Ramblings of a psychotic mind.

Oh deary me :-(

Things have gone into a downward spiral in my life since my last blog. See here: http://www.bluelight.org/vb/blogs/370222-MilzyWilzy

After months of research chemical use and massive stresses, I finally had a breakdown and landed myself in hospital after trying to end my life.

My actions have caused my children to be told that they cannot live with me at the moment.

I'm so very lonely and scared.

Is there light at the end of this very dark tunnel I'm currently in?

 

There is always hope as long as there is breath in your body, Milzy. Maybe what you need is to turn and face the loneliness once and for all. Most of us waste so much time and energy and ruin many relationships running from loneliness inside. Learning to accept and even value it rather than running from it through substance use and other self-defeating behaviors can be a life changer. It can be a strength rather than a weakness. I'm hoping for your return to health and to your children. Be kind to yourself in all this.