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Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Whoo... tired guys. Not a lot of sleep. This girl is an animal I tell you. She's sleeping in my bed still but I have to work. 
pharmakos
Bluelighter
i bet xorkoth is going to fall in love despite not wanting to =p
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Love is a funny thing when you are in tune with psychedelic love... I feel love for her but I feel love for all of you guys too. Different than being in love (course I don't want to bang you guys 
). I could see it happening but given she's leaving soon I don't think it will.
Remember the other girl I was kind of obsessing over originally, Erica? Well funny thing, she's been blowing me off for at least a month, most of the time I've known her. It was stressing me out for a while but eventually I let it roll off me, I even started getting a little annoyed/pissed about it recently after we made concrete plans to hang out and go to a waterfall last Sunday (which is the day I instead went to hang out with this girl who's in my bed), and then she didn't respond to me that day when I tried to see when she wanted to go. So, last night, right when we were about to go upstairs to bed, she texted me, and basically said "Hey Eric, I'm so sorry I've been blowing you off. It's definitely not you and I don't want you to think it's you. I've been in and out of this crazy funk lately. I've had so much weird pressure from random people lately that all I've felt like is being reclusive. But we need to hang out one night soon". Such weird timing. :D There's still something about her that I am attracted to on all levels. I think back to when we met and it really was like a psychedelic experience, it was similar to how I felt when I visited Asheville and just got slammed in the heart with love, like I was home. It's the only time I've ever had that experience with a girl (meaning an instant head over heels thing - even with my ex it wasn't instant). So turns out I was right, it looks like. Not sure why she'd be texting me like that unless she wanted to make sure I didn't drift away because she also feels something.
Never been in this situation before... two girls as prospects/realities. I'd feel like kind of an asshole if I started seeing Erica at the same time, even though I don't think it would actually make me asshole since me and this other girl are just "special friends", but I'm not really built that way I guess. But since she's leaving soon... maybe this other thing will be the next step in my love life. I guess time will tell. I just got a kick out of how weird the timing was, I was like 2 minutes away from sex with someone else and she finally texts me to tell me she wants to hang out (every other time it was me seeing if she wanted to hang out, except the two times we've actually hung out when it was her idea also).
Life is cool man.
Excited to see what the future brings. And I get a fairly steady stream of girls contacting me on OkCupid anyway so it will hold something regardless. I met these two on there.
). I could see it happening but given she's leaving soon I don't think it will.Remember the other girl I was kind of obsessing over originally, Erica? Well funny thing, she's been blowing me off for at least a month, most of the time I've known her. It was stressing me out for a while but eventually I let it roll off me, I even started getting a little annoyed/pissed about it recently after we made concrete plans to hang out and go to a waterfall last Sunday (which is the day I instead went to hang out with this girl who's in my bed), and then she didn't respond to me that day when I tried to see when she wanted to go. So, last night, right when we were about to go upstairs to bed, she texted me, and basically said "Hey Eric, I'm so sorry I've been blowing you off. It's definitely not you and I don't want you to think it's you. I've been in and out of this crazy funk lately. I've had so much weird pressure from random people lately that all I've felt like is being reclusive. But we need to hang out one night soon". Such weird timing. :D There's still something about her that I am attracted to on all levels. I think back to when we met and it really was like a psychedelic experience, it was similar to how I felt when I visited Asheville and just got slammed in the heart with love, like I was home. It's the only time I've ever had that experience with a girl (meaning an instant head over heels thing - even with my ex it wasn't instant). So turns out I was right, it looks like. Not sure why she'd be texting me like that unless she wanted to make sure I didn't drift away because she also feels something.
Never been in this situation before... two girls as prospects/realities. I'd feel like kind of an asshole if I started seeing Erica at the same time, even though I don't think it would actually make me asshole since me and this other girl are just "special friends", but I'm not really built that way I guess. But since she's leaving soon... maybe this other thing will be the next step in my love life. I guess time will tell. I just got a kick out of how weird the timing was, I was like 2 minutes away from sex with someone else and she finally texts me to tell me she wants to hang out (every other time it was me seeing if she wanted to hang out, except the two times we've actually hung out when it was her idea also).
Life is cool man.
Excited to see what the future brings. And I get a fairly steady stream of girls contacting me on OkCupid anyway so it will hold something regardless. I met these two on there.
