Cocaine Question me, For I question myself.

[Masterofllamas]

Hey guys, relatively new here, mainly here to support you guys in times of need. Also for self teaching.

So anyways heres how it goes

Trying out some sugar, nasally only, sometimes gum. anyways i don't do it often or a lot when i do.

So I'm trying to find the balance in me right now and where i stand to you guys, please don't attack peoples views on me, only state your own...

This weekend i spend 20 dollars, got enough, more than enough because we also shared. anyways went home with some..

it took me about 4 days to finish less than half of a g, (I wont say how much I had)

But i did it every day for the past 4 days. i mean, this isn't even a lot right? i have no reason to worry? I

I am a good kid, with a good heart (hehe the irony because of the stress it puts on your heart) anyways im fine..

I always have good and pure intentions. This drug hasn't really changed me much from what my non user friends say. I think it has, but its just made me more verbal. as in i was always a quiet kid with lots on my mind. Now if i have something to say, i will. If it is for the greater good or whatever..

Anyways, what are your thoughts on me doing this much in this much time, .3 in 5 days... So i broke it down to about .065 a day. (guesstimate)

I'm already aware of the harm in my nasal cavity, im wondering, how you guys think i am mentally going to come out of this. Sure i get nose bleeds, big woop no deal. Who needs your Viola Cable anyway?

I made plans to NOT get any for at least the rest of the month, i'll probably go longer without even getting any. I don't like the group it puts me in... I just like the feeling from time to time, i dont need it, but i do get bored.




Also Sidenote:: (When commmenting on this please keep separate)
The other day when getting this, for the first time ever. my "friend" Fucking really kind of forced me to do this. We were at a real friends house, and "friend" is like omg you have to do this guy, cmon we didn't come here for nothing. I was kind of scared and really intimidated, like wtf.. he really did this to me.. I said no like 4 times and we got it away from me, but around the time were everyone was feeling it. i kinda decided fuck it why not. I'm not even getting in what i paid for, (not that i cared). But yeah, this actually happened, "friend" has drug problems, ex heroin user, ex addict and all, so i give him benefit of the doubt a lot of the time. but this time really pushed me over, i no longer want anything to do with this guy because of this small little thing...

Thoughts? Thank you

Me :D

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

were you coked up when you typed this?
forealz

 

[Masterofllamas]

were you coked up when you typed this?
forealz

I may or may not have finished up what I had left.

 

[T. Calderone]

That doesn't seem like much coke usage at all. When I was using it, I was rarely able to save any for tomorrow never mind making it last for days.

The last bit you wrote I can't make out what you meant. You did something you didn't want to, what?

 

[Masterofllamas]

That doesn't seem like much coke usage at all. When I was using it, I was rarely able to save any for tomorrow never mind making it last for days.

The last bit you wrote I can't make out what you meant. You did something you didn't want to, what?

I mean i'm not really sure, i wanted to, for earlier in the day i thought, hey, i kinda wanna get some coke, i haven't used in a while. (about a month and a half). But i decided not to.
Then out of the blue, friend calls me, hey im getting some, you in? *phssh uhh yeah* so we go.

Then when it comes around to my turn, I dont want to, I also wasn't feeling it anymore, having the satisfaction of knowing i bought some, i had some for whenever i wanted. So i didnt even need to do it anymore..
But this guy really like stuck the table in my face and almost made me. I didn't at first. i kept dodging the bullet. Then he like pulls it back and spills some and fucking blames me for not taking it when its my turn. so then i feel bad.

Anyways i end up doing a few lines. But like i said i put down dub, did hardly any, most went to him and the group. at the end of the night ended up with very little, not complaining, we had .6 out of 1.5, ended up splitting it 50/50. All was fair. No complaints. But having felt a little cheated, i decided it's not even worth saving. Which i know now after 5 straight days, was stupid, because I got a lot out of a little.

In the future i'll probably save it for longer periods of time now. And not use it continually.

 

[Crashing]

Haha. Stimulant posts all have the same exact format. A bunch of 2-3 line paragraphs concerning paranoid topics.

Coke is bad for you, it will change the way you act for the worst if you keep using it no matter the dosage. Is it fun and useful and can it be used in moderation with little ill effects? Yes.

Sidenote: Don't blame your friend for your drug use, it's lame as hell.

 

[Masterofllamas]

Haha. Stimulant posts all have the same exact format. A bunch of 2-3 line paragraphs concerning paranoid topics.

Coke is bad for you, it will change the way you act for the worst if you keep using it no matter the dosage. Is it fun and useful and can it be used in moderation with little ill effects? Yes.

Sidenote: Don't blame your friend for your drug use, it's lame as hell.

I didnt blame him for the drug use, i was saying he actually like threw it at me agressively...

 

[Crashing]

He doesn't sound friendly.

 

[randysmackage]

Its cool man. Even though you folded under pressure, and did something you were hesitant about doing in the first place your fine. I dont think your few days of using will affect the type of person you are. Its takes months or years of abuse to chemically alter your brain. Its just a little coke. Its not like you went on a 2 week crack binge or anything.