muzby
Bluelighter
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- Feb 12, 2001
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when i look at my life, i can base most of my problems on my major fear...
no, not clowns...
the fear of rejection....
not just rejection in a relationship sense...
but rejection in general..
be it a couple of friends that decide to have a night out without inviting me, getting a rejection letter from a job i have applied for or even not being picked first in a sporting team at school...
rejection has always hurt me, and i try my hardest to please everyone, so as not to be rejected...
i like most people and give everyone the benefit of the doubt, in the hope that people will like me back... but sometimes people hurt me or reject me... and this is why, when i dont like someone, it is plain and out in the open, no bitchyness for me...
i'm friends with none of my ex's, and i base it all on rejection....
rejection has spured me on to most things in my life, because, after i get rejected, be it from a job, a sporting team or a partner, i will do my best to excel where i was when i was with this girl, or will get a job with a competitor if i really strived for a job.. just so i can do better and fuck em over in my own little way...
so yeah.. anyone else like this and hate rejection (Well, maybe not to my psychotic level anyway... )
and no, this was not spurred on by the rejection hotline....
no, not clowns...
the fear of rejection....
not just rejection in a relationship sense...
but rejection in general..
be it a couple of friends that decide to have a night out without inviting me, getting a rejection letter from a job i have applied for or even not being picked first in a sporting team at school...
rejection has always hurt me, and i try my hardest to please everyone, so as not to be rejected...
i like most people and give everyone the benefit of the doubt, in the hope that people will like me back... but sometimes people hurt me or reject me... and this is why, when i dont like someone, it is plain and out in the open, no bitchyness for me...
i'm friends with none of my ex's, and i base it all on rejection....
rejection has spured me on to most things in my life, because, after i get rejected, be it from a job, a sporting team or a partner, i will do my best to excel where i was when i was with this girl, or will get a job with a competitor if i really strived for a job.. just so i can do better and fuck em over in my own little way...
so yeah.. anyone else like this and hate rejection (Well, maybe not to my psychotic level anyway... )
and no, this was not spurred on by the rejection hotline....