CyaLuvyaBye
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this was sent to me last night from a friend i just recently met interstate in person but had been talking to on the net for months now (my nick on the net is PammyLee) fortunaly i got to talk to him and he now feels a little differently to when he wrote this, however it is the first poem he has ever written and was written with heart and tears.
please read it and comment so i can let him know what you think
i have not included his name as i dont think its appropriate
and i have included the typos and it is exactly as i found it,
here it is.............................
At times like these i need ppl like u
but coz of my problems i have driven u away
i hate myself and my life
who knows maybe 2morrow i wont be here to see another day
i am a nobody i am worthless
to do the world a favour i'll take my life away
it hurts me that i dont know who i am
and wh i might be
but babe maybe thats the way it was meant to be
i love u and i care about u
even though i dont know really who u r
babe i am sorry for all the problems i have caused
and all the stress
but babe i think that is me at my best
so for that reason and others i might take off
to another place where i will be better off
i have hidden these problems for 4 yrs
and to me that is 4 yrs to long
i dont know what i will do but i am thnking
what is best for me
and i think its 6ft underground
where there is no one to hurt and stress
i hope u r in good health and spirits
and in good hands to keep u away from me
i am not really who u think i am
but a fraud who i really am
i love everyone and everything
to the extent where i cannot think 4 myself
But unforyunately my mind is scaterred
my heart is shattered
that has made my decision closer
to what might be
babe take care of ur loved ones and of urself
and dont 4get who u really r
coz later u might get a shock
and regret to what u couldv'e been
Babe i dont know if i am feeling sorry 4 myself
but i think i am
but these problems i have
will stay with me 4 ever, to eat me away
Kornchic and Pammylee u2 i have only got
but i found another friend like u, which i love alot
MANNY this is 4 u 2, u3 r babes
and the only ppl that want to know me at this stage
Kornchic u r only 17 and me 19
i act like i kid i know
but pls see ur parents, coz i know u love them'and they love u
Pammylee u r a babe, it was nice meeting u
and i already miss u
maybe that was my destiny
to meet u and then to fly away to another place
Pammlylee look after charlotte
for she is ur only little darling
to cherish and to look after
and make syre she dosent grow up to be like me
Manny look after Liam and ur HEALTH
for they r the 2 most important things in ur life
Liam will grow up to be a real man,
and that is what i canot achieve
Manny i hope ur sickness in cured
coz u r a speacial person to be around, and to me
u r strong and u r a babe
like i told the other 2 i am a nothing
i thought i was strong, but in reality
strength is not what counts, but will power
and mind power is what i need
i havent got that and i never will
i have no reason being here without them
life is not about money or about sex
but it is about the love from ppl u get
its also about giving love and understanding
for that what i am thinking of doing i will no longer be able to provide them
ols babes dont take life as a game
or u will turn out to be like me, the same
i dont know y i wrote this poem
for i am too scared to take my life
i wrote this with my heart and tears
for i am too scared too face my fears
my real fears r in my heart for
thats what tripps me out about my life
i dont fear anyone or anything but
i fear what my destiny has b4 me
i ahd my life all planned out
to be the best fitness instructor that ever came out
but my problems is what scares me
to that i have no answer b4 me
i need a break i need to chill, but deep inside
my hear tellls me i only have one choice and that is to
KILL.
[This message has been edited by CyaLuvyaBye (edited 11 June 2000).]
please read it and comment so i can let him know what you think
i have not included his name as i dont think its appropriate
and i have included the typos and it is exactly as i found it,
here it is.............................
At times like these i need ppl like u
but coz of my problems i have driven u away
i hate myself and my life
who knows maybe 2morrow i wont be here to see another day
i am a nobody i am worthless
to do the world a favour i'll take my life away
it hurts me that i dont know who i am
and wh i might be
but babe maybe thats the way it was meant to be
i love u and i care about u
even though i dont know really who u r
babe i am sorry for all the problems i have caused
and all the stress
but babe i think that is me at my best
so for that reason and others i might take off
to another place where i will be better off
i have hidden these problems for 4 yrs
and to me that is 4 yrs to long
i dont know what i will do but i am thnking
what is best for me
and i think its 6ft underground
where there is no one to hurt and stress
i hope u r in good health and spirits
and in good hands to keep u away from me
i am not really who u think i am
but a fraud who i really am
i love everyone and everything
to the extent where i cannot think 4 myself
But unforyunately my mind is scaterred
my heart is shattered
that has made my decision closer
to what might be
babe take care of ur loved ones and of urself
and dont 4get who u really r
coz later u might get a shock
and regret to what u couldv'e been
Babe i dont know if i am feeling sorry 4 myself
but i think i am
but these problems i have
will stay with me 4 ever, to eat me away
Kornchic and Pammylee u2 i have only got
but i found another friend like u, which i love alot
MANNY this is 4 u 2, u3 r babes
and the only ppl that want to know me at this stage
Kornchic u r only 17 and me 19
i act like i kid i know
but pls see ur parents, coz i know u love them'and they love u
Pammylee u r a babe, it was nice meeting u
and i already miss u
maybe that was my destiny
to meet u and then to fly away to another place
Pammlylee look after charlotte
for she is ur only little darling
to cherish and to look after
and make syre she dosent grow up to be like me
Manny look after Liam and ur HEALTH
for they r the 2 most important things in ur life
Liam will grow up to be a real man,
and that is what i canot achieve
Manny i hope ur sickness in cured
coz u r a speacial person to be around, and to me
u r strong and u r a babe
like i told the other 2 i am a nothing
i thought i was strong, but in reality
strength is not what counts, but will power
and mind power is what i need
i havent got that and i never will
i have no reason being here without them
life is not about money or about sex
but it is about the love from ppl u get
its also about giving love and understanding
for that what i am thinking of doing i will no longer be able to provide them
ols babes dont take life as a game
or u will turn out to be like me, the same
i dont know y i wrote this poem
for i am too scared to take my life
i wrote this with my heart and tears
for i am too scared too face my fears
my real fears r in my heart for
thats what tripps me out about my life
i dont fear anyone or anything but
i fear what my destiny has b4 me
i ahd my life all planned out
to be the best fitness instructor that ever came out
but my problems is what scares me
to that i have no answer b4 me
i need a break i need to chill, but deep inside
my hear tellls me i only have one choice and that is to
KILL.
[This message has been edited by CyaLuvyaBye (edited 11 June 2000).]