I’m not. This was maybe my 4th (?) time taking it since I bought some 2.5 years ago.
It’s a little boring for me but it feels very nice and warm. It kinda feels like while I’m on it, I’m in the state I would exist in had I had a good and loving childhood. I was on the phone with my SO when I took it and I said to them “This shit is just happy childhood simulator”.
I'll echo and say please do be very careful. This is exactly why opioids are dangerous. Because they feel so benign and wholesome. Using opioids from time to time is entirely without harm... they're non-toxic and don't take anything out of you. The danger is in slowly justifying more and more frequent use. If you suffer from the trauma of a bad childhood, it is really tempting to eat a little powder or take a little pill and feel better for a time. And if you can keep it to a safe level of usage, then you can get a periodic reprieve. But if you find yourself breaking your rules ("I'll be fine if I take this again even though I said I would wait a week"), run away very fast. I mean hell, I had a great childhood, and before I knew it, I was taking kratom every day and it began a lifetime of opiate addiction that I am still struggling with.
If you want to keep using it sometimes, my recommendation is to set rules for yourself that you know, at this point in your life before you are addicted, are reasonable, and if you ever find that you're breaking those rules or even if you're struggling not to break them, put it down and walk away, because being addicted to opiates makes everything worse.
And really, pretty much no one thinks they're going to get addicted, but so many people do. Then again, some don't.
Hey, I think I'm three months clean off bupre? Huzzah for that! It was especially hard not to turn back to it with all the death and upheaval in my life recently. I was thinking of bringing some to Renfest this year but I think I'll be a good boy and pass on it
Great job man, I'm proud of you, that's awesome.
Wish I could say the same. I think you should pass. Every time I ever let myself dabble again I fall right back into being dependent and then I struggle and struggle. As you know, it's hard as fuck to resist when you feel awful without them and relief is calling your name.
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