My heart stil aches from all before
my soul battered and shattered
mental status unknown
used and abused
from all before
chance meeting, almost not
midnight conversations
information superhighway
tense first meeting
probably not what you expected
you stayed around anyhow
heated solitary confrontation
even that second time
the third we could not contain.
Your words and touch so sweet
my frienzied mind became so afraid
not of youm your free spirited words
life and stupidity happens
words I wish I never said
words i wish i DID say
things slightly different.
I made assumptions that caused my own pain
I hope my assumptions were paranoid thought untrue.
Slowly things back to good
not the same, but still so nice
Feirce embrace went the hurt
Feirce embrace went the anger
Feirce embrace the memories returned
Less self worth, and you got hurt
even now that my mind is more sound
I was worried.....scared that.....god forbid.
My bestfriend , the one that I love
the one that I wish loved me too
the way that i love you.
Tough exterior bad ass attitude
soft eyes, soft touch
wishing you would let your guard down
I would never hurt you EVER.
Obligations keep us apart alot
wondering how things might have gone if i never had them....?
wondering how things will go as they are now....?
Is it wise to ask or know ahead of time...?
probably not.
Fear of life holds you back
I know you'll deny it
fear of letting emotions run free after being hurt yourself before.
Fear of letting them run free with me?
Fear of getting too close?
Fear of realizing you love us all (obligations and all)?
I don't know.
Is it hate of the obligations?
or just that I have them and you don't want to be near them?
Is it fear?
Sometimes I don't know...
Laying in your arms is where I feel like where I am supposed to be
with my head upon your chest...your heart
your arms around me
your lips softly kissing me, here and there
such a scene melts my heart
makes me want more than I know I can have
Just me and you. Just us having fun.
A dream I know that I know will never come true.
At your best, at your worst, and everywhere inbetween, I will always take you as you are.
You are amazing just as you are, you are perfect to me.
who else could say that to you RIGHT NOW? Who else?
I've seen your anger, I've seen you take your venom out on me, I've seen your tears that broke my heart and braught tears to my eyes. I've even had a gun pulled on me.
I trust you with my life.
How else can I put it?
How else can I say I'm sorry?
my soul battered and shattered
mental status unknown
used and abused
from all before
chance meeting, almost not
midnight conversations
information superhighway
tense first meeting
probably not what you expected
you stayed around anyhow
heated solitary confrontation
even that second time
the third we could not contain.
Your words and touch so sweet
my frienzied mind became so afraid
not of youm your free spirited words
life and stupidity happens
words I wish I never said
words i wish i DID say
things slightly different.
I made assumptions that caused my own pain
I hope my assumptions were paranoid thought untrue.
Slowly things back to good
not the same, but still so nice
Feirce embrace went the hurt
Feirce embrace went the anger
Feirce embrace the memories returned
Less self worth, and you got hurt
even now that my mind is more sound
I was worried.....scared that.....god forbid.
My bestfriend , the one that I love
the one that I wish loved me too
the way that i love you.
Tough exterior bad ass attitude
soft eyes, soft touch
wishing you would let your guard down
I would never hurt you EVER.
Obligations keep us apart alot
wondering how things might have gone if i never had them....?
wondering how things will go as they are now....?
Is it wise to ask or know ahead of time...?
probably not.
Fear of life holds you back
I know you'll deny it
fear of letting emotions run free after being hurt yourself before.
Fear of letting them run free with me?
Fear of getting too close?
Fear of realizing you love us all (obligations and all)?
I don't know.
Is it hate of the obligations?
or just that I have them and you don't want to be near them?
Is it fear?
Sometimes I don't know...
Laying in your arms is where I feel like where I am supposed to be
with my head upon your chest...your heart
your arms around me
your lips softly kissing me, here and there
such a scene melts my heart
makes me want more than I know I can have
Just me and you. Just us having fun.
A dream I know that I know will never come true.
At your best, at your worst, and everywhere inbetween, I will always take you as you are.
You are amazing just as you are, you are perfect to me.
who else could say that to you RIGHT NOW? Who else?
I've seen your anger, I've seen you take your venom out on me, I've seen your tears that broke my heart and braught tears to my eyes. I've even had a gun pulled on me.
I trust you with my life.
How else can I put it?
How else can I say I'm sorry?