Edit: jesus I didn't see you were talking about drugs in general. Well I guess the 2 last options I suggested don't apply here. Sorry I missed that, and wrote a freaking essay on the wrong subject, I'm a little retarded atm from my sleep-deprivation. My apologies. :D
- The same thing does kind of apply to drugs, you are going to need to learn to control your impulses, if people can do ghb all day long which is DISGUSTING, why wouldn't you be able to down some mouthwash? Dilluting it will probably just result in taking more, until you had a dose you find recreational. And you'll have to drink something disgusting to do it.
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If you have the meds and you really are having difficulties not abusing them, you would be surprised how far you would go to get high when you really want to. Even drink alot of disgusting mouthwash or whatever. And then you'll hate yourself for dilluting it in the first place.
Unfortunately it's all about self-control, which is the only real way to prevent abuse if you have it there 'up for grabs'.
It's tough when you're impulsive, but it can really be done. I managed to get it under control after my habit got out of control and I became a total mess because the amounts I took daily were just.. Unreal.
[HR: DON'T EVER TRY TAKING THESE DOSES, I MUST BE THE LUCKIEST PERSON ON THE PLANET TO HAVE NEVER OD'D.]
I'm talking about gigantic amounts of a combination of benzos, well over a normal rec. dose (Not in total, I mean that a dose of 1 of these would get most people k.o.) I'd take 10mg xanax, 10mg lorazepam, 10mg clonazepam, 60mg diazepam and 36mg bromazepam on average each day. Sometimes I added other benzos when I had them, also well beyond the normal rec. dose. I had collected over a 1000 pills by the time I came to my senses. (And bravely threw them all out, except diazepam for tapering.) I had these enormous amounts of pills because I started going to a second doctor who would write prescriptions for almost any benzo and additional painkillers. He wouldn't give me the strongest benzos. Flunitrazepam and triazolam weren't an option, temaz & midazolam aren't prescribed outside hospitals here. I asked him for different benzos from time to time. So I was getting prescriptions for 2 types of benzos, tramadol and OC 40s from two doctors. Like I said.. It got out of control, and obtaining them was so easy.. My real doctor, who is really not a bad doctor had scans taken, tried different pain meds, PT, etc. The other doc was a guy who lived of drug-seekers. I always combined my "benzo cocktail" with 40mg doses of oxy every few hours, 800mg of tramadol, something between 50 and 200mg of tilidine, and 400mg of codeine. Know what I mean by saying I became a mess? It was bad.
I was too fucked up 24/7 to care about the dangers. In retrospect, the doses I took obviously could've easily led to a lethal OD. But ofcourse I told myself it was safe because I didn't feel like ever came close to an overdose. I've read stories about people OD'ing on alot less, but still told myself my tolerance made it impossible for me to overdose. I knew I was doing something very dangerous but still I kept telling myself that nonsense. I came to my senses after a few months of this idiotic behaviour by using acid for the first time. It was a scary trip, it felt like I was being confronted with my behaviour, by myself.. It was the most life-changing trip I ever had. And totally worth the scary hours I spent rethinking my lifestyle. Now I'm not saying go do some acid and you will see the light, lol. I'm just saying that's how I got out of it. (I take 10mg diazepam/day now and sometimes a modest dose of tilidine, or tramadol when I'm in alot of pain.) Think about the dangerous game you are playing, and how it will affect you if you continue to go down this road. I never mentioned actual doses I took here before, because I was ashamed of how stupid and reckless my behaviour had become. But abuse quickly turns it into a habit, habits cause tolerance, and that's when the vicious circle starts spinning.
I hope this was somewhat useful to you, because I don't particularly like talking about that time.
Another thing you can do is asking someone you live with to hang on to them and never give you more than you're allowed. But again, if you're really craving recreational doses, you would do crazy stuff to get your hands on higher doses. (begging the person you need more, or lying and saying you dropped the pill they just gave you and can't find it. Or becoming a drug-seeker..) But it's something you can try.
Then there's possibly another option. My dr. once told me about it, I don't know if this is available everywhere or not. He told me there's a possibility to pick up your normal doses every week at the pharmacy without having to go your dr. every week. You just pay for the meds when you get your first week's meds, and you can pick them up 10 times before you need to revisit the doctor. I declined back then, but now it's something I would immediately do if things started spiraling out of control again. But I don't think that's going to happen.
