Mellabopper
Bluelighter
ummm okay i didnt know where to post this, so i figured i might as well give it a home in 'words'...
as i sat this morning, new years day 2001, hungover as hell outside IHOP in my pj's smoking a cigarette, i realized something. i realized that i've grown up, that i've gone through a lot, experienced a lot, and met a lot of people along the way. sure, most people that i have met i will probably never see again, but it doesnt mean they'll be forgotten. memories keep people with us forever. i've opened myself up to new experiences in ways that many will never dare to experience. i've travelled inside my mind and realized that maybe this world isnt such a bad place. i've got friends that care about me and i in turn care about them, too. yeah i mean shitty things happen, but whats the good without the bad?
maybe there isnt even a point to existence at all? maybe there is no one meaning of life. maybe we all have to find out our own purpose ourselves. our lives are what we make of them, and NO ONE else can/should live it for us. we can only do so much in our lifetime, which is almost a blink of an eye in eternity. life's too short not to live it to its fullest...
i realized that i have a lot more living to do, too. there are so many things i havent experienced, havent done, and so many more people that will come into my life.
but i realized that overall i'm pretty much happy, and that whatever my purpose for being on earth may be, i am living my life for ME. i realized that life has value, and it is up to each one of us to find that out at some point in time. was this my time?
i realized that my being a human being means so much more than just living. i am alive and i have feelings, as do others. i have possibly touched others lives in ways i will never even know, because i know others have touched my life and they have no clue.
its funny how everything all of a sudden fits together, and everything, the world, makes sense even for a split second.
had one thing changed in my life, would i still be who i am today? had i not met one particular person in my life, would i be completely different?
for this short time, i had a feeling of unity with the world, with everyone around me. it is the beginning of a new year, and a new beginning in my life if i choose to make it that way. and i realized all this as i sat outside, alone in the cold, and i smiled for no reason at all. i had almost forgotten what it felt like to just be simply happy, even for a short time.
as i finished my cigarette and walked inside, i returned to reality, to my shitty hugnover state of being, got a cup of coffee and sat down to eat breakfast.
maybe everything happens for a reason.
1-1-2001
Mellabopper
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animals are for petting!
"does anyone know where we are? because i think i dont have a clue"
"damn the man, save the empire!" - empire records
Corruption is key.
as i sat this morning, new years day 2001, hungover as hell outside IHOP in my pj's smoking a cigarette, i realized something. i realized that i've grown up, that i've gone through a lot, experienced a lot, and met a lot of people along the way. sure, most people that i have met i will probably never see again, but it doesnt mean they'll be forgotten. memories keep people with us forever. i've opened myself up to new experiences in ways that many will never dare to experience. i've travelled inside my mind and realized that maybe this world isnt such a bad place. i've got friends that care about me and i in turn care about them, too. yeah i mean shitty things happen, but whats the good without the bad?
maybe there isnt even a point to existence at all? maybe there is no one meaning of life. maybe we all have to find out our own purpose ourselves. our lives are what we make of them, and NO ONE else can/should live it for us. we can only do so much in our lifetime, which is almost a blink of an eye in eternity. life's too short not to live it to its fullest...
i realized that i have a lot more living to do, too. there are so many things i havent experienced, havent done, and so many more people that will come into my life.
but i realized that overall i'm pretty much happy, and that whatever my purpose for being on earth may be, i am living my life for ME. i realized that life has value, and it is up to each one of us to find that out at some point in time. was this my time?
i realized that my being a human being means so much more than just living. i am alive and i have feelings, as do others. i have possibly touched others lives in ways i will never even know, because i know others have touched my life and they have no clue.
its funny how everything all of a sudden fits together, and everything, the world, makes sense even for a split second.
had one thing changed in my life, would i still be who i am today? had i not met one particular person in my life, would i be completely different?
for this short time, i had a feeling of unity with the world, with everyone around me. it is the beginning of a new year, and a new beginning in my life if i choose to make it that way. and i realized all this as i sat outside, alone in the cold, and i smiled for no reason at all. i had almost forgotten what it felt like to just be simply happy, even for a short time.
as i finished my cigarette and walked inside, i returned to reality, to my shitty hugnover state of being, got a cup of coffee and sat down to eat breakfast.
maybe everything happens for a reason.
1-1-2001
Mellabopper
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animals are for petting!
"does anyone know where we are? because i think i dont have a clue"
"damn the man, save the empire!" - empire records
Corruption is key.
