Resisting cravings + how far have I set my recovery back?

[Rio Fantastic]

Hello! Yesterday, I woke up on day 14 clean from heroin. All physical symptoms had subsided, but the mood swings were getting more chaotic and troublesome. I don't know if this is normal PAWs or if my bipolar exacerbates it, but I can go from elated in the morning to feeling like a dark cloud of misery has descending over me by the evening and sucked all the joy out of life. During a particularly nasty depressive turn, I decided fuck it and ended up scoring a bag. Surprise, surprise, it was fantastic. I had the bad luck of getting some amazing stuff - prior to quitting I was shooting up £30 worth a day just to stop the sickness, but this £10 bag smoked had me nodding all night. I've woken up today and realized how totally stupid this was - I doubt I'll get physical withdrawals from one time use, but have I set back my brain healing by the full 14 days? Also, does anyone have any techniques for resisting cravings when that awful depression comes on? I'm pretty good about resisting cravings otherwise, but my thinking gets so distorted when I go to that dark place, and I'm shocked that I used last night. I've tried to take steps to prevent it from happening again - I've deleted all my phone numbers etc - but I could really use some methods to ensure this doesn't happen again.

Any help would be really appreciated!

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Any use is a setback in recovery, but that doesn't mean you can't continue on your path.

 

[closeau]

Exactly. I have bipolar and depression is awful so I could imagine how hard it is to stay clean during that time. Have you seen your dr? They might be able to adjust or give meds for your depression. Physically you may not feel Withdrawl from one time use but mentally you will. I encourage you to talk to a shrink and combat that bipolar depression. It's nasty stuff. It paralyzes me. Hang in there and keep getting back on the right path no matter how many times you fall off. I'm here to listen if you need to vent. Good luck to ya and be safe!