phil collins shit

I dont care anymore

Less than I used to, which I didn't even know
was possible.

I work at a fancy restaurant washing dishes and the more I see people dine there the more I just dont give a fuck about being successful.

I don't want to push myself to achieve greater things because I know my strengths and weaknesses already, and I have lost my taste for all materialistic things in this world.

I dont want a fancy car or a nice house or two kids and a white picket fence with a golf membership on the weekends. I don't want to have to prove my intelligence by throwing obscene amounts of money to some established institution for four years just so people will think im smart.

I just want to get high and observe the things I do enjoy, mainly sports on television and the occasional documentary on something. This is what I enjoy doing, and im sick of being told its a problem

Really? Because who the fuck am I harming for doing that?

Ill hold the door for old people, ill give someone directions if they're lost, ill even pick up my dogs shit from someone's lawn if it happens to go down like that

Im not a bad person. And im sick of being told that I have a problem. If I wanted to get help id call the A-Team.

I have some things I need to take care of, im aware of that. Its just been a hectic couple of months and shit got lost in the sauce. Im no Welshman though, ill take care of it.

Its just a bummer that people dont realize that the more something is pushed on me the more likely I am to resist it

I am considering living on the streets but I couldn't hold a job like that and it gets really cold here really fast. Maybe in the spring and summer though. I just want to let it be known that if I dont agree with how im being treated, im gone. And then we'll see who really breaks down

 

Sometimes ill switch the voltage on my computer's power supply to the European setting just to fuck with people and make them have to let me know that its not working.

I fuckin built the thing with my own money and let my family use it and all they do is fuck it up. But hey, im just a fucking junky you know, what would I know about anything.

And J know they just want me to be the best I can be but it pisses me off that they dont care what I personally think is the best I can be. Ill wash dishes the rest of my fuckin life just to prove a point. I dont get involved in other person's lives, all im asking is to be treated the same