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dpc1192

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I'm tired of this lifestyle. It's been about 2 years of steady use. I got clean for Christmas and stayed that way for about 2 weeks and then caved. It's just hard, I always feel so bored because I know how great everything is on OC.

Every day has meaning, every day is an adventure, and it is all worth that call that its ok to come by.

I need to stop, but I'll get sick. I'm in college, and can't really get on Methadone/ don't want to be taking something the rest of my life. I just hate being sick more than anything, and really can't deal with it. I feel like I've sort of changed as a person because of my use, like my personality and interests, and it really really depresses me. I feel like I could've been so much more, made so many people proud, and not let nearly as many people down...

Anyone have any advice?
 
I've never been in your shoes (physical dependence), but my gut tells me you should worry less about letting other people down, and focus on being happy with yourself.

However, one thing I do know from personal experience is that "being happy with yourself" is easier said than done. So many friends tell me to treat myself better, and I'm just like, "yea whatever I'll treat myself to some drugs." That's an exaggeration but you get the point.
 
thats very true. i've always been very self conscious and second guess myself alot.
 
i know someone who's on suboxone/lexapro and in outpatient rehab and going to school. you would definitely have to take 4 days to detox at a center but after that it would be alot easier than you think. you won't take it the rest of your life, even so, would you rather take OC the rest of your life or an antidepressant for 6months-1year depending on your use. methadone stay away from, it gets you just as high. go with suboxone cause it kills your cravings
 
^^^ yea like molly said subs will help

i been there but for longer and it was hard to stop ...but it seems like u really want to and thats the main thing...i know people who have been sent to rehab 10 times and relapsed every time but they didnt really wanna quit they was just trying to please people/stay outta trouble when i said i wanted to quit i really wanted to quit and i told myself that and i made it happen yes it was hard had a few slip ups but its gonna take some changing yourself back to yourself u willl have to be strong and get ya mental right first if u can get ahold of subs i would try to maybe use them for a week or 2 and then taper off so u dont have to worry about being addicted to them afterwards but BL is a good source of support when u trying to kick ..and good luck man i hope it works out for u
 
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