Help?!?!
Bluelighter
You should have seen the thread back in the spring! Tons of old users popping up!
Chhh thanks Xorkoth! You couldn't have at least let the illusion of sexual tension between us live?!?
On a real note I'm getting antsy. I love this time of year! I wish it was October already! I love Halloween! Plus I should be getting a decent amount of MXE and noids soon. A visitor that's been planning to visit for awhile should be popping up near the end of October as well. Will be some drugged up depraved days! I think we'll probably go to this nature reserve that's down my street a ways that I've been meaning to go too since I moved. I'll probably take some pictures if it's as cool as I hear it is. Don't expect Dondante level majesty though!
I also meant to say sometime ago Xork, you should take pictures of those waterfalls sometime! Waterfalls are the coolest!I'm sorry to inform you though that half the women your talking to on OkCupid is actually me under guise messing with you!
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
I actually have a variety of pictures on my phone, I'll try to post some when I get a minute.
God man, that girl is sexy, you wouldn't know it meeting her though because she's really shy and quiet and she dresses in baggy clothes. Really fucking nice body, mmm... I guess I have a bit of afterglow right now. Just made and ate "breakfast" and she just left.
God man, that girl is sexy, you wouldn't know it meeting her though because she's really shy and quiet and she dresses in baggy clothes. Really fucking nice body, mmm... I guess I have a bit of afterglow right now.
Just made and ate "breakfast" and she just left.
pharmakos
Bluelighter
yet again i am jealous of xorkoth
that seems to be a constant thing tho so maybe i should say "still" instead of "yet again"
that seems to be a constant thing tho so maybe i should say "still" instead of "yet again"
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
I don't mean to make you jealous, it's just when I get excited I like to share that. Especially on here. It's just a part of my personality.
Going to band jam practice after work, the band my friends asked me to join. I haven't bought a hand drum (looking for a djembe) yet so I will probably just sit there and sing to myself when inspired. Last weekend we listened to some recordings of their jams and a couple of them were truly epic, beautiful. I thought I was back at the festival (probably due to the MXE and MDMA). One of them was so psychedelic, with this guitar feedback/muted string strumming that seemed to be out of the rhythm but over time was revealed to be part of an incredibly complex counter-rhythm that came together at the peak of the jam. Gonna have a few beers, smoke a little, relax.
It's just a part of my personality.Going to band jam practice after work, the band my friends asked me to join. I haven't bought a hand drum (looking for a djembe) yet so I will probably just sit there and sing to myself when inspired. Last weekend we listened to some recordings of their jams and a couple of them were truly epic, beautiful. I thought I was back at the festival (probably due to the MXE and MDMA). One of them was so psychedelic, with this guitar feedback/muted string strumming that seemed to be out of the rhythm but over time was revealed to be part of an incredibly complex counter-rhythm that came together at the peak of the jam. Gonna have a few beers, smoke a little, relax.
coelophysis
Bluelight Crew
Oh man I miss having people to mess around on instruments with. Such an amazing feeling when you're all getting in the groove at the same time.
I don't mean to make you jealous, it's just when I get excited I like to share that. Especially on here.
Share away man, I'm very much the same haha....whenever I get something new or something big or exciting happens I have this compelling urge to share it. Unfortunately it conflicts with the feeling that I'm bragging, which I don't necessarily like to do (unless the audience 'has more' themselves so to speak lol)
Help?!?!
Bluelighter
I don't think or see as anyone in here as bragging. We're just a love filled community that enjoys hearing about each other's successes!
Taking a page from Never Knows Thorns and getting drunk!
Taking a page from Never Knows Thorns and getting drunk!
morning PD.
hows everyones plans for the weekend?
a beautiful day here, and looks like the weather will hold until sunday... warm sunny lazy autumn sky. might break out the camera and go for a walk in the woods to catch some shots...
hows everyones plans for the weekend?
a beautiful day here, and looks like the weather will hold until sunday... warm sunny lazy autumn sky. might break out the camera and go for a walk in the woods to catch some shots...
Thorns Have Roses
Bluelight Crew
You mean to say that you are envious (which you would be saying facetiously, since I doubt you'd feel resentful about his successes), unless you want xork to writing this stuff about you instead of the ladies, in which you would indeed by jealous of xorkoth. Envy and jealously are not the same thing, people.
