🌟🌟 Social 🌟🌟 PD Social Thread 2022-2025 v. Year of the Phenethylamine

[cosmic charlie]

Metonitazepyne was the biggest mistake ive made in a longtime. The withdrawls from my bender with that gram are awful, even the Bupe isnt covering it. And ontop of it my skin on my face has turned this strange brown color, honestly feel like ive been poisoned.

Im on my way to the emergency room now, im scared my liver or kidneys might be fucked up. I dont feel right at all guys, send positive vibes my way i really need them right now

 

[cosmic charlie]

Got blood work done and urinalysis and my organs are all operating fine, so it looks like i will be okay im just gonna have to ride this out and flush my system. Gonna drink very large amount of water over the next month and push through this. Ive got to learn from this experience. Im done with sketchy opioids for life, never again. Need to get healthy so i can be there for everyone that loves me, thanks for all your support guys.

 

[swilow]

This morning i got the brilliant idea to head into the hood and go buy some fentanyl dope. Well i did the first bag anf was okay but after the second one it was lights out and i overdosed. Had to get rushed to the emergency room and hit with Narcan a bunch of times, turned blue.

Came really close to dying today. Anyone out the fighting and an opiate addiction please dont give in, ive been fucking up real bad this past week. My girlfriend is such a wreck right now, i feel horrible.

I'm so glad you're okay.

 

[swilow]

Need to get healthy so i can be there for everyone that loves me,

And for yourself, mate. You deserve a good life.

You know that there is no judgement here, but there are certainly some wise souls. If you feel like you're going to do something stupid, post here and we will talk you out of it

 

[SuperPsych]

Got blood work done and urinalysis and my organs are all operating fine, so it looks like i will be okay im just gonna have to ride this out and flush my system. Gonna drink very large amount of water over the next month and push through this. Ive got to learn from this experience. Im done with sketchy opioids for life, never again. Need to get healthy so i can be there for everyone that loves me, thanks for all your support guys.

Happy to hear that you still have your health. I'm sorry that you're struggling with withdrawals but I'm proud of you for using this experience for growth instead of letting it get to you and spiraling further down the rabbit hole. I know how awful it can feel to relapse, both physically and emotionally. It takes a lot of strength to sit with that discomfort and to make the right choices. Keep your head up and keep us updated. I always enjoy your posts and your energy. I'm happy that you're okay. I know we don't really know each other but I would genuinely be sad if something were to happen to you.

 

[deficiT]

Munched on some actual shrooms for the first time in a long while yesterday. Took one big fat 2.6g unit and just faced it. Felt solid but at no point too overwhelming, I found myself watching Happy Gilmore and just existing in this Happy place for a brief period of time. It was nice. Makes me wanna trip again, but that would mean dipping into the DMT which idk if I'm in for all that right now.

 

[deficiT]

My day had been kind of tainted with ice, so that added a different angle to the trip, but it also made it feel like it was lasting for a longer period than normal. Had some mild confusion right after the peak, but broke myself out of the little loop. Laying up now trying to get in whatever sleep I can before work this evening.

 

[cosmic charlie]

Got a full nights sleep for the first time in like over a week at least, helped tremendously. And the the doctor gave me Zofran at the hospital which is obviously tremendous and my stomach is loads better and ive been able to a couple full meals. Need to keep drinking lots of water, the toxic feeling is way less today.

Took 12mgs of Buprenorphine again which is higher than my regular dose but i need it right now, the zene absolutely fucked my tolerance up but after a few days im gonna drop back down to 8mgs again and just hold there and adjust. Thankfully i stockpiled alot of extra strips over the months by only taking 4mgs on many days.

Looks like ive been given another chance by the gods and im not gonna throw this one away. Taking a little time to be soberish for a bit, get my health back. Then ill probably trip on some FXE of course when it feels right, lol. But i really just need to focus on my health for the time being, then eventually start the zyprexa taper again. One step at a time tho, need homeostasis first.

