Hello everyone,
I've lurked on TDS and Bluelight for many years now, but I'm currently needing some help. Right now isn't the time for my full story, but I'll include the necessary info.
I'm addicted to opiates and have been a daily user of methadone for almost 3.5 years now. Methadone actually was my opiate of choice due to its long half life and the price. I became a daily user once I started college in 2008 and found a reliable source of methadone. I knew it was a bad idea getting into opiates because I had originally discovered opiates when I found my sister's suboxone prescription in 2006 or so. This made me believe that addiction ran in my family, and it definitely appears that way.
I consider myself to be on methadone maintenance due to not using other opiates and since I take methadone daily, but unfortunately I do not go to a clinic. I have someone that goes to the clinic, and then I purchase it from him. I mainly do this because in the beginning of my maintenance I wasn't able to go to a clinic every morning for months on end, but my supplier already was going to it. He's pretty much off of methadone, but still goes to the clinic so that he can sell it to me and for his own small stash.
Anyways, I feel that I'm almost ready to try and ween myself off of methadone, but I don't know if I can do it on my own. I think I may need to transition to Suboxone, and then go from there. The main problem that I have is that I am very worried about the following:
1. Will my medical file be permanently marked as "Drug Addict" for the rest of my life?
2. Will being labeled a "Drug Addict" on my medical file cause my medical insurance to skyrocket in cost?
I haven't been to the doctor at all since 2008, and I'm always deathly afraid that the doctor will one day need to do a blood test and then find out about my opiate addiction. Mainly I just don't want to be literally paying for my opiate addiction mistake for the rest of my life in the form of insurance premiums. I've just been extremely lucky that I haven't had any serious illnesses that would require a trip to the doctor.
Also, are jobs allowed to discriminate you based off of the prescriptions that you take? For example, if I had a legitimate prescription for suboxone or methadone and it came up in an employment drug screening, are they allowed to use this against me? It is an office job, so no risk to others should I be under the influence at the job. This is another reason that I need to either legitimatize my opiate addiction maintenance by obtaining a prescription, or just get clean entirely. It has been holding me back from pursuing other jobs due to being scared of drug screenings. This is the most important time in my life and I have these damn liquid handcuffs on so tight that I can't ever reach my full potential.
Please can anyone help me with some information or personal stories?
I've lurked on TDS and Bluelight for many years now, but I'm currently needing some help. Right now isn't the time for my full story, but I'll include the necessary info.
I'm addicted to opiates and have been a daily user of methadone for almost 3.5 years now. Methadone actually was my opiate of choice due to its long half life and the price. I became a daily user once I started college in 2008 and found a reliable source of methadone. I knew it was a bad idea getting into opiates because I had originally discovered opiates when I found my sister's suboxone prescription in 2006 or so. This made me believe that addiction ran in my family, and it definitely appears that way.
I consider myself to be on methadone maintenance due to not using other opiates and since I take methadone daily, but unfortunately I do not go to a clinic. I have someone that goes to the clinic, and then I purchase it from him. I mainly do this because in the beginning of my maintenance I wasn't able to go to a clinic every morning for months on end, but my supplier already was going to it. He's pretty much off of methadone, but still goes to the clinic so that he can sell it to me and for his own small stash.
Anyways, I feel that I'm almost ready to try and ween myself off of methadone, but I don't know if I can do it on my own. I think I may need to transition to Suboxone, and then go from there. The main problem that I have is that I am very worried about the following:
1. Will my medical file be permanently marked as "Drug Addict" for the rest of my life?
2. Will being labeled a "Drug Addict" on my medical file cause my medical insurance to skyrocket in cost?
I haven't been to the doctor at all since 2008, and I'm always deathly afraid that the doctor will one day need to do a blood test and then find out about my opiate addiction. Mainly I just don't want to be literally paying for my opiate addiction mistake for the rest of my life in the form of insurance premiums. I've just been extremely lucky that I haven't had any serious illnesses that would require a trip to the doctor.
Also, are jobs allowed to discriminate you based off of the prescriptions that you take? For example, if I had a legitimate prescription for suboxone or methadone and it came up in an employment drug screening, are they allowed to use this against me? It is an office job, so no risk to others should I be under the influence at the job. This is another reason that I need to either legitimatize my opiate addiction maintenance by obtaining a prescription, or just get clean entirely. It has been holding me back from pursuing other jobs due to being scared of drug screenings. This is the most important time in my life and I have these damn liquid handcuffs on so tight that I can't ever reach my full potential.
Please can anyone help me with some information or personal stories?
