Oh yeah! See I told you. Sean moved his bedroom around so now its almost a mirror image of mine at home. Plus we solved our problem of him playing video games by getting wireless Internet so I would have something to do while he was doing that. It was a big fight but we made up and then he had such a wonderful idea for fixing it. I love him.
So now I REALLY feel at home there. I can SO see us living together and I KNOW without a doubt he has given it a thought. I might want to graduate from college (Next year) and find a job in the psych field. (Does anyone know what the job market is looking like? Is it flooded ATM? What kind of jobs are available? What do you think it will be at the end of 2010? Thanks) But you never know.
If you have kept track of our relationship and that spend 3 or 4 days constantly together at a time and are giving thought to moving in together at some point. Plus he is really trying to improve his situation. He has a big hole to dig himself out of. I REALLY believe I'm part of that. He wants to drive so I don't have to anymore and get his own place. I think the fact that I'm positive and supportive helps SO much, he doesn't really get jackshit in that department from his family. He has also been motivated to keep his room clean, (I'm a pretty neat person and he knows that I like a clean enviornment. It helps me to stress less. Plus I don't have to clean cause then he can't find shit) and he talks a bit more and is more active with his family. He has always avoided them and kept to himself. But at my house we have sit down meals together and the like. He hated it at first but he is better about it because he knows its important to me. Plus his parents really enjoy him acting like part of the family.
I really do spend a lot of time thinking about him. I don't know if I've covered this but he still hasn't told me he loves me. I've been saying it for a long time. Well because I love easy, I just grow to love the person more and more with each passing day. The closest he has gotten to it is comforting me by saying he would never ever replace me, (I was getting paranoid) because he "has grown very fond of me". I'm ok with it. We have moved very fast in our relationship, which personally I think is ok if you are both still comfortable, but it only has been 4 months. I think he was VERY hurt, even cheated on by a girl that he told he loved so he keeps me at a distance. At least that's a guess, he WON'T talk about past relationships...is that a bad thing at all? He says that he is hesitant to let me in because I can make him second guess with my behavior. I know I can, hopefully I can change that stuff, but I can't blame him.
I had been pretty worried about our relationship, even thinking that maybe we should breakup. We had kinda lost that spark and he wasn't talking to me at all or being affectionate (our sex life is still way down. I know that's a lil normal but what can I do to get "in the mood" when I'm not? I'm watching a movie sometimes (I HATE to not see the end of a movie!) when he is int he mood and that doesn't help....). But its gotten better since I started watching what I say when I'm high so I'm not a complete and total bitch. Also initiating the affection by hugging him or asking for a kiss works. It is SO nice to get a hug from him! I tried to explain it to him but he didn't get it. The way he wraps his arms around me and holds me tight makes me feel SO loved. (So does everyone have this? Is it real real real love?
)
Perhaps THAT is it. oh god its 5:30 in the morning, I haven't slept yet (BL and I wanted to enjoy my high) and I have to be up at 8am. FUCK. I WILL need Tramadol to make it through work. Damn it! only 2 days on it and 2 days on the stuff with codeine and I'll have to bump up to 400mg. I will have those eaten in no time and I really shouldn't smuggle more (have to go to great lengths to make sure the parents don't intercept it. Damn I need my own place!) in since I had to put 2 new tires on my car.
I had one explode when Sean was filling it up for me. He takes care of me. Cars aren't my thing AT ALL. I'm not TOTALLY useless but I don't really know a whole lot at all. He exchanged the tires without a single complaint (Likely he knew I can't) . It really stressed me out and I don't know what I would have done without him.
I have such a WONDERFUL
boyfriend! I really hope that I can see him this weekend (I love just sleeping in the same bed as him even if he rolls around and keeps me up; Ambien ) and we have a great weekend. Any ideas of some things that we can do that aren't $$, that can be memorable and give us back that wonderful spark again?
Thanks for reading guys. I my BLers.
So now I REALLY feel at home there. I can SO see us living together and I KNOW without a doubt he has given it a thought. I might want to graduate from college (Next year) and find a job in the psych field. (Does anyone know what the job market is looking like? Is it flooded ATM? What kind of jobs are available? What do you think it will be at the end of 2010? Thanks) But you never know.
If you have kept track of our relationship and that spend 3 or 4 days constantly together at a time and are giving thought to moving in together at some point. Plus he is really trying to improve his situation. He has a big hole to dig himself out of. I REALLY believe I'm part of that. He wants to drive so I don't have to anymore and get his own place. I think the fact that I'm positive and supportive helps SO much, he doesn't really get jackshit in that department from his family. He has also been motivated to keep his room clean, (I'm a pretty neat person and he knows that I like a clean enviornment. It helps me to stress less. Plus I don't have to clean cause then he can't find shit) and he talks a bit more and is more active with his family. He has always avoided them and kept to himself. But at my house we have sit down meals together and the like. He hated it at first but he is better about it because he knows its important to me. Plus his parents really enjoy him acting like part of the family.
I really do spend a lot of time thinking about him. I don't know if I've covered this but he still hasn't told me he loves me. I've been saying it for a long time. Well because I love easy, I just grow to love the person more and more with each passing day. The closest he has gotten to it is comforting me by saying he would never ever replace me, (I was getting paranoid) because he "has grown very fond of me". I'm ok with it. We have moved very fast in our relationship, which personally I think is ok if you are both still comfortable, but it only has been 4 months. I think he was VERY hurt, even cheated on by a girl that he told he loved so he keeps me at a distance. At least that's a guess, he WON'T talk about past relationships...is that a bad thing at all? He says that he is hesitant to let me in because I can make him second guess with my behavior. I know I can, hopefully I can change that stuff, but I can't blame him.
I had been pretty worried about our relationship, even thinking that maybe we should breakup. We had kinda lost that spark and he wasn't talking to me at all or being affectionate (our sex life is still way down. I know that's a lil normal but what can I do to get "in the mood" when I'm not? I'm watching a movie sometimes (I HATE to not see the end of a movie!) when he is int he mood and that doesn't help....). But its gotten better since I started watching what I say when I'm high so I'm not a complete and total bitch. Also initiating the affection by hugging him or asking for a kiss works. It is SO nice to get a hug from him! I tried to explain it to him but he didn't get it. The way he wraps his arms around me and holds me tight makes me feel SO loved. (So does everyone have this? Is it real real real love?
) Perhaps THAT is it. oh god its 5:30 in the morning, I haven't slept yet (BL and I wanted to enjoy my high) and I have to be up at 8am. FUCK. I WILL need Tramadol to make it through work. Damn it! only 2 days on it and 2 days on the stuff with codeine and I'll have to bump up to 400mg. I will have those eaten in no time and I really shouldn't smuggle more (have to go to great lengths to make sure the parents don't intercept it. Damn I need my own place!) in since I had to put 2 new tires on my car.
I had one explode when Sean was filling it up for me. He takes care of me. Cars aren't my thing AT ALL. I'm not TOTALLY useless but I don't really know a whole lot at all. He exchanged the tires without a single complaint (Likely he knew I can't) . It really stressed me out and I don't know what I would have done without him.
I have such a WONDERFUL
boyfriend! I really hope that I can see him this weekend (I love just sleeping in the same bed as him even if he rolls around and keeps me up; Ambien ) and we have a great weekend. Any ideas of some things that we can do that aren't $$, that can be memorable and give us back that wonderful spark again? Thanks for reading guys. I
my BLers.