It's about 9:42pm now. I had a busy day. I drug my tired ass out of bed at 12pm and drank an energy shot. I think it helped get my ass up, although it's not like I felt in the least bit speeded out or anything. I gathered all my crap to mail for the hearing, took it down to the post office and mailed it off. I'm glad to finally have that load off of my mind. I then took a long drive down to Pasadena, a place where I spent a good deal of the first 19 years of my life before Grandama and Granddad died..
Today however, I went for my appointment with this Reiki energy healer. She spent 2 hours on me instead of one and she knew things about me without having me tell her. She spent 20 minutes of the session on my head, said she had felt trauma there. Then she spent time around my reproductive organs and asked me if I'd ever lost a child cause there was trauma there. I explained I'd terminated a pregnancy 18 years ago and she'd said she my body remembered the pregnancy. She unblocked alot of pent up angst she said I had stored and said I should feel alot lighter, freer and I do.
I don't feel in the least bit tired now. She also said she could tell I had all this energy thinking about something that held me back for years, and I told her about the drugs for 25 years. "Why did you do it?," she asked in a non judgmental way. "They made me feel powerful over otherwise powerless situations," I said and boy is that true. The fatigue. Drugs. Gone. The weight. Drugs. Gone. The sex drive. Drugs. Gone. Not being able to unlock my creativity. Drugs. Gone. They served many purposes for me and now they're gone.
She said I keep thinking about going back to them and she's right, but I know I won't. I have been frustrated with all that's been going on, but I don't have to hide from the world or make excuses for my eccentric behavior like before. All my bullshit is out in the open to my family and friends. No more lying. No more being broke all the time down to 0 pennies in my pocket. I find solutions now, whereas I stayed in the problem before, but most of all I feel much more connected to others and less angry at them. Therefore, I abstain. I felt the heat radiating from her palms over whatever area of my body she was working on.
She sold me this meditation CD, something I've been wanting to buy for a long while. I do feel lighter, and I'm not at all tired. I feel good so I agreed to return for another appointment at the end of next month. Afterward when I got home I called Fawn and we talked for a while, then I drove over to see Dave and how everything was going for him after his quadruple bypass. I must say the dude is doing well. He's stopped eating bad food, he's taking all his meds, he's monitoring his blood sugar and doing everything the Docs tell him to do and he seems less depressed. I hope he keeps his attitude.
I told him I'm going to my Doc on the 12th to see what's up with the Hep C, plus talk about blood work and whatever treatment she thinks I might need. We're both living healthy lifestyles now. I went over to Mike's after that and hung out with him for 90 minutes or so and we had a good visit. Today was the first time in weeks I wasn't completely dominated by my chronic fatigue. After Mike's, I came home and watched some documentaries with Mom, talked to her and now I've got to jump in the shower and get ready for my graveyard shift at work. I've had a busy day and a good one. I said my prayers and soon I'll be off to work.
Today however, I went for my appointment with this Reiki energy healer. She spent 2 hours on me instead of one and she knew things about me without having me tell her. She spent 20 minutes of the session on my head, said she had felt trauma there. Then she spent time around my reproductive organs and asked me if I'd ever lost a child cause there was trauma there. I explained I'd terminated a pregnancy 18 years ago and she'd said she my body remembered the pregnancy. She unblocked alot of pent up angst she said I had stored and said I should feel alot lighter, freer and I do.
I don't feel in the least bit tired now. She also said she could tell I had all this energy thinking about something that held me back for years, and I told her about the drugs for 25 years. "Why did you do it?," she asked in a non judgmental way. "They made me feel powerful over otherwise powerless situations," I said and boy is that true. The fatigue. Drugs. Gone. The weight. Drugs. Gone. The sex drive. Drugs. Gone. Not being able to unlock my creativity. Drugs. Gone. They served many purposes for me and now they're gone.
She said I keep thinking about going back to them and she's right, but I know I won't. I have been frustrated with all that's been going on, but I don't have to hide from the world or make excuses for my eccentric behavior like before. All my bullshit is out in the open to my family and friends. No more lying. No more being broke all the time down to 0 pennies in my pocket. I find solutions now, whereas I stayed in the problem before, but most of all I feel much more connected to others and less angry at them. Therefore, I abstain. I felt the heat radiating from her palms over whatever area of my body she was working on.
She sold me this meditation CD, something I've been wanting to buy for a long while. I do feel lighter, and I'm not at all tired. I feel good so I agreed to return for another appointment at the end of next month. Afterward when I got home I called Fawn and we talked for a while, then I drove over to see Dave and how everything was going for him after his quadruple bypass. I must say the dude is doing well. He's stopped eating bad food, he's taking all his meds, he's monitoring his blood sugar and doing everything the Docs tell him to do and he seems less depressed. I hope he keeps his attitude.
I told him I'm going to my Doc on the 12th to see what's up with the Hep C, plus talk about blood work and whatever treatment she thinks I might need. We're both living healthy lifestyles now. I went over to Mike's after that and hung out with him for 90 minutes or so and we had a good visit. Today was the first time in weeks I wasn't completely dominated by my chronic fatigue. After Mike's, I came home and watched some documentaries with Mom, talked to her and now I've got to jump in the shower and get ready for my graveyard shift at work. I've had a busy day and a good one. I said my prayers and soon I'll be off to work.