Please help with recurring unpleasant acid expriences.

[Cid Jester]

I have been having difficulties everytime I decide to go trip on lucy. The last time I dosed was 4 months ago and I went to this realm where I was the last person on earth and I was supposed to spend the rest of my life walking the streets looking for another person. I also felt like I had lived my life and it was about to end but when it ended I had to restart it and I kept hearing voices saying that was the worst life you had and this will be the best or visa verus. I ended up getting arrested that night running around in my boxers and pissing my pants and didn't realize what had happened until I was already in the hospital.
Last night my girlfriend and I decided to take some doses and I had this feeling that everyone was trying to trick me and my decisions were playing out on how the world revolved. I kepy hearing voices say these pharses that i couldn't remember as soon as I hear them. Everyone kept reassuring me that everything was okay and that would help until it got silent again and then it would all come back again.
Both of these trips I had I felt like my back and every single bone in my body was being broken and that my mind was being split apart. I kept thinking there were people there that weren't and they kept on whispering in my ear.
This kind of stuff has happened a couple of times in the last year. I have been taking acid for about 4 years now and I have always been able to control my shit until this last year. I used to take ten strips like it was nothing but these last two trips I was only on 3 tabs.I keep getting paraniod and can't seem to get my mind out of the place it gets into even when I try to talk myself out of it.
These two trips were two different kinds of acid and they were both really clean and everyone who took them had a great time with none of these negative effects. Is there anything I can do to stop this? I am getting to the point were I don't think I can take acid anymore which is a sad idea for me because it has always been such a good friend to me. I thought after waiting 4 months that I would be ready but I just went back to my last trip except it wasn't as serious because I feel I had friends keeping me grounded on some level.
Any advice would be much appreciated. Thank you in advance for you time.

 

[caseface99]

I read back over this, and i know nobody said anything but either way i decided it would be a good idea to include "In my opinion/ In my experience" at the top of this, because i am not trying to pass anything off as a universal truth; Just because this is how Me/my mind works does not mean you wont randomly have a great trip without doing anything special. In fact you very likely could if you go into a trip with a clear mind and none of this negative nonesense even in the back of your mind. But doing this on purpose is difficult hence the meditation practice i suggested - to help you clear your mind.






LSD is a very powerful substance, and from what i can tell you may have over indulged a bit. it took way more to do so because it is less powerful, but i did the same thing with weed. Whenever i get really stoned now i get horrible anxiety and very intense HPPD, like i am on a low dose of cid.

The power of learned association is immense, and it is very hard for your brain to "un learn" the negative feelings you get when tripping now. With time, it is possible you will go back to normal. But every time you trip and get the negative again wil be a major setback, and there is no way to know if you're good until you trip. The only other thing i can think of that could work is a guided theraputic meditation session while tripping. But because of the legal status of psychedelics finding a trained psychedelic therapist is likely not going to happen. Although i am sure it is possible to do on your own, i would seriously suggest practicing sober meditation for months before trying it with the cid, as to not cause more damage.

The power of LSD and other psychs is tremendous, and while great harm can come, even greater good is also possible when used correctly. Personally if i were you i would wait at least 6 months practicing meditation every day. A year even if that length of time isn't too long for you. I would not go as far as to say you have lost your ability to have a good trip, but who knows, Anything is possible when it comes to your brain. Some things can never be un learned. Hence the saying "Its like riding a bike".

 

[Tunnelfission]

The mind is a fragile malleable thing... my earliest trips I felt far more brave about dosing because I didn't know the possibilities of all the things that can happen... well i've had ego busting trips that I was completely at home with, and i've had comparatively shallow trips where i'm scared out of my face!

I've never felt like I was dying or that I had died and am now in some limbo but it seems like a common occurance on psychedellics, it might just be the way the mind interprets the extreme shift in what it is perceiving, one moment your wondering when your dose is gonna kick in then the next your very high and perhaps your alone walking the streets, i'm prone to delusion as well but my mind is capable of handling more than one possible reality> One thing that psychedellics did for me is show me that I could be wrong, just like I believe other things to be, I think all kinds of insane whimsical dreamlike things while tripping (especially on solo trips in unfamiliar places).

I think it could be ego dissolution you just don't recall whats happening with your usual thought structure so the mind is in a different place than it is usually and tries to structure something again, since these drugs are very immersive one can find themselves "snapping out of it" and realizing things are the way they were, and not the way you saw them while tripping.

Syd Barrett was a sad story and I had a less than impressive time on LSD lately, out of respect for this substance i'm not just going to eat it like candy anymore.

Friends of mine have really "gotten lost" on trips and I can almost sympathize for them but I spent alot of time learning about these types of experiences and doing yoga/meditating, I feel those activities have really helped me pull through some of the odder moments in trips and not taking anything to seriously, it's all an experience, just because it gets weirder sometimes doesnt mean that i'm losing my head. but I do know when long breaks are in order.

Substances feel quite different between large breaks, during some waves of personal experience I pick and choose my favorites, dislike some while liking them later vise versa.