Poppyseed Tea addiction

[Beat Narrative]

Ok i know poppyseed tea is not as severe as other opiates when it comes to addiction but i have found it an incredibly useful tool for managing anxiety. I work in a very conservative working environment and i feel rather trapped, i hate my job but i have such bad confidence issues that starting a new job seems very daunting.

I have been using a wide variety of substances for the last 16 years (i am now 30) and have used opiates recreationally for about 14 years, i have always avoided injecting and the cost of heroin, oxycontin etc in Australia has meant that i have never over indulged.

I started using poppyseed tea after reading about it online, used it for years mainly to help with hangovers (an imediate cure!) but things in my personal life starting getting on top of me and i started using it to go to work and to really help me through everyday life

For the last 18 months i have been using almost every day, i am using about 1.8kg's at a time and after about 36 hours of not having it i start getting sore muscles, runny nose, insomnia.

I have decided that i am going to quit at the end of the year, i am qutiing my job, going to take a year off work and study, get fit and do things that i feel will benefit me in the long run

I feel like an idiot getting addicted to poppyseed tea of all things, especially as i have seen 90% of my friends cope with heroin addiction

The thing about this stage in my drug use is that i have strated using a drug to cope with things, as opposed to just enjoying spare time, i really feel like i have lost the element of choice in my drug usage and thats what angers me more than anything

I have a very supportive Father and Girlfriend, i feel confident about the future and i apologise about the self indulgent nature of this post, it is somewhat cathartic to write things in a public domain under a pseudonym, so i apologise for using this forum for my own selfish needs

 

[Dave]

Hey, that's what we're here for. There's also Blogs, which can be useful for the 'telling stories' kinds of posts, but I think that dealing with addiction is always relevant.

I wouldn't necessarily downplay poppy tea of any sort. My (limited) understanding is that since it is a complex mixture of many alkaloids, you're actually parallel addicted to several different opioids, all of which may have different withdrawal profiles. If you can, try a nice, long taper, and you should have little pain with getting clean. In theory

 

[Ixchellian]

^---- Dave is correct..... in theory.

PPT is a pretty complex brew, and a heavy pod habit is an ugly one to break.... especially as no two dried poppy-pods are alike in alkaloid content, and even poppies from the same strain may possess widely different potencies from batch to batch.

In my humble opinion, pods are particularly difficult to taper off for that reason..... along with dependency on the complex combinations of alkaloids contained in the pods.

My suggestion is to make a taper off pods as quick and definitive as possible..... and try to select pods for your taper batch that are as consistent as possible, in terms of potency. Nothing is worse than starting a taper, and then mid-way through ending up with a shitty batch..... unexpected cold-turkey junk-sickness is hell on the 'ol willpower, amongst other things. 8)

But as you're consuming poppy-seed tea, you *should* be facing a comparatively short withdrawal, as opposed to eating pounds of pods a week.
Quitting any opiate for good is pretty tough, so it's hard to achieve a first-time-Go. But it can be done.

..... in theory.

 

[Legerity]

Don't have to feel like an idiot or apologize for your post You're acknowledging a situation that you would like to change; that's a positive thing. If posting is helpful for you then might as well post as much as you want to.

Having people around you that are supportive also makes a huge difference. If you want to stop it then there's nothing that has to stop you.

 

[Bojangles69]

Hey man 29 here and was addicted to poppy pods for a decent amount of time. Mainly for the last 4-5 years I got into it before that it was mostly stimulants.

But poppy pods are NOT and I mean NOT to be taken lightly. I understand your attitude however and you're trying to view them for what they are. There is just not much that is different between poppy pods and say heroin except half life and the onset of the high. If anything, I'd rather go through heroin wds any day of the week because poppy wds never fucking end.

Also I was able to see how powerful pods really are just by tapering off them. I did it slow and controlled for 3 months and it was very difficult once I got low. But your tolerance goes back down and you start to realize how powerful the pods really are. These things are loaded with addictive opiate alkaloids. And the morphine in it alone is known for being very hard to get off of. I think thats why I had such a difficult time myself.

However, do not fret. Why? Because you sound like a noticeably intelligent person. Your demeanor, your awareness into your condition, as well as your spirit and attitude you motivated to get past this.

Poppies were always my main DOC and now that they are in harvest cravings have been exponentially worse knowing that I can get lots of them for cheap. I'll be honest this is why the last 3 septembers in a row have provoked me into near suicidal emotions. I get very fucked up this time of year between it getting cold, and knowing how much opium is being harvested it makes me sick. Like I just need to get those good opiates in my blood to keep myself warm throughout the winter and fend off any depression.

BUT FUCK THAT. This shit robs you of your soul, your ambition, your motivation to succeed and be attracted to the normal elements of human life. It does some very awful things to the way you view your life and it only took a matter of years before I started getting depressed as fuck on the pods. It was a numb depression, very hard to even be aware of, but it was just a very numb and lifeless feeling. I still get it somewhat today from the sub but just being off the pods I've been able to make huge progress in life (like graduating college and getting a job - although not my real career yet).

You have various different ways you can go about getting off pods. I do not know your attitude towards opiate addiction but I tend to be very much against cold turkey. Its too quick and you don't learn any self discipline by doing it. Tapering however does teach you discipline as well as making you feel like a stronger/better person imo. Or you could switch to other meds and taper those meds down. I however had started with the pods. I got a scale, bagged up doses dropping a gm a day, from about 100gms all the way down to 4gms. I had a hard time staying off however which is why now I'm on sub, and plan on tapering that much more slowly and for much longer.

But you CAN absolutely get clean off that shit. Its merely a matter of making a decision in the NOW to start right this minute. You really just have to push off all the reasons to delay it, and just jump in head first imo. Its not as scary as you would think, like I said unless you cold turkey the shit.

 

[Dave]

There is certainly some excellent advice here...










in theory.
:D