thePodFreak
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- Jan 19, 2010
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Hi all,
I'm not sure if this is where to post this, but mods if you could move it to where it should be if this is the wrong place, I would appreciate it!
Now, while I know some of what I will be asking has varied answers all over this board, they just haven't really answered my questions to my satisfaction. I would love if I can get some answers and support from the community! Anyway, first a quick backstory...
I have been purchasing and using poppy pods for a couple years. I think in total I have been using for 4 years, but only heavily the past say, 4-6 months. I wasn't a daily user until about 4 months ago, and now I realize, thanks to my thinning wallet, that it has gotten out of control. I am currently on just under a half cup of pod powder per day. I am in an interesting situation since my wife has no idea that I am addicted, and in fact no one in my life knows I even use. I have kept it a secret all this time, and I want to get off of them the same way...My hope is to have it all just be a part of my past that I'm not proud of, but that no one ever has to be aware of. My wife is about to be out of town for 4 days, and I will be completely alone with the exception of my dog. This has driven me to decide this is as good a time as ever to kick it.
So, as we all know opiates have a rather dreadful withdrawal, and as such would be pretty difficult if not impossible to hide. I have gone through mild withdrawals before, but nothing like the hell I am sure I am about to encounter. I'm hoping that, if I plan things correctly, I can get through the nightmare physical symptoms before she returns. I have a solid job and I work from home. I am a supervisor in some ways, so my team can pick up the slack while I'm hurting. I can take a couple days off as well, and this is a better time than ever for me to detox since my wife will be gone - I just wish the window of opportunity was a little larger.
Now, I know the physical withdrawals won't be completely gone in 4 days, but hopefully tolerable enough so that I can function. I have chosen to detox while still having an "emergency" dose or two in the home. I know many of you will say that's a bad idea. I want it here because I can easily order pods again, so I need to quit with it staring me in the face. If I do that, then I know I have beaten it. My goal is to keep that dose until January 1st, when I hope I get to dump the powder on the ground in a symbolic "fuck you" to the addiction.
Now that you know my backstory and goals, I have some questions. I know some of these have some answers elsewhere, but as I'm sure many of you can relate, I am very nervous going in to this, especially because the only support I will be able to get is (hopefully) from this forum, since no one in my life knows of my habit. So please, be gentle.
My questions are:
I'm sure there are a million posts asking similar questions every day, but as I look around its been difficult to really get everything down that I need. I'm really hoping the great community I have seen being a lurker for so long here at bluelight will come through for me and help me through this difficult process. I am ready to quit and move on with my life - and save a fuckload of money, cause nowadays, pods ain't cheap!
....T-minus 8 days....I'm nervous, but I'm ready as ever to get over this stupid addiction.
I'm not sure if this is where to post this, but mods if you could move it to where it should be if this is the wrong place, I would appreciate it!
Now, while I know some of what I will be asking has varied answers all over this board, they just haven't really answered my questions to my satisfaction. I would love if I can get some answers and support from the community! Anyway, first a quick backstory...
I have been purchasing and using poppy pods for a couple years. I think in total I have been using for 4 years, but only heavily the past say, 4-6 months. I wasn't a daily user until about 4 months ago, and now I realize, thanks to my thinning wallet, that it has gotten out of control. I am currently on just under a half cup of pod powder per day. I am in an interesting situation since my wife has no idea that I am addicted, and in fact no one in my life knows I even use. I have kept it a secret all this time, and I want to get off of them the same way...My hope is to have it all just be a part of my past that I'm not proud of, but that no one ever has to be aware of. My wife is about to be out of town for 4 days, and I will be completely alone with the exception of my dog. This has driven me to decide this is as good a time as ever to kick it.
So, as we all know opiates have a rather dreadful withdrawal, and as such would be pretty difficult if not impossible to hide. I have gone through mild withdrawals before, but nothing like the hell I am sure I am about to encounter. I'm hoping that, if I plan things correctly, I can get through the nightmare physical symptoms before she returns. I have a solid job and I work from home. I am a supervisor in some ways, so my team can pick up the slack while I'm hurting. I can take a couple days off as well, and this is a better time than ever for me to detox since my wife will be gone - I just wish the window of opportunity was a little larger.
Now, I know the physical withdrawals won't be completely gone in 4 days, but hopefully tolerable enough so that I can function. I have chosen to detox while still having an "emergency" dose or two in the home. I know many of you will say that's a bad idea. I want it here because I can easily order pods again, so I need to quit with it staring me in the face. If I do that, then I know I have beaten it. My goal is to keep that dose until January 1st, when I hope I get to dump the powder on the ground in a symbolic "fuck you" to the addiction.
Now that you know my backstory and goals, I have some questions. I know some of these have some answers elsewhere, but as I'm sure many of you can relate, I am very nervous going in to this, especially because the only support I will be able to get is (hopefully) from this forum, since no one in my life knows of my habit. So please, be gentle.
My questions are:
- With that amount of powder per day (under 1/2 cup), and assuming I taper (rather quickly) from today until the 14th do you think a 4 day stint for withdrawals will be enough? At least enough where I can just have "the flu" when she returns?
- I am already stocking up on vitamins, melatonin for sleep, DXM for what I have read about it helping with the withdrawals, Immodium, valerian, naproxen, and aspirin. I would like to get some Kratom as well but I haven't found any yet. My question is, are there any other over the counter remedies you would recommend to add to my arsenal?
- Is there anything I can do to help move the debilitating physical symptoms along? If they last past the 4 days I'm worried I am going to relapse for fear of getting caught. I know that sounds stupid but I really would like to NOT end up in divorce and ruining my marriage. This is something I got myself in to, and I don't want to pull her in to this disaster with me.
- Last but not least, I have thought about going to the doctor to potentially get something to help me with both the initial withdrawal and PAWS, without getting myself addicted to something new. Does anyone have any experience going to a doctor for this type of thing, or are they just going to shove me out the door thinking I'm trying to score some other drug? What might they give me to help out?
- Does anyone recommend pot to help ease withdrawals? If so, what kind, a sativa or indica? Honestly I still plan on occasionally smoking pot as I do right now. And honestly, even if I started smoking daily I would MUCH rather be doing that then what Im doing right now!
I'm sure there are a million posts asking similar questions every day, but as I look around its been difficult to really get everything down that I need. I'm really hoping the great community I have seen being a lurker for so long here at bluelight will come through for me and help me through this difficult process. I am ready to quit and move on with my life - and save a fuckload of money, cause nowadays, pods ain't cheap!
....T-minus 8 days....I'm nervous, but I'm ready as ever to get over this stupid addiction.
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