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creatureabc

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Hi folks,

I've tried all there is (for the most part) but opiates are definitely my thing. Years ago, I had a couple of bad runs with heroin but now I'm doing vicodins daily and maintaining a pretty solid "upstanding citizen" lifestyle. Just discovered the silk road, however and a bit worried about my finances/ tolerance now! But I also have far more to lose than I ever did before so I'm hoping I can keep everything fun but still under control.
 
Welcome to BL!

I've been a pill popper for years lead me to heroin for quote a few years when the supply of pills stopped but now I'm back on pills but I'm maintaining on Suboxone for my pain and its working pretty good for the most part its about the same feeling as vicodin when taken in low doses. I used to take 500+mgs of oxycodone a day then went to a 8ball of heroin now with Suboxone I was able to reduce my use of opiates dramatically.

Hope you can find help soon it never ends well your tolerance only gets higher then your Aldo ruining your liver with all the apap in the pills I had acetaminophen poisoning at age 18 from all the vicodib and percocets I used to pop instead of stopping like my doctor suggested I went to heroin thinking its better for my liver but I got blood poisoning and kidney damage from years of IV drug use so I'm not much better off.
 
Sorry to hear things got so rough, trainspotter. Are you clean now? I'm not sure I want help right now. I do believe it's possible to live a life in which recreational drug use is a part of it, but it is a difficult balance to maintain--right now I think I'm doing pretty well, just trying not to become too complacent, if that makes any sense.
 
I'm not clean nope im on Suboxone for maintaince and pain and I also smoke hash daily for pain and anxiety. Haven't done heroin since January I used to use dope on top of my sub script but I stopped that cycle and stick to my scripts and although I'm not clean either like you I found a way to make my addiction not such a problem in my life so I'm happy fuck what anybody else says. Yea if you don't want help then chances are you haven't come to the point where its too much I mean with me I would take a pill or IV some heroin every 2 hours or I was deathly ill. I would do my last one before bed at around 10 o'clock then I could set a timer to it every night I would wake up drenched in a pool of sweat puking and shivering at 2am then I would have to do more to go to sleep again if I didn't have any I would lay there crying , sweating ,shivering, tossing and flailing my legs all night until iw went to work at 7am. I would wake up at 2am then 5 am sick as hell every night which gets old pretty quick so I knew a change was needed. I also destroyed my liver my kidneys got blood poisoning and screwed my stomach up every more than it already was. It took away my dreams for the future, my relationships and most of all my zest for life. It left me a zombie a person I looked in the mirror and absolutely hated.
 
Hi Welcome ! !
For me what I control starts controlling me .... and I know I can't control tolerance. I'm just off H myself, about a month and on pills for years prior....
Anyways, this site has been so helpful for me...
There are drug specific areas on here with tons of information and folks with much experience. :)
 
Thanks for the welcome, folks. It's nice to find a place where I can be open/ honest. I have friends who brag about getting wasted on booze on Facebook and get tons of "likes" but if I ever said "Hey, I pop pills to unwind" it'd be intervention time
 
Thanks for the welcome, folks. It's nice to find a place where I can be open/ honest. I have friends who brag about getting wasted on booze on Facebook and get tons of "likes" but if I ever said "Hey, I pop pills to unwind" it'd be intervention time


hahah I have thought the same thing. Everyone's sharing their pothead posts or drink recipes, and i'm thinking "You can have your entire timeline devoted to pot, but if I made one post about Oxy's y'all would wanna lock me up, not fair at all." I think something that has made my addiction so bad is that it has to be kept secret and I cant just share it socially as I would if I was drinking with a few friends. That part sucks.
 
Fun and still under control . Shit man , sounds like the story of my life .

Welcome to the site; I myself am new as well (well , been lurking the site for a while now, but just today decided to register).

It's good to hear that at least someone has turned their addiction into one that's at least a more manageable one (heroin is such a god damned slippery slope). I'm happy for you man; keep it up. And once again, WELCOME!
 
Thanks for the welcome, folks. It's nice to find a place where I can be open/ honest. I have friends who brag about getting wasted on booze on Facebook and get tons of "likes" but if I ever said "Hey, I pop pills to unwind" it'd be intervention time

Haha yep feel you on that one man. A bunch of my so-called "friends" do LSD, Marijuana, MDxx, RC's, Alcohol yet they all look at me like some hopeless fiend for occasionally using Methamp and Opiates.
 
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