Rekindling

[Jeromaya]

I used to love psychedelics, they gave me many things from just a good time with friends to outlooks and insights I'm fairly certain I would never have had without them.
I loved the way that they taught me to be responsible with drugs, if I overused them they didn't make me want more, they just stopped working so I learned that less is more.
I mean I still did big doses now and then but I ate well exercised and took breaks and I think these are valuable lessons.
Then I got some tabs, I tried one on its own first as I usually do and was pretty convinced it was acid. One of my friends even had two and thought much the same thing.
Then my living situation changed and I didn't want to throw them away so I gave 1 each to everyone who happened to be there and ate the rest.
Ridicule me for my foolishness if you want but I think the trip I had was punishment enough I went a weird kind of blind, couldn't get up off the floor, had a severe panic attack and felt as tho I was suffocating8(.

I have had trips that were too intense before for example I once snorted mxe and 2ce on the advice of a friend (never do this) I kept the doses low but they seem to synergies quite extremely and the trip felt like it lasted forever but I kept my cool and never panicked.

I tried to do the same thing this time but it was simply impossible, I cried out thinking people would be able to help somehow , when they got there I realized they couldn't do anything and resigned myself to the fact I was going to die. When I finally realized I was ok I was so exhausted from sustained adrenaline release I passed out quite quickly.

I now have a paralyzing fear of that unknown factor of tripping that used to delight me, I get anxiety building to full on panic when I even think about ingesting something.
Other kinds of drugs quickly become familiar to the point of boring and I miss that x factor.

Has anyone experienced anything similar? Is there anything I can do about it? Have I grown and changed to the point where I have nothing more to gain from these kinds of experiences?

Be careful with nbome compounds they are not playing around first and foremost be save and then think about having a good time

 

[[éS]Infinite]

I had an experience mixing MDMA and ketamine which resulted in a very dysphoric, delirium-like state of mind that made me reconsider psychedelics for over a year. No negative effects were experienced after the trip had ended, however the trip itself was so unpleasant that I did not want to possibly repeat or exacerbate the state I had experienced.
Over time I began to feel comfortable with the realization that the combination, while not normally unpleasant, should not be repeated. I applied this template to all psychoactives; no mixing.
For your situation it is important to realize that you need to know your dose and know which compound you have. This information can be difficult to obtain, and if it is unattainable you need to exercise a few precautions. With blotters you can use a few reagent tests which can give you some indication of what you have. Based on the identity of the compound you can determine an appropriate dose, however the safest method would be to start with a single blotter (half even). From there you can titrate your dose.
Due to the nature of these compounds it needs to be understood that experiences are dynamic and may not always adhere to certain guidelines as so many factors influence how you may react to a compound.

 

[Morninggloryseed]

hmmm, similar to the experience of being married after a rough couple years? Take a new honeymoon, or try sex with a new partner in a different country.