. Now giving oxycarbapezine a trial. Just read about the dextromethorphan and have a smidge left. I didn't want to do a slow titration (because why?). I am just so tired of it all. I mean give me a break, at 65 I am tired of it all and horrified that I turned around once or twice and here I am. Something like Alice in the Looking Glass, only not so much fun. ANY feedback about WD would be greatly appreciated. I got rid of the lyrica, a hellacious detox, but am still stuck with the tramadol (total knee replacement surgery in September) and the benzo (slow increase starting with 0.5 PRN now taking it TID and having break through anxiety). Enough already! So much for the sobriety and all the coins.....

 

[insanity@itsfinest]

hello there rocovering.. insanity here. first off, the majority of the medications you have mentioned dont sound too abusive, but I am not you so I cant say differently and if you want off, then you want off. secondly, regardless of your age, its never too late to see. glad you see now and are committing to change. as far as the withdrawals, depending on the amount taken daily and how long youve been on them, depends on the severity and intensity. but regardless, no matter who you are or what you have done, you cant really get around the withdrawals of coming off a medication. i definitely understand being tired of it. it gets old. just hang in there. sorry i couldnt give actual good advice.
oh. and welcome to bluelight. im new as well.
keep your head up

 

[rocovering]

Thanks for responding. The issue here is trying to get off the tramadol for good and decades of antidepressants and mood stabilizers have altered my brain enough that kicking the tramadol is worse than most. Update on this one, I am down to about 87mg daily and I did take the oxcarbapezine to help. I have a wonderful p-nurse who is always willing to work with me. So two days ago was day 4 and the shite hit the fan on tram withdrawal. Mental, emotion and physical symptoms. I took a benadryl on top of my clonazepam and was able to sleep through four hours of it and so get through. Same thing on day five without the benadryl, but did go back to the TID 0.5 dose of the clonazepam with everyone telling me what's the point of trying to do both at once so I took the clonazepam and fell asleep through the morning crazies. Today is day three of potential withdrawal and it's early a.m. so we will see how it goes. Current regimen: gababpentin 300BID, oxcarbapezine300TID (increased yesterday), clonazepam0.5TID, tramadol 50mg at noon and 37.5 (more or less as I cut it with a cutter) at 8pm-ish. I will keep this up until the withdrawal symptoms from the tramadol go away for at least a week and then decide the next move on the tramadol, most likely a change for the 8pm dose. I feel safer with the full 50 mg for the daytime for now.