Pondering my next move.

Well, hello dear Blog. I suppose I should write in you more often. You and your readers have always been kind to me.

I'm really nervous right now, even for me. I know this time it's biological - my Full Moon period (one could set a clock by me) is getting to me. I should be proud of having half my homework done, getting through an extensive software tutorial that will make my final a breeze (ha) but nonetheless my nerves are on fire. I could take a benzo but I have already had my daily dose and do not wish to misuse my scripts. I may take a nap as it is my day off, but I do not want to sleep through a call. I may compromise and make flash cards while lying in bed. Day 1 of my cycle is such a killer now. I suppose it beats the alternative.

I mentioned in a comment in another Blogger's blog that I feel I am at a crossroads. It relates to career. Should I give up the former and aggressively pursue the new one? I am doing almost too well in school not to, but let's just say that tax accounting (new educational path) is not the most exciting thing I have ever done, and although the glass is half full in nailing out this homework... nonetheless I am nervous. I believe it is unfair for my instructor to accelerate us in this way, but I haven't a choice in the matter. I simply must perform, and perform well.

I have a meeting on Friday with someone who wants me to work with her for the season provided we hit it off as people. She says my credentials are flawless and it's basically a done deal if I can put up with the fact that she is "high maintenance". I may or may not have found a new mentor. Now I have to read her damn book and go take a test on the software.

Before the call I received just now, I felt hopeless and more than a bit apprehensive. My work is so important to me. I do it well and diligently. Some people really hate work, and this is the driest work imaginable, but shit...

*breathes*

I CAN DO THIS. I CAN DO THIS and if it doesn't work out, then something else will.

Please send me good wishes as I have suffered terribly without the meaning that work gives me. I can finally write my own ticket in life if I get this right. I can hit it off with almost anyone if I try, but this has to be genuine, and it can lead to great things.

Back to my tutorial and pile of homework - no more "why me". I'll think a bit on how funny it is the way things work out sometimes, and then I will ponder my next move.

I remain mostly abstinent from alcohol and all drugs that are not scripted to me. Life is good clean. There are some areas that I need to work on, but to paraphrase Dr. Seuss, with my brain in my head and my boots on my feet, I am prepared to head down a brand-new street.

Please wish me luck with all of this. A week from now I want to be thankful, not dejected.

 

I have a bit of an idea where you're coming from. In my case, I chose to stick with my original career for a while longer. It seems to be working out well in the short term, but I think that until I give the second career a go it will keep nagging me in the back of my head.

Best of luck to you Mariposa! Tax accounting may be dry as hell, but if you can do it well then you'll be in very high demand. But even neglecting that, if you can do any job well, and get enjoyment from it, then you are ahead of most people.

Also, I really need to post in my blog one of these days. Having no time is no fun.