Reflective

[it'snotsobad]

You watched me from across the room
As I slowly took it down
The house of cards we’d built for months
In heaps upon the ground
You shook your head and warned me
As I lifted up each card
You knew I would be sorry
But my confidence was jarred

“Remember all the plans we’d made
To show it off one day?”
The hopes and dreams we’d housed inside
Now seemed so far away.
We’d worked so hard to make it strong
We’d built it up so tall
I worried, still, as each storm passed
That house of cards would fall

So I took it upon myself
To take it down today
And as I picked at row by row
You turned and walked away
And when you did I looked around
And realized what I’d done
The house of cards was nearly gone
This battle, I had won

Triumphantly, I swung my arms
And watched the last cards fall
And noticed in that moment
There was no relief at all
Our hopes and dreams had disappeared
And just the cards remained
Alone I sat amongst the ruins
Emotionally drained

And you were gone forever.
You had given up the fight
I’d let you down too many times
Convinced that I was right
And looking back, I realized
I should have let it stand
I can’t rebuild our house of cards
With just one set of hands

I’M SORRY