Mental Health Psyching Out & Mental Problems?

[Siccness909]

Ok BL recently due to long term amphetamine use after about 6 years mainly methamphetamine, binging, psychosis etc. I burned myself out on stims where I can barely get high even on huge doses just Inducing paranoia etc. Does nothing for me pretty much well anyway I still decided to use and all I can recognize is anxiety psychosis comes to mind but I have gotten to the point I literally can psych myself out on my shadow and change my body movements and walking style from i could describe a gay dude,( im straight) to a full on female with boobs. I have slept countless months abstinence from all usage and still I also hear random perceptions on me depending on scenario from cars as they pass me on a street? I think its a burn out tendencies but its reallly gross and weird...depending on whT I hear I can psych out automatically walking not like me at all its extremely embarrassing... Can't find any junkie that has experienced the same I also have times when I use I can feel fake cold sweats mentally going down my arms and stomach (being my worst fear is a heart attack I would assume) anyway BL I NEED HELP maybe antipsychotics? Its out of control...please help

Also I feel a weird sensation like fluid coming out my hear when anxiety/psychosis kicks in you could say mentally obviously not real, as well as a fake mental tear drop dripping down my left cheek and when I start to feel those sensations that's when I psych out to a walking style without eben knowing it depending on what I hear...its all really fucked up and gross junkie shit lol but yes this IS real and it happens not just I think I'm walking weird etc also controls my facial expressions all day till I recover and sleep....PLEASE ALL OPINIONS WELCOME I NEED TO FIND ANSWERS

 

[weekend addiction]

Fuck man I wouldn't even drink a cup of coffee if I were you see a doctor I would leave the part out about meth because you probably need a low dose of benzos for the anxiety and just alotta time away from stims. I got pretty bad mental problems from taking to much amps for years (only taking scripted 40mg vyvanse toward the end but it affected me ALOT). Around New Years I made a resolution no more amps\strong stims. Life has been so much easier and I'm not having those racing thoughts\psychotic episodes I was having last year. I was FUCKING nuts last year. So it gets better with time.

 

[Pretty_Diamonds]

How long have you been sober?

Do you have insurance?
Ok, go to http://locator.apa.org/
Select, substance abuse specialist.
Co pay is usually around $15 for a 55min session.
Call and talk to them a little, describing your problem since it sounds pretty severe. Make at least THREE appts. Everybody is different, every therapist is different. You have to find someone that works for you. I can not stress the importance of the client-therapist relationship! Goodluck OP.

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

I'm going to be honest and say that your post isn't very clear. It definitely conveys that you need help though, and that's really great for you to realize and tell us!

You must be in great pain. I've been to similar places. I agree with the above posters. Before taking any other drug, you must talk to a doctor about what you're going through, because as it is you're hurting a lot, and it may get worse. Right now, you have a lot of insight in that you know you need help and that a lot of your symptoms aren't real.

Until you see a doctor, try to relax and not stress yourself. Absolutely do not use any drugs of abuse until you see a doctor. There is hope.