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recreational mdma use.?

RoLlInG.TwAcKeD

RoLlInG.TwAcKeD

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Hello everyone I was just wondering if there were any members on this site that are/were recreational users of mdma/ecstasy that could explain how using the drug so much has changed your life or how its effected your brain/health? Thanks
 
It has made me see that the "best of humanity" is worth holding onto and that there is an extreme state of mind that escapes the normal duality mindset --- it is almost like "heaven" in the sense that everything seems so perfect and hence it has given me MORE motivation in my daily life. OVERALL MDMA should be used to help ppl out of depression. It saved me from it...
 
its hard to tell really but i've recently started using it again after a long break and have noticed i now burst into tears for no reason occasionally despite me being pretty happy right now, so it messes with your mood. i think long(ish) term frequent use a long time ago probably exacerbated preexisting mental health conditions, but it was also the best therapy i had in some dark times so its swings and roundabouts.

as for physical health, i had detailed tests 3 years ago, when i was using it probably once every 1-2 months and had been for a year. they came back really bad but nothing incongruent with the ed i was suffering from at the time. at this time i was at hugely increased risk of heart attack, and i was bingeing on md, so i think if it was as bad for your heart as some people claim i shouldn't be here. but i'm not a doctor and don't know anything about how the two types of heart damage would interplay.

don't think its massively changed my life, just gives me something else to do to prevent boredom and depression.

if you're asking this to find out what it might do to your own health then i'd suggest you look at some controlled scientific studies. i suspect i'm not unusual in this forum for having had 'issues' and used other drugs etc, so we don't form a good control group.
 
i've been using MDMA and popping tabs every weekend for the past three months, there is no physical side affects. I'm not less smart, none of that. However, every weekday i do look forward to the weekend more than i did before mdma lol
 
It filled the time in which I was too bored and not creative enough to do anything but drugs. But shit. It's fun. I met new people and its now my 3rd favorite illegal thing to do. Beat only by LSD and public urination.
 
I space my rolls out to once a month, for over a year now. Besides the immediate side effects (fatigue, being a little out of it for a couple days, getting a cold or virus after rolling) I've noticed no lasting physical/negative mental effects. Positively though, I've found that I'm capable of extreme happiness and comfort while I'm high and have been able to channel those feelings when sober. And the bonds it's provided for me with my friends/loved ones that I've rolled with are irreplaceable.
 
First I need to express my view on racism, so you can understand my state on MDMA.
I am in no way or form racist, but because of the society I've been raised in (very high % white), when I talk to a black person, my mind makes a mental note of it. Just the fact that there is a difference, not judging in any way as I have black friends.
When I was on MDMA the last time, I started dancing a bit next to this gorgeous black girl, and there was a really incredible sense of connection, like we were on the same wave of existence, like all humanity was equal, man woman, black white, gay straight. It was amazing. If the world was on MDMA wars would become peace
 
MDMA helped me get out of a bad relationship that I had been in for nearly 8 years, it brought me closer to my family, and I now am happier than I've been in my whole life because of it.

I haven't used MDMA in about 3 months, but in the beginning (over a year ago), I abused it and probably rolled 2-3x a month on average. Fortunately, I learned my lesson before it got bad- this past year I've always waited at least 30 days in between rolling (I broke that rule once in August because my dad was visiting and rolled with us for his first time-hard to pass up rolling with dad!).

MDMA removes all irrational fear and boundaries- it doesn't so much make me happy, as it does accepting. I see the beauty in everyone, in my surroundings. Life's issues still exist- but it's more like I am soaring above them, not emotionally attached to problems, or concerns. I've never done something stupid or regretful on MDMA (but I have on alcohol!), I've always been happy I've opened up the way I have on it, and it's made me realize a lot about myself.
 
FUUUUUUUUUU. I haven't rolled for a couple months now. Got sick of pills after taking them too often. First time coming on bluelight since I was taking pills, and just reading about them has got me craving some again. Rolling has probably made me a bit more stupid than I was before. Maybe worse memory. Don't regret any of it though.
 
pills are sketchy most of the time.

I haven't eaten anything other than molly in more than a year or so.

Its always been very clean, and has pretty much just kind of killed the market for pills here. A fact that i have no problem with.

When i first started, it quickly became a weekend thing. This works out for a while but it catches up to you eventually. Moderation is the key to MDMA.

It has made me a far more comfortable and accepting individual. It brings out the best in people.
 
NationOfThizzlam said:
^prolly cuz of your location.
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Well yea, it varies a lot.

But i have done acetone washes on just about every batch i have tasted over the last 6 months, and many of them were tested with marquis. Black instantly, the acetone wash left just slightly less than the same amount of powder that i started with. The only usual difference was a more white color to it. The acetone was generally evaporated and the residue scraped up. Out of washing 250mg, usually about 10-20mg of brown crap was left from the evap but leaning more towards 10. Hell there were some washes that left what must have been a couple of milligrams.

Purity is about as close to pure most of the time as possible.

We aren't supposed to talk prices, but pure molly cost less for me than buying pills most of the time.

If i was offered beans at $2-3 each, i might consider it. But no one is going to do that unless your buying hundreds, and they are probably unclean.
 
For me personally it made me have the best summer of my life YET im only 18.
You meet TONS of great new people if you go and do it in places where it's socially acceptable.

Some people just don't understand the harm of doing it every weekend some even do it daily which is really sad.
These problems usually affect the younger users, just learn it's a something not to be messed with and you'll have great times you'll remember for the rest of your life.
 
It has made me a much brighter, more cheerful person. I may forget the word i'm looking for, misplace things all the time, or nonchalantly pet the fuzzy rugs in walmart, but it was all 100% completely worth it =D MDMA has changed my outlook on life so radically.. i can't imagine having never done it =)
 
It has made me more open to all kinds of people and just a more outgoing person in general. I sometimes feel a little slower than I used to be mentally (especially with word recall) but overall its not that bad and my experiences with MDMA have made it totally worth it.
 
It has relaxed me a lot. I more easily let go of prejudice for sure. In the short-term a feel a little cognitive reduction, but I fully recover with in weeks.
 
I've found that I have substantially less anxiety in day-to-day life. Especially at work. I've been using MDMA once every 1-2 months for the past year. I love everything about it, and I genuinely believe it's made me a better person. It has definitely helped me in being content with my life, whereas I used to be extremely critical of myself.

I've noticed that I drink less alcohol now, and just spend more time listening to music and walking around outside.. n stuff like that.

Because of how I moderate my usage, I haven't noticed any prominent negative effects like depression or memory loss, but then again I smoke a lot of pot so my short-term memory is pretty shot anyways lol.
 
the second time rolled, before i was feeling pretty depressed. for the two weeks after i started to feel really good. i haven't rolled since january now, so i'm pretty good..
 
the two words recreational and ecstasy didnt go together and apply to me until the last few years and by then the damage was done
 
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