Mental Health Recovery?

[rosewaters]

I hallucinated too intensely and almost died and since them haven't been the same, I am so depressed and lonely I almost cant breathe from the weight.
Its changed my brain, everything looks different, I am depersonalized from reality, connection.
Where do you begin, when you have no friends, no support anymore and just the struggle with you and the balancing act with insanity every waking moment.
I am not living I am juts trying to survive the next minutes.
Are there vitamins, something, that can recover the brain from the trauma of such an intense trip.
Ive gotten post traumatic stress disorder from it.

 

[SkagKush]

Hey rosewater, I would just like to clarify and get you to expand on your original post.

What were you using to have hallucinations?

Hallucinogen persisting perception disorder (HPPD), is something that could be a possibility and I can relate to that. I abused LSD for two years straight, and it took me several months for everything to seem normal again.

I am sorry to hear about what you are going through, and issues like this can certainly be a battle. However, its nice to know you are aware of it, and that you are trying to do something about it. Posting here was a great idea.

 

[ad lib]

I hallucinated too intensely and almost died and since them haven't been the same, I am so depressed and lonely I almost cant breathe from the weight.
Its changed my brain, everything looks different, I am depersonalized from reality, connection.
Where do you begin, when you have no friends, no support anymore and just the struggle with you and the balancing act with insanity every waking moment.
I am not living I am juts trying to survive the next minutes.
Are there vitamins, something, that can recover the brain from the trauma of such an intense trip.
Ive gotten post traumatic stress disorder from it.

I am so sorry to hear this.

How long ago did this occur? And, like SkagKush asked, what were you using to cause this? Was it an isolated incident or have you been using this substance for a while?

After I had a bad experience with a cannabinoid (it caused intense hallucinations) I was anxious, separated from reality, and disconnected for almost 2 weeks. What I forced myself to do was separate that bad experience from reality. Once I was able to do that, I had less anxiety and feel more connected and "real". In regards to vitamins, what I found to work was this thing called "Calms Forte"- it included melatonin & other natural relaxants. It can be used for anxiety or sleep depending on the dosage that you take. It's safe, not addictive, and I highly doubt it will make you hallucinate (sometimes a lot of melatonin [5mg +] can make you hallucinate, so just be sure to dose properly). It's something worth trying because it did help me.

 

[Black Rabbit of Inle]

I hallucinated too intensely and almost died and since them haven't been the same, I am so depressed and lonely I almost cant breathe from the weight.

What did you take?

Its changed my brain, everything looks different, I am depersonalized from reality, connection.

How long have you been sober?

Where do you begin, when you have no friends, no support anymore and just the struggle with you and the balancing act with insanity every waking moment.
I am not living I am juts trying to survive the next minutes.

I've been there. It took moving far away from everyone I knew to snap me out of a destructive cycle. It will not take such a desperate move for you though.

Are there vitamins, something, that can recover the brain from the trauma of such an intense trip.
Ive gotten post traumatic stress disorder from it.

Again, how long have you been sober. The more time you give it the better your mind will get.

 

[FnX]

Where do you begin, when you have no friends, no support anymore and just the struggle with you and the balancing act with insanity every waking moment.
I am not living I am juts trying to survive the next minutes.

You have come to the right place my dear friend. There are lot's of people on this forum who genuinely care. Kind souls that want to help others fight the same issues they're going through or have gone through, the same issues that you're fighting with. Some of us have been in the very same position you are right now, lonely, struggling to survive, desperately reaching out a hand for help. I know I have been. People here have helped me tremendously with their support and I am so grateful to everyone for that... Even if the shrinks and doctors stop caring, we here will not. I won't. Nobody is beyond redemption! If you need an ear to talk to, feel free to PM me.

 

[idi0tboy]

Hey man, this is pretty shitty, I'm dealing with HPPD in its 20th year and what these guys are saying about it generally being temporary appears to be true (I've read a hell of a lot about it recently, I'm a very small minority). Tough it out, relaxing will help, try benzo's or moderate drinking they help/ed me

 

[burn out]

I had something like this happen to me years ago, from cannabis. Cannabis affected my mind far worse than any other drug. All my shoom and LSD experiences have been mostly quite positive but a long term cannabis addiction really did a number on my mental health. It tooks years but I eventually recovered. You just need to be patient and not worry. Its unlikely you have any kind of permanent brain damage, your mind is just messed up and it will eventually right itself given enough time.