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kate said:
Cherry they're both gorgeous - she is really petite isn't she, pics are hard to guess from. They look so cosy and happy together, they must keep you on your toes though :)

Nice duvet cover btw! How are you this evening honey?
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Ah yes, they're a bit of a terrible twosome, just as you're finished telling one of them off, the other is already carrying on doing it behind your back, they're like children! Little tinkers. Bit of a sleeping issue at the moment, the boy can't stand to be away from me, so cries through the night once he's woken up outside, but if I let him in it takes him and Deja ages to settle, and once they do settle they have to sleep RIGHT next to me, so I can't get comfy properly. Need to give them some tough love to sort that out.

I'm doing okay this evening, just having a quiet one sorting out some things, and catching up on Planet earth live, I've fallen in love with the Lioness and her Cub who were abandoned by the pack and are struggling to make it alone, apparently there's some sad scenes in this series. I nearly cried when the baby elephant was found to have been eaten by a pack of Lions, her mother was visibly distraught. :( It's good TV!
 
Mailmonkey said:
i barely noticed 5-8mgish snorted first time.

so i had more.

then started putting bits on foil.

decided it was shit.

but kept reordering more.

even though i only finished a bag twice, almost always gave away or flushed this drug.
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It is one of those wierd substances that effect lots of people in lots of ways at lots of dose ranges. Shammy called it marmite, I can't think of a better description than that
 
take no notice of my "advice" on peevee.

I don't know whether or not i enjoyed it. I don't know if i was high or not.

I DO know i felt like heart attack a lot of the time.

And i kept on, and on, and on redosing. Even though i didn't "like" the feelings.

I just didn't get it, and I <3 stims.
 
10mg down the hooter* ... nerdboy is still waivering on his ... being meticulous and re weighing and reweighing (fuck me, i'm a 'dip the finger in thee bag' kinda gurl, not used to this microweighing nonsense)

*loads less messy than the last lotta shite coke i snuffed years ago

see you later <3
 
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I'd do about 5mgs to start with then leave it a good hour, don't expect to get any sleep for at least 7 hours after dosing though, unless you have downers in that stash box, you seem to have everything else 8)


Edit - well you kinda ninja'd me there, you do phet regular so 10 mg should be fine but really don't redose for at least an hour it can be kinda subtle then all of a sudden you realise your totally fekin off it=D
 
Mailmonkey said:
take no notice of my "advice" on peevee.

I don't know whether or not i enjoyed it. I don't know if i was high or not.

I DO know i felt like heart attack a lot of the time.

And i kept on, and on, and on redosing. Even though i didn't "like" the feelings.

I just didn't get it, and I <3 stims.
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Some handy beta blockers are always handy to have lying around!
 
cherrycolouredfunk said:
Ah yes, they're a bit of a terrible twosome, just as you're finished telling one of them off, the other is already carrying on doing it behind your back, they're like children! Little tinkers. Bit of a sleeping issue at the moment, the boy can't stand to be away from me, so cries through the night once he's woken up outside, but if I let him in it takes him and Deja ages to settle, and once they do settle they have to sleep RIGHT next to me, so I can't get comfy properly. Need to give them some tough love to sort that out.

I'm doing okay this evening, just having a quiet one sorting out some things, and catching up on Planet earth live, I've fallen in love with the Lioness and her Cub who were abandoned by the pack and are struggling to make it alone, apparently there's some sad scenes in this series. I nearly cried when the baby elephant was found to have been eaten by a pack of Lions, her mother was visibly distraught. :( It's good TV!
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They're like little toddlers, our wee one still torments us in bed first thing, though it's usually me as he knows I'll get up for work anyway. It's always entertaining when he decides to jump on F's balls :D If we try to shut him out he picks at the bottom of the door and cries...I tend to give in first.

Glad to hear you're having a quit evening at home and are ok <3 Some peace time will be good for you! I need to catch up with planet earth it's my kind of TV!

