Persisting apathy?

[Hellome]

Hi everyone, I've been struggling a lot with what I believe to be Dp/dr for about a month and a half now, since taking a pill of MDA. I've experienced dream-like states, but sometimes I don't struggle with identifying reality as indeed "real", but other symptoms still persist. I was wondering, between these more intense, dissociative dream-like states, does anyone else experience some lingering level of apathy? Like, I experience emotion, but only at a certain level, I guess it doesn't register as experiencing it physically? During this stage, which is typically more at night (the best time of the day for my symptoms), it just feels as if there is some underlying apathy, like my emotions just aren't fully registering, even though I can express emotion relatively normally. My brain almost feels quiet, or too calm, and I'm able to play the "happy/social" role well, but there's nothing, at a deep level, really registering/going on. Could this not be the dp/dr, but rather a long-term effect from the drug? It seems like such a physiological problem, it's completely out of my control.

 

[jaiho]

Hi everyone, I've been struggling a lot with what I believe to be Dp/dr for about a month and a half now, since taking a pill of MDA. I've experienced dream-like states, but sometimes I don't struggle with identifying reality as indeed "real", but other symptoms still persist. I was wondering, between these more intense, dissociative dream-like states, does anyone else experience some lingering level of apathy? Like, I experience emotion, but only at a certain level, I guess it doesn't register as experiencing it physically? During this stage, which is typically more at night (the best time of the day for my symptoms), it just feels as if there is some underlying apathy, like my emotions just aren't fully registering, even though I can express emotion relatively normally. My brain almost feels quiet, or too calm, and I'm able to play the "happy/social" role well, but there's nothing, at a deep level, really registering/going on. Could this not be the dp/dr, but rather a long-term effect from the drug? It seems like such a physiological problem, it's completely out of my control.

What you describe sounds alot like depression symptoms. Quite common after MDMA use, and if you're susceptible to depression, MDMA can actually trigger a depressive episode.
I can relate as i've had the exact same symptoms you describe and i had to go on anti depressants to clear my head up after using MDMA.