Woke up with twenty notifications on Bluelight this morning, dont think ive ever had that many at one time before. So much love in PD

 

[cosmic charlie]

Getting ready for another day, feels good man

 

[cosmic charlie]

my fav song of theirs, always played twice

"Rumors are spreading all over my town
But it's just stones and sticks
It's on the microphone is where I go to get my fix
Just let the lovin' take a hold 'cause it will if you let it
I'm funky not a junkie, but I know where to get it
No trouble, no fuss, I know why"

 

[somnilicious]

Got a full nights sleep for the first time in like over a week at least, helped tremendously. And the the doctor gave me Zofran at the hospital which is obviously tremendous and my stomach is loads better and ive been able to a couple full meals. Need to keep drinking lots of water, the toxic feeling is way less today.

Took 12mgs of Buprenorphine again which is higher than my regular dose but i need it right now, the zene absolutely fucked my tolerance up but after a few days im gonna drop back down to 8mgs again and just hold there and adjust. Thankfully i stockpiled alot of extra strips over the months by only taking 4mgs on many days.

Looks like ive been given another chance by the gods and im not gonna throw this one away. Taking a little time to be soberish for a bit, get my health back. Then ill probably trip on some FXE of course when it feels right, lol. But i really just need to focus on my health for the time being, then eventually start the zyprexa taper again. One step at a time tho, need homeostasis first.

Woke up with twenty notifications on Bluelight this morning, dont think ive ever had that many at one time before. So much love in PD

I'm guessing you were completely forthcoming in exactly what you had been up to. Just curious if the docs were familiar with the class of opioids?

 

[cosmic charlie]

I'm guessing you were completely forthcoming in exactly what you had been up to. Just curious if the docs were familiar with the class of opioids?

Nah he had no idea what i was talking about, wne was adamant that all of my symptoms were from using PCP. He was kinda a judgy prick, telling me i need to go into a rehab. Brah, i just wanna know if im gonna die. Ive gotta keep moving, its gonna be alright. He was shocked about how many different drugs were in my system.

He didnt even wanna talk about the Meto cuz he has no clue about what it is. First thing he said to me when we started talking is "good thing is we probably wont find anything wrong with you". That moment i knew he was prejudice against drug users.

Sadly thats just how it is when addicts goto a hospital, they feel like since we do it to ourselves we get treated different than the other patients. Was in a room with four other people and he was so nice to everyone else, fuck that guy. At least he ordered the testing and gave me Zofran, it worked out

 

[ions]

I always heard the resonance of word 'slow down' when I was headstrong.
Meditation in the hospital saved my mind.
doing things without sex or drugs. like CTFD

 

[somnilicious]

Nah he had no idea what i was talking about, wne was adamant that all of my symptoms were from using PCP. He was kinda a judgy prick, telling me i need to go into a rehab. Brah, i just wanna know if im gonna die. Ive gotta keep moving, its gonna be alright. He was shocked about how many different drugs were in my system.

He didnt even wanna talk about the Meto cuz he has no clue about what it is. First thing he said to me when we started talking is "good thing is we probably wont find anything wrong with you". That moment i knew he was prejudice against drug users.

Sadly thats just how it is when addicts goto a hospital, they feel like since we do it to ourselves we get treated different than the other patients. Was in a room with four other people and he was so nice to everyone else, fuck that guy. At least he ordered the testing and gave me Zofran, it worked out

I bet he was a little shocked.. Guy walks in testing positive for Fentanyl, PCP talking about weird RC opioids. You know how all these drugs are viewed by society and to have them all concurrent. Of course they tried to talk you in to rehab they don't have any other references for your life and where you're at. Let's be honest anyways, rehab helps if your completely spiralling but if and when somebody truly wants to stop using certain drugs or medications they're going to do so. I'm glad you're feeling better and sorry the doc lacked concern or compassion for your current condition. Always makes the process more uncomfortable than it should be.

 

[SuperPsych]

Nah he had no idea what i was talking about, wne was adamant that all of my symptoms were from using PCP. He was kinda a judgy prick, telling me i need to go into a rehab. Brah, i just wanna know if im gonna die. Ive gotta keep moving, its gonna be alright. He was shocked about how many different drugs were in my system.

He didnt even wanna talk about the Meto cuz he has no clue about what it is. First thing he said to me when we started talking is "good thing is we probably wont find anything wrong with you". That moment i knew he was prejudice against drug users.

