Since I tried mushrooms, my anxiety has basically skyrocketed. I have always been anxious, mostly a social anxiety kind of thing. I know that mushrooms (along with other drugs) can bring out the anxiety. I am pretty positive that the mushrooms did it.
Anyway, I am always anxious about sex. I've been seeing my boyfriend for over a year (starting last May) and we've been having sex since then as well. I didn't try mushrooms until I think maybe December? Around that time.
Since then, our sex life has decreased. One of the reasons, I think, is that we are often always partying. We only see each other on weekends because of where we live. So he will come to my place on Friday, we'll go out Friday, sleep in on Saturday, maybe do something on Saturday afternoon, go out again Saturday night, or something like that. Anyway, it's just always nonstop! And I really don't want to have sex after a busy day. Or coming down off of drugs. I am just not in the mood for sex. He is the one that encourages the drugs - to be honest, I'm quite fine sober - I only do drugs sometimes. But he wants to party all weekend and get high and come home and have sex. I can't handle it all (even if I'm sober the whole time - heck that just makes me just as tired).
Anyway that's just the sex part. That's where I thought the sex problem was at the start but I don't think that's all of it.
The other thing is that I'm super anxious all the time. And so I will be anxious all the time about who knows what. And I won't be able to have sex because I'm worried and I just don't have a sex drive. Also, when I get anxious, I need to pee. So I'm *always* needing to pee which is embarrassing (I feel awkward going to the washroom all the time) and I dunno, it just is weird.
So now our sex life is not going so great. We have sex like once in a weekend and we usually see each other whole weekend. Last weekend we didn't have sex at all!
He thinks it is my fault but I think it is his fault. He says I just never want sex. I say I do want sex but when he keeps me so busy I can't handle it anymore. I can't do all the drugs that he does. When I do drugs, I get too fucked up and can't have sex anyway. When I don't and he does and still wants to party, I'm too tired. It's not that I don't want to. But if we had sex before, or we got some sleep, or something ... maybe it would be okay. Oh and like when we come home at like 7 in the morning, I can't sleep in that much, I can't sleep much past 11 or 12, so I don't get much sleep that night and therefore am less awake.
Well, this is just a bunch of rambling, not very interesting. I dunno. I guess I will have to just see how this weekend goes. I am trying to convince him to stay sober this weekend (well with the exception of weed). I dunno. I guess I'll see how it goes.
(Oh by the way I do love him like crazy but sometimes we are both stubborn and I'm sure we just need to talk about it and figure things out)
Anyway, I am always anxious about sex. I've been seeing my boyfriend for over a year (starting last May) and we've been having sex since then as well. I didn't try mushrooms until I think maybe December? Around that time.
Since then, our sex life has decreased. One of the reasons, I think, is that we are often always partying. We only see each other on weekends because of where we live. So he will come to my place on Friday, we'll go out Friday, sleep in on Saturday, maybe do something on Saturday afternoon, go out again Saturday night, or something like that. Anyway, it's just always nonstop! And I really don't want to have sex after a busy day. Or coming down off of drugs. I am just not in the mood for sex. He is the one that encourages the drugs - to be honest, I'm quite fine sober - I only do drugs sometimes. But he wants to party all weekend and get high and come home and have sex. I can't handle it all (even if I'm sober the whole time - heck that just makes me just as tired).
Anyway that's just the sex part. That's where I thought the sex problem was at the start but I don't think that's all of it.
The other thing is that I'm super anxious all the time. And so I will be anxious all the time about who knows what. And I won't be able to have sex because I'm worried and I just don't have a sex drive. Also, when I get anxious, I need to pee. So I'm *always* needing to pee which is embarrassing (I feel awkward going to the washroom all the time) and I dunno, it just is weird.
So now our sex life is not going so great. We have sex like once in a weekend and we usually see each other whole weekend. Last weekend we didn't have sex at all!
He thinks it is my fault but I think it is his fault. He says I just never want sex. I say I do want sex but when he keeps me so busy I can't handle it anymore. I can't do all the drugs that he does. When I do drugs, I get too fucked up and can't have sex anyway. When I don't and he does and still wants to party, I'm too tired. It's not that I don't want to. But if we had sex before, or we got some sleep, or something ... maybe it would be okay. Oh and like when we come home at like 7 in the morning, I can't sleep in that much, I can't sleep much past 11 or 12, so I don't get much sleep that night and therefore am less awake.
Well, this is just a bunch of rambling, not very interesting. I dunno. I guess I will have to just see how this weekend goes. I am trying to convince him to stay sober this weekend (well with the exception of weed). I dunno. I guess I'll see how it goes.
(Oh by the way I do love him like crazy but sometimes we are both stubborn and I'm sure we just need to talk about it and figure things out)