Harambulus
Greenlighter
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I realized for a long time Id been 'self medicating' with stimulants as an escape when I felt really down. When I hit a real pit I'd say fuck it im gonna get high.
This Ive come to find was a poor strategy because taking drugs when Im low meant firstly I barely enjoyed the high as I have done when not depressed but secondly and more importantly they would make me more depressed and morose after because obviously they've emptied out what little neurotransmitters I did have. This made comedowns almost unbearable and like I was about to have a breakdown.
So Ive resolved to beat my depression before considering taking other drugs.
I find both medication and therapy out of the question. Therapy is good in theory but the fucking government funded one had a 6 month waiting list. Pointless.
With medication I dont want to be dependent on some chemical for long periods of time and besides I find it manageable most of the time its just acute pits of depression I want to beat off. Also I would still prefer a more natural route.
As mentioned my bouts of depression have been generally acute in nature- ie ill have really pervasive depression where I despise everything for a while but otherwise can function fine so long as I stick to my daily routines. Trouble is if I get a 'bout' then it becomes more and more pervasive until I get some sort of release. So before I was taking drugs which as I said made me worse even tho they gave me a little break for a cpl hours.
So now Im thinking food supplements might replace drugs nicely here.
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Ideally I dont want to take any additives whcih alter my neurotransmitters long term and am also working on other worthwhile pursuits like playing my instrument but thinking supplements might be a lesser evil in the meantime to keep me away from stimulants while I develop a more sanguine lifestyle.
l tyrosine I have tried for this but dont like as it made me antsy/anxious.
L theanine is looking really promising.
Another thing is getting good sleep. If I have slept well (rare) I feel much more ready to tackle the day at hand. I find im pretty much fine once I drop off but it takes me like 3 hours to get off to sleep usually.
L theanine seems promising for stress relief as I was fucking raging last night and I took some of that mainly for its noted sleep benefits but found a bonus that it reduced my stress. It didnt help me get off to sleep much better but it seemed to give me a calmer sleep when I did get off. Magnesium I found is not very good for sleep since strangely atho it gives me tons of rem I still feel fucking hungover like a weed hangover the next day. Same with 5-htp before bed. seems to give a weird unrested twilight style rem- tho Ive just taken 5-htp now in the morning. Ive read about serotonin downregulation so like I said Id only plan to take such things when really in a slump for a boost to get me back on track.
So any other recommendations for supplements for stress relief and anti depressant qualities?
Might try st johns wort again.
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I realized for a long time Id been 'self medicating' with stimulants as an escape when I felt really down. When I hit a real pit I'd say fuck it im gonna get high.
This Ive come to find was a poor strategy because taking drugs when Im low meant firstly I barely enjoyed the high as I have done when not depressed but secondly and more importantly they would make me more depressed and morose after because obviously they've emptied out what little neurotransmitters I did have. This made comedowns almost unbearable and like I was about to have a breakdown.
So Ive resolved to beat my depression before considering taking other drugs.
I find both medication and therapy out of the question. Therapy is good in theory but the fucking government funded one had a 6 month waiting list. Pointless.
With medication I dont want to be dependent on some chemical for long periods of time and besides I find it manageable most of the time its just acute pits of depression I want to beat off. Also I would still prefer a more natural route.
As mentioned my bouts of depression have been generally acute in nature- ie ill have really pervasive depression where I despise everything for a while but otherwise can function fine so long as I stick to my daily routines. Trouble is if I get a 'bout' then it becomes more and more pervasive until I get some sort of release. So before I was taking drugs which as I said made me worse even tho they gave me a little break for a cpl hours.
So now Im thinking food supplements might replace drugs nicely here.
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Ideally I dont want to take any additives whcih alter my neurotransmitters long term and am also working on other worthwhile pursuits like playing my instrument but thinking supplements might be a lesser evil in the meantime to keep me away from stimulants while I develop a more sanguine lifestyle.
l tyrosine I have tried for this but dont like as it made me antsy/anxious.
L theanine is looking really promising.
Another thing is getting good sleep. If I have slept well (rare) I feel much more ready to tackle the day at hand. I find im pretty much fine once I drop off but it takes me like 3 hours to get off to sleep usually.
L theanine seems promising for stress relief as I was fucking raging last night and I took some of that mainly for its noted sleep benefits but found a bonus that it reduced my stress. It didnt help me get off to sleep much better but it seemed to give me a calmer sleep when I did get off. Magnesium I found is not very good for sleep since strangely atho it gives me tons of rem I still feel fucking hungover like a weed hangover the next day. Same with 5-htp before bed. seems to give a weird unrested twilight style rem- tho Ive just taken 5-htp now in the morning. Ive read about serotonin downregulation so like I said Id only plan to take such things when really in a slump for a boost to get me back on track.
So any other recommendations for supplements for stress relief and anti depressant qualities?
Might try st johns wort again.