Sadly thats just how it is when addicts goto a hospital, they feel like since we do it to ourselves we get treated different than the other patients. Was in a room with four other people and he was so nice to everyone else, fuck that guy. At least he ordered the testing and gave me Zofran, it worked out

It's criminal how addicts are treated in ER's. There was a period of time when my addiction was at its worse that I had gone a few times in a short period.

Had to go again and the doctor was obviously pissed when he saw me and started yelling at me "Everytime you're here it's because of drugs. Why don't you fucking stop?!?". To which I replied "I don't know. If I knew how to stop I would but I just can't". He proceeded to yell and tell me to get the fuck out and not come back if drugs are involved.

A week or two later I had an overdose where I really needed to go. Had been shooting up lots of meth and heroin and I shot a needle with both for My last shot. My heart was beating erratically and only a few Beats per minute. My pulse would be incredibly weak then I'd get random bursts of extreme high blood pressure and erratic heart beat, then it'd go back to barely pumping. Standing up and even turning my head would make me so dizzy that I'd almost pass out. I had to have my gf at the time help me to the bathroom because I couldn't walk on my own . I had been so shamed at the hospital that I decided I'd rather die than see that prick so I sat at home and waited to pass. Luckily it eventually passed but it was a hellish 12+ hours of feeling like I was gonna die at any moment. Fuck ER doctors

 

[Chris Timothy]

On the bright side, most people are already preferring today's clunky chatbots over medical doctors when it comes to empathy in communication. Having to deal with those arrogant hardheads directly might get phased out soon.

 

[GamallSkóli]

I'm so glad you're okay.

Metonitazepyne was the biggest mistake ive made in a longtime. The withdrawls from my bender with that gram are awful, even the Bupe isnt covering it. And ontop of it my skin on my face has turned this strange brown color, honestly feel like ive been poisoned.

Im on my way to the emergency room now, im scared my liver or kidneys might be fucked up. I dont feel right at all guys, send positive vibes my way i really need them right now

I've been reading text between cosmic charley, SuperPsych and somnilicious. (why does that sound so weird when I say it?) I hope y'all don't mind if I put my 2¢ in on. this conversation. I worked 20 years as a paramedic/drug addict (you haven't lived until you've had a clean IV in your arm with an open port and a 50ml syringe full of Peruvian fish scale Coke melted with sterile water stuck in that bad boy for a continuous rush!) But I digress...

Judging from your writing skills and knowledge of pharmaceuticals, I'd say you're an intelligent group. Addicts in general are highly intelligent. Most of the greatest writers and composers in history were addicted to something.

Charles Dickens smoked opium like a fiend.

Ken Kesey was doing acid when he wrote One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest.

Philip K. Dick wrote Blade Runner and Total Recall. He was a speed freak.

Edgar Allan Poe, Jack Kerouac, Robert Louis Stevenson, Ayn Rand, the list goes on and on. They all relied on something that made them feel better, which in turn made them better artist.

Don't run from your cravings, control them.

And rehab? Rehab is only good because it shows your family and friends your taking steps to quit. It was worth three months of my life to put my wife's mind at ease. During that three months my counselor overdosed on Heroin and died. The dumbass owners didn't have Narcan on site. Rehab is bullshit, but sometimes necessary for show.

The only way any drug user will ever quit using is because THEY decided it's time to quit. Period.

Well, I guess I'm done. I hope I made the point I intended to. I've been up for three days and to be honest, I'm not sure what that point was...

P. S. Cosmic Charlie. Fuck that judgemental asshole doctor. Find one that cares about you and is willing to work with you within your personal parameters. They're out there. Look for 'HOLISTIC' on his shingle.