Think about it like this, you are envious when you are pained/filled with invective by someone else's gains. You are jealous of your significant other when they are hitting on somebody else, because you are pained by their lack of devotion/not directing their affection your way. You are envious when somebody else has what you want, and jealous of someone you want.
Thus, envy being a deadly sin is in no way contradictory with "Thou shalt not bow down thyself unto them, nor serve them, for I Jehovah* thy God am a jealous God" (which is merely an affirmation of monotheism),as some militant atheists with poor English skills like to think.
*In classical Latin, this would be pronounced yehowah, which sounds a lot more like YHWH than people trying to use English values for the letters are apt to think.
In other news, my thoughts are turning to the East for the first time in a long while, nonattachment and whatnot. Think I'll give meditation another try (I always give up after a couple of weeks, I've only succeeded once or twice at it, maybe 'cause I engage in thought with a pathologically ceaseless devotion. Any advice?
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Jesusgreen
Bluelight Crew
^ I don't know whether it'll be the best advice for you or not, because people have different goals when they meditate. Some have an almost fixed need to have less thoughts running through their mind while they meditate, while others seek deep thought, and others just let the thought pass through as if it were a bird flying past their window - there, but not consciously directed.
I'm of the latter group, and the way I meditate is to find a nice spot somewhere I can sit down, ideally somewhere well lit, that smells and looks nice, often outside or by a window with a nice view of the mountains near my house. I sit down, often cross-legged, but with no particular stress or strain in posture, just very much relaxed, with emphasis on being comfortable so I don't feel any need to fidget or adjust my position constantly. Even sitting with your legs outstretched like a toddlers, or sitting on a couch, or laying back in bed are perfectly fine postures for meditation, provided you're comfortable and able to relax.
Once I'm sitting there, I let my gaze fall just in front of me, between 1-3 feet directly in front of my (usually crossed) legs. I find a general point to look in the direction of, but I do not stare or focus my vision on it, nor do I turn my head looking around everywhere. I just keep my head mostly still, looking vaguely at the point in front of me, observing what goes on around the point, whether it's a shadow moving across the floor, or an ant crawling, or the tail of one of my dogs wagging.
If I need to scratch my nose, adjust my position, or even move my head ever so slightly, I do, since if you constrain your movement it just causes stress and reduces what you achieve. As you attend to any such desires to move slightly, you quickly become more relaxed and soon you no longer need to move or scratch, and you'll find yourself perfectly relaxed in your position.
As you look in front of you, your senses gradually begin to heighten, and while you initially could just see a small fixed area around where your eyes were pointing, you start to see all the detail around this area, hairs on the floor being brushed aside by the breeze coming in the window, flickering of the light a butterfly dances around past your window, the dulling of the sun as a cloud passes across it. Your hearing also becomes more sensitive, and you start to hear the smallest sounds, the most distant chirps of birds, the deep breathing of your sleeping pet, the rustling of the leaves outdoors in the wind.
Now you're meditating perfectly, and you're a passive observer with senses tenfold those you have most of the rest of the time, when you aren't really *truly* seeing or listening like you are in this moment. Observe and be a part of this tranquil scene, and enjoy the beauty of what unfolds before you, and the rapture you experience as joy, delight, and wonder fill you up.
Meditation is a really beautiful thing, and it took me a long time to grasp, for the longest time I just did the whole: "Cross my legs and close my eyes and try not to think" thing - when I learnt observational meditation like I practice now it was like night and day, the states of extreme happiness it can bring on, and the wonderful things you can hear, see, smell, taste, and even occasionally touch during such an experience are astonishing.
I'm of the latter group, and the way I meditate is to find a nice spot somewhere I can sit down, ideally somewhere well lit, that smells and looks nice, often outside or by a window with a nice view of the mountains near my house. I sit down, often cross-legged, but with no particular stress or strain in posture, just very much relaxed, with emphasis on being comfortable so I don't feel any need to fidget or adjust my position constantly. Even sitting with your legs outstretched like a toddlers, or sitting on a couch, or laying back in bed are perfectly fine postures for meditation, provided you're comfortable and able to relax.
