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eminow

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I have no idea what to do. I so addicted to painkillers and it is going to kill me if I don't get off of them soon.

I am prescribed 6 thirty oxys a day and 2 sixty op oxys. I do a months dose in the first week. So I am doing 4 times what I am prescribed.

I need to get off. I am scared of withdrawls. I have two kids I need to live for.

Suboxone? Methodone? Weening? Cold Turkey? I can go to the hospital for the illness I have and they can get me down to my normal dose without knowing I am withdrawing. Or, I can go to a local detox place.

Please help, what should I do?
Thank you so much for the help.
 
I would not go the CT way if I were you. Although it isn't actually dangerous with opiates, it'll make the whole thing much more unpleasnt and you'll be way more likely not to go through with the actual quitting.
Since they're prescribed to you, I'd advise asking your doctor about a good taper route. Suboxone or methadone maintenance would be my vote. If I were you I'd also check out some NA meetings. Good luck!
 
Do you have anyone you trust who can hold onto your meds and dispense them to you?
 
I am prescribed 6 thirty oxys a day and 2 sixty op oxys. I do a months dose in the first week. So I am doing 4 times what I am prescribed.
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What are you doing the other three weeks in the month once you've done your pills in? And how much of it? Just so I know what advice is strictly applicable here. We talking prolonged daily use over months with other sources of none-prescribed opiates and real physical addiction, or binging week on, weeks off and a more psychological one? If it's the latter and it's a loss of control then yes, enlist the help of someone can help moderate the tendency to binge and get you on a more even keel. If the former and we're talking detox that's a different thing altogether.
 
you have quite a habit there. In ten years I have quit more times then most people I have met I been through WD from a huge habit lots of times.. only thing seems really work is suboxone... give try
 
i'm so sorry this is happening to you. You are in the right place. My experience with opiate withdrawals is extensive and I was on methadone for about 2 years and have been using Suboxone for withdrawals from fentanyl and oxycodone; i tend to abuse my scripts and use alot of heroin.
In my opinion I think methadone was a far, far ,far worse thing than withdrawals from any opiate i withdrawn from. The withdrawals are severe and last very long, also the PAWS (post acute withdrawal syndrome) is much more severe.
Suboxone, to me, was a kind of epiphany. I found that the mental craving of other drugs was substantially reduced and i was physically comfortable. Also coming off Suboxone was easier than any other opiate if you do it in a controlled manner.
The withdrawals can be bad from oxycodone but there is ALOT you can do to be more comfortable.
You obviously want this and you have two great reasons to do this and the way you said you need to live for them shows a passion and a well of strength you can draw upon. You need to be honest with trusted people around you. The stigma of addiction is bad I know, but you need to tell someone that you trust and can rely on. Because this isn't going to be easy. Talking to people can really lift the weight off your shoulders and can really boost your confidence and determination. Trust me, when you tell someone and you get a hug or a hand squeeze, it makes a difference.
You are being very brave, don't forget that. Being scared of withdrawals isn't a bad thing; they are pretty bad. But it;s not forever and you can help ease them.
Feel free to PM me and i can tell you the stuff that worked for me and chat with you about it, or anything if you need or want to.
Best of luck to you.
 
As is excessive masturbation that commonly goes hand in hand with opiate detox. :\ Hell, sometimes you don't even have to lay a finger on yourself, orgasm's quite spontaneous, most often when you've finally nodded off at last after days without sleep. Bingo, wide awake in a wet patch. Not fun, even annoying at times but a source of immediate, albeit very temporary relief. ;)
 
Damn you. Now I want to go watch porn and rub my lady bits.

Also, remind me to never say 'lady bits' again. It makes them sound gross.
 
Oh, you were probably gonna do that anyways, it's hardly my fault, don't blame me for your urges. You go on, knock yaself out. ;) And never say 'lady bits' again. It makes them sound gross. Though I could think of grosser euphemisms for them. :\
 
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Oh, you were probably gonna do that anyways, it's hardly my fault, don't blame me for your urges. You go on, knock yaself out. ;) And never say 'lady bits' again. It makes them sound gross. Though I could think of grosser euphemisms for them. :\
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Ha. You're right.:)
 
Thought as much. Now back on topic, enough of this slightly inappropriate hijacking by way of a bump till eminow comes back with an update and more information on any progress.
 
I've been in your shoes and it's a rough road. I had been seeing more than one doctor to get the oxys. I had a little kid to take care of, with the help of my dad. But I also would go through a script within a week but go to a different doctor, different pharmacy and flew under the radar. It got out of hand because after some time I was drug sick more frequently, missing work. I ended up losing my job and the gravy train stopped. I went to rehab and got on suboxone and was able to get some semblence of a normal life. But I still hate myself for letting down my family and especially my son who was still young. Watching me nod out and falling flat on my face, going to hospital for injuries. Don't do the things I've done and don't wait. Try to get help. When you're in the grips of addiction, your only concern is maintaining so you don't get sick. You can pm me if you need to talk. <3
 
Give your prescriptions to a friend or a family member, so they can dull them out to you as it says on the label. Say you have been running out on the last day and you don't want that to happen (you don't have to tell them how you are with running out so quickly). Then you can taper at your own leisure. :)
 
Wow, that's a huge habit. I don't suggest climbing on the MMT or subutex program if I'm honest with you. Subs are fantastic to get off opiates with - but not something you want to maintain. When I say get off, I mean using a 8mg pill only in order to detox from your habit. At your doses though I think that will be quite difficult. However you can do it. Start with 2mg the first day, the next 2mg, the day after 1mg, after that 1mg, then 0.5 then 0.25 and finally the last dose of 0.25.

It will be difficult, but you can do it.
 
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