 

[swilow]

Anyone here tried 4-HO-EPT? I took 55mg last night (my 2nd time, first was at 35mg and was subtle but pleasantly stoning) and was surprised at how strong it was. Not too visual, enhanced saturation and a sense of "busyness" and sort of weird gleaming quality to things. Clarity of though, no thought loops but a type of tangential quality the reminded me of weed. Physically, this didn't feel great at all though. Nausea, and strong cardiovascular effects (heart rate high and I could see my vision vibrating in time with it, blood pressure felt high, I was a bit flushed looking) such that I took some propanolol about 1.5hrs in. No anxiety, although body was very tense and the energy wasn't entirely pleasant feeling. Of the 4 sub tryptamines I've taken, this is the first time I've had physical concerns such that I probably won't take at this dose again. Probably the 35mg is enough and it might shine with another psychedelic in combo. But the physical effects concern me. It was over in about 3 hrs or just under.

I read Howl by Alan Ginsberg (notably I hate poetry) and really felt it so deeply. Was getting some really unique and vivid internal imagery from it. I then read my current book "Heads" and had a wonderfully immersive inner sense of it. A great book actually about the history of the psychedelic counter-culture in the USA.

No trouble sleeping and I feel totally fine and normal today. Actually may be a little bit scattered...!

 

[SuperPsych]

Anyone here tried 4-HO-EPT? I took 55mg last night (my 2nd time, first was at 35mg and was subtle but pleasantly stoning) and was surprised at how strong it was. Not too visual, enhanced saturation and a sense of "busyness" and sort of weird gleaming quality to things. Clarity of though, no thought loops but a type of tangential quality the reminded me of weed. Physically, this didn't feel great at all though. Nausea, and strong cardiovascular effects (heart rate high and I could see my vision vibrating in time with it, blood pressure felt high, I was a bit flushed looking) such that I took some propanolol about 1.5hrs in. No anxiety, although body was very tense and the energy wasn't entirely pleasant feeling. Of the 4 sub tryptamines I've taken, this is the first time I've had physical concerns such that I probably won't take at this dose again. Probably the 35mg is enough and it might shine with another psychedelic in combo. But the physical effects concern me. It was over in about 3 hrs or just under.

I read Howl by Alan Ginsberg (notably I hate poetry) and really felt it so deeply. Was getting some really unique and vivid internal imagery from it. I then read my current book "Heads" and had a wonderfully immersive inner sense of it. A great book actually about the history of the psychedelic counter-culture in the USA.

No trouble sleeping and I feel totally fine and normal today. Actually may be a little bit scattered...!

Never tried 4-HO-EPT but have tried 4-ACO-EPT twice and enjoyed it. Don't remember the first experience but my last experience I took 15mg or so with some FXE. I was expecting a light trip at that dose but it was rather intense due to the FXE. It was manageable but just had a sense of intensity, especially the first hour or so. The headspace wasn't too heavy, the visuals were nice and colors were extremely bright. I had a pretty fun trip. Went on a walk with my roommate down to the nature trail and we went and picked some flowers. I look forward to trying it again

 

[Pfafffed]

Anyone here tried 4-HO-EPT? I took 55mg last night (my 2nd time, first was at 35mg and was subtle but pleasantly stoning) and was surprised at how strong it was. Not too visual, enhanced saturation and a sense of "busyness" and sort of weird gleaming quality to things. Clarity of though, no thought loops but a type of tangential quality the reminded me of weed. Physically, this didn't feel great at all though. Nausea, and strong cardiovascular effects (heart rate high and I could see my vision vibrating in time with it, blood pressure felt high, I was a bit flushed looking) such that I took some propanolol about 1.5hrs in. No anxiety, although body was very tense and the energy wasn't entirely pleasant feeling. Of the 4 sub tryptamines I've taken, this is the first time I've had physical concerns such that I probably won't take at this dose again. Probably the 35mg is enough and it might shine with another psychedelic in combo. But the physical effects concern me. It was over in about 3 hrs or just under.

I read Howl by Alan Ginsberg (notably I hate poetry) and really felt it so deeply. Was getting some really unique and vivid internal imagery from it. I then read my current book "Heads" and had a wonderfully immersive inner sense of it. A great book actually about the history of the psychedelic counter-culture in the USA.

No trouble sleeping and I feel totally fine and normal today. Actually may be a little bit scattered...!

Yep, I want to like this one but I think Kaleida and I are on the same page. Its effects are too subtle for the body load at every dose I've tried. It's a shame, because the effects that are there are really nice, but I don't want a mild but pleasant trip if I'm processing a ton of somatic energy