Hello everybody,
I'm currently quitting opiates and benzos, but yesterday was the kind of day where I couldn't care less and I let the pressure go (hadn't used opiates since a week and a half) by taking methadone. Here is what I took during the day:
-Woke up depressed like pretty much everyday, so I took my treatment which is 50mg amitriptyline and 100mg hydroxyzine. Smoked a cigarette and sipped a coffee.
-2 hours later, I wasn't feeling good at all, like dope sick, freezing and sneezing. I was alone. I had some 40mg methadone pill, so I tried too split that thing in 2 doses, but I maybe did something wrong and took more than 25mg of methadone, I didn't care.
-Just after that, I decided to take more amitriptyline (50mg), hydroxyzine (100mg), aripiprazole (I never took that one very often, 5mg)
-Then I spent the afternoon surfing on the Web, listening to music and reading random stuff.
-Few hours passed and I went out to see a friend who had a car and proposed him to score some herbs for people, before that we had a joint of high grade buds.
After that joint I simply blacked out, the following is told by my friend who freaked out when I saw me coming back to the car:
I couldn't speak or understand anything. Everything I said was incoherent. I had seizure, all my body shut down, I wasn't breathing correctly. My friend tried everything to wake me up and was about to call an ambulance to come to quickly pick me out, he did CPR and was obviously freaking up. He thought I was dying, but I suddenly woke up from my coma, and finally breathed, but it took maybe two hours to be half awake and not nauseous.
Everybody around me is scared and are thinking that I will eventually die... It's no the first time it had happened, last time (a year ago) I woke up in the hospital.
I'm scared. I don't know what to do, or think. I don't understand how that happened.. I was really close to die. Do you think I did a permanent damage? What could be the best thing to do in my situation?
Thank you if you read until there!
Sorry about my poor English...
I hope made sense!
I'm currently quitting opiates and benzos, but yesterday was the kind of day where I couldn't care less and I let the pressure go (hadn't used opiates since a week and a half) by taking methadone. Here is what I took during the day:
-Woke up depressed like pretty much everyday, so I took my treatment which is 50mg amitriptyline and 100mg hydroxyzine. Smoked a cigarette and sipped a coffee.
-2 hours later, I wasn't feeling good at all, like dope sick, freezing and sneezing. I was alone. I had some 40mg methadone pill, so I tried too split that thing in 2 doses, but I maybe did something wrong and took more than 25mg of methadone, I didn't care.
-Just after that, I decided to take more amitriptyline (50mg), hydroxyzine (100mg), aripiprazole (I never took that one very often, 5mg)
-Then I spent the afternoon surfing on the Web, listening to music and reading random stuff.
-Few hours passed and I went out to see a friend who had a car and proposed him to score some herbs for people, before that we had a joint of high grade buds.
After that joint I simply blacked out, the following is told by my friend who freaked out when I saw me coming back to the car:
I couldn't speak or understand anything. Everything I said was incoherent. I had seizure, all my body shut down, I wasn't breathing correctly. My friend tried everything to wake me up and was about to call an ambulance to come to quickly pick me out, he did CPR and was obviously freaking up. He thought I was dying, but I suddenly woke up from my coma, and finally breathed, but it took maybe two hours to be half awake and not nauseous.
Everybody around me is scared and are thinking that I will eventually die... It's no the first time it had happened, last time (a year ago) I woke up in the hospital.
I'm scared. I don't know what to do, or think. I don't understand how that happened.. I was really close to die. Do you think I did a permanent damage? What could be the best thing to do in my situation?
Thank you if you read until there!
Sorry about my poor English...
