It's been three days sober...other then weed, but even at that last night it got to the point where no matter how much I smoked I couldn't get high(er). I'm considering getting a bottle upstairs and slamming it even though it's only 11:00 A.M. However I don't even really care for the feeling of being drunk...I tend to get mean anyway. Really...I just want a few shots of dope...I just want that bliss...those few moments where I can't talk, I can't move, I'm completely spun...
I am supposed to spend the weekend with my mother because my stepfather left hunting. Don't get me wrong he is a great guy but you know how there are just those people you don't "click with" well that happens to pretty much be our relationship. The one main thing that really ruined what good our relationship had was when he kicked me out of the house after breaking into my computer and finding this info on cooking crystal meth. Really he has no reason to be going through my computer. I mean...shit he could go through my room...but my computer? Come on.
Anyway I popped 250mg of Tramadol, 20mg of Valium, and scraped the heroin out of my cooker and got a fairly good shot a little bit ago and I'm feeling great right now. Nam was real nice to give me a new kit with water, alcohol prep pads, tourniquet, one hitter kits, new rigs, and the whole setup so I can finally start injecting the proper way because I fucking lost my old kit. I hate to cut this short but I really feel like relaxing and enjoying the high I got going on.
I am supposed to spend the weekend with my mother because my stepfather left hunting. Don't get me wrong he is a great guy but you know how there are just those people you don't "click with" well that happens to pretty much be our relationship. The one main thing that really ruined what good our relationship had was when he kicked me out of the house after breaking into my computer and finding this info on cooking crystal meth. Really he has no reason to be going through my computer. I mean...shit he could go through my room...but my computer? Come on.
Anyway I popped 250mg of Tramadol, 20mg of Valium, and scraped the heroin out of my cooker and got a fairly good shot a little bit ago and I'm feeling great right now. Nam was real nice to give me a new kit with water, alcohol prep pads, tourniquet, one hitter kits, new rigs, and the whole setup so I can finally start injecting the proper way because I fucking lost my old kit. I hate to cut this short but I really feel like relaxing and enjoying the high I got going on.