Haven't sorted a thing out for the morning yet and I'm considering a G&T :o
 
kate said:
They're like little toddlers, our wee one still torments us in bed first thing, though it's usually me as he knows I'll get up for work anyway. It's always entertaining when he decides to jump on F's balls :D If we try to shut him out he picks at the bottom of the door and cries...I tend to give in first.

Glad to hear you're having a quit evening at home and are ok <3 Some peace time will be good for you! I need to catch up with planet earth it's my kind of TV!

Haven't sorted a thing out for the morning yet and I'm considering a G&T :o
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Yeah, if i've given in and let them sleep in my bed, mine will wake me up at a ridiculous hour in the morning too. Usually by first gently placing a paw on my cheek, and if I don't respond, or pretend i'm ignoring it, they'll eventually try harder sometimes resulting in a scratch! Really need to try cutting their claws again, but the last time I tried with Deja, Mr Tom figured out what I was doing and bit me, now they run under the bed as soon as they see the nail clippers coming anywhere near them. I'll leave it for the Vet to do.

Yep, having an evening of Calm before the storm this week is just what I need, as I've got an home visit (I hate home visits!) tomorrow from the Accommodation and Addictions team for an assessment to see how best they can help me, then meeting with my Lawyer to work on my defense to stop me from becoming homeless in the very near future. That's just tomorrow's activities, I've got appointments all week to try and sort my life out! It's annoying me how my housing association are STILL trying to evict me, when the were told in court 3 months ago that they were legally wrong to act on a document that was taken from me under duress by one of their officers. They also told the council that I had left the property when I was legally permitted to continue to live in it. :X It's also annoying that i'm having to fight so hard to keep a roof over my head, when I've decided that I'm leaving Bristol to return back home in three months, I just need to be able to leave when I decide, not a deadline imposed by them. My Father has said he can't watch me struggle alone anymore, and wants me home so he can look after me, ie start my Hep C vaccinations. He's worried about me.

Is it any wonder that i'm struggling to clean up, which is enough to cope with on its own, without other things on top, when I keep being given extra stress to cope with?! Everytime I feel like I've moved forwards, something happens to push me backwards. Never ending drama.

Planet Earth is the perfect sort of viewing for fragile minds :)
 
cherrycolouredfunk said:
Yeah, if i've given in and let them sleep in my bed, mine will wake me up at a ridiculous hour in the morning too. Usually by first gently placing a paw on my cheek, and if I don't respond, or pretend i'm ignoring it, they'll eventually try harder sometimes resulting in a scratch! Really need to try cutting their claws again, but the last time I tried with Deja, Mr Tom figured out what I was doing and bit me, now they run under the bed as soon as they see the nail clippers coming anywhere near them. I'll leave it for the Vet to do.

Yep, having an evening of Calm before the storm this week is just what I need, as I've got an home visit (I hate home visits!) tomorrow from the Accommodation and Addictions team for an assessment to see how best they can help me, then meeting with my Lawyer to work on my defense to stop me from becoming homeless in the very near future. That's just tomorrow's activities, I've got appointments all week to try and sort my life out! It's annoying me how my housing association are STILL trying to evict me, when the were told in court 3 months ago that they were legally wrong to act on a document that was taken from me under duress by one of their officers. They also told the council that I had left the property when I was legally permitted to continue to live in it.

Is it any wonder that i'm struggling to clean up, which is enough to cope with on its own, without other things on top, when I keep being given extra stress to cope with?! Everytime I feel like I've moved forwards, something happens to push me backwards. Never ending drama.

Planet Earth is the perfect sort of viewing for fragile minds :)
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Best of luck Cherry, you're definatly going through it at the mo aren't you.

I do hope you start getting some better breaks :)
 
Cherry - you're a tough mama! Still it's an absolute pain being woken by a clawed swipe.

