Hi there, I am new to this site but have a unique question about psychedelics and thought this would be a good domain to inquire. I am a heavy user of psychedelic drugs but only do them at music festivals and settings of that sort. In dozens of LSD, RC's, and mushroom trips I have never had a bad experience in that setting, in fact have only had the most utterly blissful experiences until earlier this summer at Camp Bisco, an electronic music festival hosted by the Disco Biscuits. I was on 3 hits of LSD which turned out to be the RC 'DOA', drank alcohol that day, did some MDMA, and then took a nasal spray of next research chemicals that I'm not even sure what it was. The trip started great but ended in an utter train wreck with me screaming for help and thinking I was going to die because in well over 50 psychedelic trips in my life, I had never experienced anything like the sheer panic, anxiety, and fear that I felt that even manifested as physical pain and the most uncomfortable, horriffic numbness beyond my wildest imagination. This all began while dancing to the Bicuits and it felt like a 'switch' went off, and I just lost myself.
I have tripped since then at festivals a couple times and had great experiences. Then two nights ago at a festival I took two hits of very very strong LSD (stronger than what I had taken at the last couple festivals that were after the trainwreck experience). The trip started out great but at one point while dancing in a similar way to how I was at Camp Bisco, I felt the exact same 'switch' almost go off, in what felt like what I can only describe as an in-trip flashback. I fought it but had to stop dancing and breathe deeply non-stop, vastly taking away from the experience. The 'switch' that I felt was almost turned on reminded me exactly of the onset of the trainwreck experience at Camp Bisco and it scared the shit out of me as throughout the rest of the trip I kept feeling as I was one uncontrollable moment away from losing my mind again. Thank god I didn't let it take over me but it was so close and based on the horrific experience at Bisco, I am kind of scared to take LSD or chemical psychedelics again. I don't like that because I have had so many great experiences within that setting and was in a perfectly blissful mindset prior to the in-trip flashbacks, so set and setting wasn't the issue. I was wondering if I could get opinions on what exactly happened and what I should do in the future to prevent any possibility of me being taken back to that horrible place like what almost happened two nights ago. Thanks for listening and any input.
I have tripped since then at festivals a couple times and had great experiences. Then two nights ago at a festival I took two hits of very very strong LSD (stronger than what I had taken at the last couple festivals that were after the trainwreck experience). The trip started out great but at one point while dancing in a similar way to how I was at Camp Bisco, I felt the exact same 'switch' almost go off, in what felt like what I can only describe as an in-trip flashback. I fought it but had to stop dancing and breathe deeply non-stop, vastly taking away from the experience. The 'switch' that I felt was almost turned on reminded me exactly of the onset of the trainwreck experience at Camp Bisco and it scared the shit out of me as throughout the rest of the trip I kept feeling as I was one uncontrollable moment away from losing my mind again. Thank god I didn't let it take over me but it was so close and based on the horrific experience at Bisco, I am kind of scared to take LSD or chemical psychedelics again. I don't like that because I have had so many great experiences within that setting and was in a perfectly blissful mindset prior to the in-trip flashbacks, so set and setting wasn't the issue. I was wondering if I could get opinions on what exactly happened and what I should do in the future to prevent any possibility of me being taken back to that horrible place like what almost happened two nights ago. Thanks for listening and any input.