Once I'm sitting there, I let my gaze fall just in front of me, between 1-3 feet directly in front of my (usually crossed) legs. I find a general point to look in the direction of, but I do not stare or focus my vision on it, nor do I turn my head looking around everywhere. I just keep my head mostly still, looking vaguely at the point in front of me, observing what goes on around the point, whether it's a shadow moving across the floor, or an ant crawling, or the tail of one of my dogs wagging.
If I need to scratch my nose, adjust my position, or even move my head ever so slightly, I do, since if you constrain your movement it just causes stress and reduces what you achieve. As you attend to any such desires to move slightly, you quickly become more relaxed and soon you no longer need to move or scratch, and you'll find yourself perfectly relaxed in your position.
As you look in front of you, your senses gradually begin to heighten, and while you initially could just see a small fixed area around where your eyes were pointing, you start to see all the detail around this area, hairs on the floor being brushed aside by the breeze coming in the window, flickering of the light a butterfly dances around past your window, the dulling of the sun as a cloud passes across it. Your hearing also becomes more sensitive, and you start to hear the smallest sounds, the most distant chirps of birds, the deep breathing of your sleeping pet, the rustling of the leaves outdoors in the wind.
Now you're meditating perfectly, and you're a passive observer with senses tenfold those you have most of the rest of the time, when you aren't really *truly* seeing or listening like you are in this moment. Observe and be a part of this tranquil scene, and enjoy the beauty of what unfolds before you, and the rapture you experience as joy, delight, and wonder fill you up.
Meditation is a really beautiful thing, and it took me a long time to grasp, for the longest time I just did the whole: "Cross my legs and close my eyes and try not to think" thing - when I learnt observational meditation like I practice now it was like night and day, the states of extreme happiness it can bring on, and the wonderful things you can hear, see, smell, taste, and even occasionally touch during such an experience are astonishing.
SONN
Bluelighter
I randomly took mxe and rode a bike to a disco show tonight.
when I got there my friend got me a long island iced tea, and I was in a whole new funky discoverse I swear
edit: also the other day at drum circle a guy brought a crystalline singing bowl (tibetan styled, but not from tibet) and it resonated through my brain I loved it so much
when I got there my friend got me a long island iced tea, and I was in a whole new funky discoverse I swear
edit: also the other day at drum circle a guy brought a crystalline singing bowl (tibetan styled, but not from tibet) and it resonated through my brain I loved it so much
Jesusgreen
Bluelight Crew
edit: also the other day at drum circle a guy brought a crystalline singing bowl (tibetan styled, but not from tibet) and it resonated through my brain I loved it so much
I had to Google that right away since the name sounded familiar but I wasn't sure what you meant. Damn I want one. :D
I also want a set of nice hide drums that I can work with when tripping (or for drum meditation) to guide me into a deeper state.
SONN
Bluelighter
so glad to have you back, jesusgreen
I have a djembe and I mainly use it when I go to the local hippie drum circle every week or so, it's great fun, especially on stimulants. However, the singing bowl was unreal. I was lucky enough to sit next to him and he offered me the rest of his joint that had bubble hash in it. Then he started burning sage and took the singing bowl out and I was like holy shit i've only hoped and dreamed of this happening. Ever since watching psymposia 2014 i've been obsessed with tibetan singing bowls mostly because of the brain scans that are about 14 minutes into this video
unfortunately they took the psymposia one down which had a bunch of other brain scans of other stimuli, like the smell of palo santo burning and stuff. it's so awesome :D
if I had a tibetan singing bowl I would take the largest dose of LSD I could muster and meditate/sing with it probably the majority of the trip.
I have a djembe and I mainly use it when I go to the local hippie drum circle every week or so, it's great fun, especially on stimulants. However, the singing bowl was unreal. I was lucky enough to sit next to him and he offered me the rest of his joint that had bubble hash in it. Then he started burning sage and took the singing bowl out and I was like holy shit i've only hoped and dreamed of this happening. Ever since watching psymposia 2014 i've been obsessed with tibetan singing bowls mostly because of the brain scans that are about 14 minutes into this video
unfortunately they took the psymposia one down which had a bunch of other brain scans of other stimuli, like the smell of palo santo burning and stuff. it's so awesome :D
if I had a tibetan singing bowl I would take the largest dose of LSD I could muster and meditate/sing with it probably the majority of the trip.
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