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gmlifer

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Remember when just one 10mg of Percocet would do the trick?
Remember when 40-50mg of oxy in one day seemed like a lot?
Remember when withdrawals were a couple days of feeling bad then everything was ok?
Remember when you actually extra money in the bank?
Remember when you felt in control?

Im just in the midst of withdrawals for the second time in less than 30 days and was thinking back at how manageable things were in the beginning. Now, though I am a master at controlling physical symptoms, the mental symptoms are starting to kick my ass these days. Its crazy how two weeks will go by in the blink of an eye and four days will seem like an eternity. I have never been a fan of sobriety and it has never been a friend of mine either but this particular habit is getting very taxing. Anyone else have any remember whens?
 
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Remember when you had a CHOICE of which pain pill you wanted to buy on the street?

Remember when oxycodone came in non-tamper proof amounts greater than 30mg?

Remember when we didn't boil down the market to USD per motherfucking MILLIgram?

Remember when we were allowed to talk about stamps on BL? (Related: Remember lacey k?)
 
I'm in the same position laying in bed withdrawals alone thinking about how much this shit controls me and manipulates my life , even though I'm functional and do good generally I'm not my 100% potential me.
Remember when weed actually got you high for fucks sake ?
Remember being able to have sex and drink socially and go wherever with your group of friends even to random people's houses to party and stay the night but you can't leave your area anymore cause you'll be sick I hate that ugh
 
Hell of a drug that has more control over us than any one person would be allowed. Unfortunately I have to work 6 days a weeks so it sucks big time to run out then have to deal with it for 10 hours a day at the job.
 
You will feel much better in a week or two.

i used to be hardcore opioid addict for 5 years....went through with drawal and stayed clean for 4 months. Now i fuck with kratom and occaisionally oxies a few times a week

and the remember when....is the present again.

The self control required to not dose more than a few times a week is very hard. but it seems to have been doable for a few months.

dependency is just not worth it. so much wasted time being sick that I couldve been accomplishing stuff.
 
Congrats Lucid, that's awesome that you are able to do that. Right now, for me, I would fight mike Tyson for a hand full of oxy.
 
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'member when an ounce from a suburban dealer cost $160 and was medical quality?

(Not "dope' but fuck it, I 'member).
 
gmlifer said:
Congrats Lucid, that's awesome that you are able to do that. Right now, for me, I would fight mike Tyson for a hand full of oxy.
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oh i was under the impression that your withdrawal was voluntary....like mine was. Yea not being able to get anything when you still want to use is the worst. how about go to the headshop and get some kratom?
 
I have kratom. My physical symptoms are completely under control. I buy mine by the kilo and last me about a month and half or so. It's the not having any energy or motivation that is taking longer and longer to pass each time.
 
_DankOpiAmp_ said:
'member when an ounce from a suburban dealer cost $160 and was medical quality?

(Not "dope' but fuck it, I 'member).
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Weeds only got cheaper in my area :?

Shiiiiitttt
I'm keeping my member when's to...

Member stealing from loved ones
Member being sick all the time
Member havin only one thing in mind constantly
Member having nothing?

Wish I could forget but this that shit that sticks.
 
xivixive said:
i would if i still knew peeps there and had the $ to make it worth it, but jersey is about 4 hours away man.... i am almost dead center of new york state.
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I'm currently back east and I don't know ANYONE in my local area (New York), I've had to subsist on venturing into places like Paterson or Camden. Which is a total foreign experience, I'm from the rural American west and there is no such thing as "cold copping" where I'm from, you've got to "know people", you can't just wander into the local crackhouse and buy drugs. So it's definitely been a learning experience for me.

With that being said it's shockingly easy. The dope IMO has been good and cheap.
 
Burnt Offerings said:
With that being said it's shockingly easy. The dope IMO has been good and cheap.
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it always makes me happy to hear how horribly the DEA is failing at the drug war. i mean it sucks that people are dying but i actually root for the country to be flooded with more and stronger drugs. maybe one day they will get dismantled for being such a failure
 
I apologize xivixive, I've been messed up real good and thought I was being funny with that reply.

Also, Burnt Offerings is a suave and woke af dude who could probably cop in the Sahara, so knowing that such a person can find dope in foreign dangerous places aint no surprise. However if running in fucking Paterson with out of state plates, holy fuck, mother Mary herself must be blessin' down upon thee. I miss the ECP too, freal, not sure if I'm that bold, skilled or lucky to attempt that shiz likewise TBH
 
SirTophamHat said:
I apologize xivixive, I've been messed up real good and thought I was being funny with that reply.

Also, Burnt Offerings is a suave and woke af dude who could probably cop in the Sahara, so knowing that such a person can find dope in foreign dangerous places aint no surprise. However if running in fucking Paterson with out of state plates, holy fuck, mother Mary herself must be blessin' down upon thee. I miss the ECP too, freal, not sure if I'm that bold, skilled or lucky to attempt that shiz likewise TBH
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awwww I'm flattered *blushes*

Just had a great mental image of me buying drugs off some Bedouin tribesmen in some rural Algerian locale

Paterson isn't that bad, though...I mean, it is in that it's a big ghetto-type environment, but it's pretty busy and hectic and you don't really feel that sketched going in there. Camden on the other hand...that's a different story. That place is like a ghost town by comparison, you can practically feel the eyes on you as you enter that city & the law enforcement presence is palpable. Not somewhere I'd recommend going if you have other options.
 
Remember when it was possible to do MDMA and not buy a redose?

Remember when you didn't spend the last hour of your roll strategizing how you are going to escape wherever you are and go home because you've learned to hate coming down around others?

Remember when hair the dog was something that was not an inevitable end to a night of drinking?

Remember when it was possible to take a psychedelic and not spend the entire trip thinking about how horrible of a person you became through addiction (I know that no trip is bad per se...I just miss the carefree feelings).

Remember when you thought that making a BL account would make you be more responsible with your drug use?
 
Remember when you could confidently take your doc without checking vitals every five minutes.

Remember when you take pain meds because you were in pain and the meds actually worked to kill some of that pain.
 
Remember when withdrawals were a couple days of feeling bad then everything was ok?
Remember when you actually extra money in the bank?
Remember when you felt in control?
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Im excactly in the "remember when" situation right now (heroin). Thanks for your post reminding me how carefull I gotta be.
 
xivixive said:
i would if i still knew peeps there and had the $ to make it worth it, but jersey is about 4 hours away man.... i am almost dead center of new york state.

on the plus side, i live near an amish community who hasn't ever raised a brow at the 25lb box of poppy seeds i get every month for less than 3 digits. it's a special hell, getting well every day from that foul, foul liquid...........

OT: remember "regs"? remember "hydro"? remember 40mg IR OC's?
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Never was IR Oxycontin 40mg. Up to 2010, this was easy to do however.
 
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