You've got your work cut out for you this week, that's going to keep you busy and on edge, but it'll pass like everything does and hopefully the outcomes of those meetings will be to your benefit and stability. They're making you work hard for it though - but it'll be all the sweeter for it when it comes. Getting you into a stable place is the most important thing - from there you'll build and begin to cope better, I know you will wilful girl <3

It'll be hard going back to your dad's and parental care / supervision / strings attached :D you've been an independent lady for such a long while you're going to have to manage your dad's expectations and yours of how that's going to work after the initial honeymoon period. He'll be worried sick about you though and want you under his wing for a bit. Can imagine that'll drive you potty after a bit! Have you got plans to get a new flat up north, or will you return to Bristol?

I hope you get some good sleep tonight <3
 
Urgh yeah, I've got huge reservations about going back to stay with my Father, I still change my mind and decide that I can't do it frequently. But, we've had a long talk, and i've told him the reasons why I don't think staying with him would work, and he's said that he'll change, and he accepts that at the moment i'm ill, and he just wants to make sure i'm safe. It probably will do my head in, and even sitting here now i'm thinking no, I can't do it, and remembering all the reasons I left all those years ago in the first place. I've seen my dad less than five times in a few years, he treats me like the young girl I was, he needs to get to know me again. There's all sorts of emotions come flooding back, it's a daunting thought having to be 'normal' and come off drugs, and eventually my Script. One thing at a time though eh. Argh, i'm in such a mess!

I won't be staying with my dad for a long time, eventually if I prove myself and get a job once i'm totally well, I'll get my own place. Not in Bristol though, once I leave here I wont ever be coming back, maybe to visit, but not to live.

If I don't move back up home soon, i'm always going to be feeling like I want to and wont feel like I can settle. I think that sentence just made my mind up for me!

My heart belongs up North <3
 
Your dad's will be a good place to be for a bit until you build on your health, take it for that and the comfort, nurturing and love it'll bring. You've already thought about the negatives, just grit your teeth, eat all his biscuits and run all his hot water in therapeutic baths! It'll be a good platform to fledge from again. You must have a lot of mates up north to catch up with and re-connect again too.

The North <3 Club
 
Yeah, looking at it the way you've written it there, I can see the positives clearly. It will be a good starting platform, that's exactly the way my Dad put it to me aswell. And yes, hot water, I can not wait as I don't have any hot water or heating in my flat, I've grown accustomed to cold baths. Ahh actually I can't wait to get out of this place. I've still got a good friend base up north aye, they've been more supportive to me with stuff I've dealt with recently over the miles that separate us than people here. Even when I was in hospital for my operation, I had well wishes from those up north, but from nobody down here. Heh, the more I think the more reasons to go I find.

Only bad thing, Dad says he can't home the cats. I'm working on that, I've said if the cat's can't come, then I don't. I cannot imagine having to re-home them here, it's just not feasible. I need them. He's not replied.
 
A solution will come along for the cats wait and see. Don't look for more hurdles when you have a good few to jump already!

What are you expecting from tomorrow's house visit - are you prepared for it?
 
Marmalade said:
10mg down the hooter* ... nerdboy is still waivering on his ... being meticulous and re weighing and reweighing (fuck me, i'm a 'dip the finger in thee bag' kinda gurl, not used to this microweighing nonsense)

*loads less messy than the last lotta shite coke i snuffed years ago

see you later <3
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This may turn out to be filthier than even EADD needs to know about. :D

Though I'm sure nobody will mind if you provide a summary of proceedings.
 
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Will we get pics too I wonder 8)

Since you're here I'm off to bed hehe *passes modstick over* :D I'll have the kettle on first thing.





Night Cherry, best of luck for tomorrow I'll be thinking of you, let us know how it goes <3 and nighty night to the rest of you filthy disgusting perverted drug beasts %)
 
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Surely we deserve a running commentary ;) or at least a detailed post account
 
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