Mjäll
Bluelighter
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Virgin pinpoint pupils now
I am pleasantly surprised by kratom, but it doesn't have the same addict appeal to me as weed, or alcohol. It just enhances my everyday functioning. My addictive tendency is about the nightly escapism. I am attached to the idea of grinding through the errands of the day and getting a reward after.
Kratom was good for getting chores done, socializing and relaxing. I didn't like it for strength training. Too vasoconstrictive. The narcotic and rewarding effects were minimal despite pinpoint pupils and some itchiness. Going for a serious "nod" with this seems inappropriate. I appreciate it for what it is and plan to use it once in a blue moon just for variety. I have noted a certain "ease of mind" and can easily see the appeal of opioids but it's not the kind of effect i strongly gravitate toward. I feel it would detract from the struggle at the core of my being that drives me forward. Weed is ingrained for life as my crutch, i guess. Weed with its lovely demonic paranoia that is so gratifying for the loner mind. But who is really a loner? Everything is to be taken with a grain of salt. Weed must be moderated. Right now back on it after a spontaneous 3 day break of which i am perhaps a bit too proud.
I am pleasantly surprised by kratom, but it doesn't have the same addict appeal to me as weed, or alcohol. It just enhances my everyday functioning. My addictive tendency is about the nightly escapism. I am attached to the idea of grinding through the errands of the day and getting a reward after.
Kratom was good for getting chores done, socializing and relaxing. I didn't like it for strength training. Too vasoconstrictive. The narcotic and rewarding effects were minimal despite pinpoint pupils and some itchiness. Going for a serious "nod" with this seems inappropriate. I appreciate it for what it is and plan to use it once in a blue moon just for variety. I have noted a certain "ease of mind" and can easily see the appeal of opioids but it's not the kind of effect i strongly gravitate toward. I feel it would detract from the struggle at the core of my being that drives me forward. Weed is ingrained for life as my crutch, i guess. Weed with its lovely demonic paranoia that is so gratifying for the loner mind. But who is really a loner? Everything is to be taken with a grain of salt. Weed must be moderated. Right now back on it after a spontaneous 3 day break of which i am perhaps a bit too proud.
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