angelstaar
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Hi guys so I'm pretty new here. I would like to tell you about my phenibut experience for those who want to know about the (legal) drug or are familiar with it.
I first started taking it a month ago and started off on about 500 g and eventualy upping to 3g a day within the first week. The effects was it was good and all but
I did have periods of it where I was so irritable. I learnt that what your mood is beforehand taking the drug, is the mood and state of mind on the drug (that was how
it was for me) I experienced times of euphoria when I was in a happy mood. I learnt that it is not like alcohol - how you feel it control you and what I was expecting, but
you control phenibut. Being fooled by thinking it had control over me, I eventually started learning to control it somehow during the experience on the phenibut.
Anyways, all I can say to this day, it has made me a completely different person. After the first 2 weeks of using it, and eventually to this day which is about a month in,
I don't even recall or remember anymore, I started upping the dose towards somewhere between 10-13 g a day, I have no idea EXACTLY how much, but I went so high on it, measuring
the doses with teaspoons.
Awhile ago, about a week I tried to taper off it (boy did that fail) it's safe to say, that I am officially addicted to it. I feel like I can't function without it and
I get the worse depression ever, and did I mention the horrible anxiety and depersonalization? I feel like I have NO control over myself and even writing this post, and
writing how I want is alot of work. When I interact, I completely forget how to, and often question my every move or emotions, and I feel like I don't even know who I am.
I was having trouble with alcohol abuse beforehand, and got semi- addicted. Everytime I saw some I grabbed for it, and eventually my parents locking it away stopped me, as
I was not young enough to purchase it either (I'm 18 now).
I took around 5-6g or so (I don't know the exact but definatley smaller doses) and I felt the anxiety go away at first but now it's back. The tolerance on this stuff
is completely HORRIBLE. I had to up my doses SO much to feel the effects. Right now I am to scared to even leave my room, I'm afraid to talk to my parents (My mum is
a complete bitch and I blame her for me experimenting with this stuff in the first place because she has made my life a living hell) and I don't want to go to school,
I don't want to go out, I DON'T want to go to work. I just want to lie down in my bed, rest and fall asleep forever, or go somewhere else into a place where no one exists.
I'm too afraid to even watch a show or movie right now, because my anxiety is getting bad. When I watch something and can't relate to characters because of the
depersonalization and feeling emotionless, I get more anxious and fustrated.
Right now, I want to know how long will this last? I'm too afraid to even take more phenibut (I'm sick of tapering off, it won't work because I'll just end up having
more in the end) and I am sick of life. I have no desire to do anything. And I feel like I have no control of my emotions and state of mind, like I'm bipolar, I experience
periods of wanting to kill someone or stab someone with a knife, cutting myself again and the next second not wanting to do it anymore, and being happy again - which
is triggered and only lasts for a couple of minutes, and eventually falling back in despair.
I feel messed up, and I don't know what to do. Please guys share your experience on phenibut? And if someone had similar symptoms as me or felt something like this?
It would be appreciated of advice also to help me get through this. Thanks
I first started taking it a month ago and started off on about 500 g and eventualy upping to 3g a day within the first week. The effects was it was good and all but
I did have periods of it where I was so irritable. I learnt that what your mood is beforehand taking the drug, is the mood and state of mind on the drug (that was how
it was for me) I experienced times of euphoria when I was in a happy mood. I learnt that it is not like alcohol - how you feel it control you and what I was expecting, but
you control phenibut. Being fooled by thinking it had control over me, I eventually started learning to control it somehow during the experience on the phenibut.
Anyways, all I can say to this day, it has made me a completely different person. After the first 2 weeks of using it, and eventually to this day which is about a month in,
I don't even recall or remember anymore, I started upping the dose towards somewhere between 10-13 g a day, I have no idea EXACTLY how much, but I went so high on it, measuring
the doses with teaspoons.
Awhile ago, about a week I tried to taper off it (boy did that fail) it's safe to say, that I am officially addicted to it. I feel like I can't function without it and
I get the worse depression ever, and did I mention the horrible anxiety and depersonalization? I feel like I have NO control over myself and even writing this post, and
writing how I want is alot of work. When I interact, I completely forget how to, and often question my every move or emotions, and I feel like I don't even know who I am.
I was having trouble with alcohol abuse beforehand, and got semi- addicted. Everytime I saw some I grabbed for it, and eventually my parents locking it away stopped me, as
I was not young enough to purchase it either (I'm 18 now).
I took around 5-6g or so (I don't know the exact but definatley smaller doses) and I felt the anxiety go away at first but now it's back. The tolerance on this stuff
is completely HORRIBLE. I had to up my doses SO much to feel the effects. Right now I am to scared to even leave my room, I'm afraid to talk to my parents (My mum is
a complete bitch and I blame her for me experimenting with this stuff in the first place because she has made my life a living hell) and I don't want to go to school,
I don't want to go out, I DON'T want to go to work. I just want to lie down in my bed, rest and fall asleep forever, or go somewhere else into a place where no one exists.
I'm too afraid to even watch a show or movie right now, because my anxiety is getting bad. When I watch something and can't relate to characters because of the
depersonalization and feeling emotionless, I get more anxious and fustrated.
Right now, I want to know how long will this last? I'm too afraid to even take more phenibut (I'm sick of tapering off, it won't work because I'll just end up having
more in the end) and I am sick of life. I have no desire to do anything. And I feel like I have no control of my emotions and state of mind, like I'm bipolar, I experience
periods of wanting to kill someone or stab someone with a knife, cutting myself again and the next second not wanting to do it anymore, and being happy again - which
is triggered and only lasts for a couple of minutes, and eventually falling back in despair.
I feel messed up, and I don't know what to do. Please guys share your experience on phenibut? And if someone had similar symptoms as me or felt something like this?
It would be appreciated of advice also to help me get through this. Thanks