Thanks Krink, Ive got 4, almost 5 months AF... I was never dependent but between the drinking and not going to work it completely wiped my savings, I obliterated my credit and has put me into an awful predicament now that the landlord is moving back in to reno.
Weed always seems to be a bit of a reprieve from my colds. Smoking it, not so much but vaping is fine. Edibles even better... now f its a proper sinus deal, Im not interested.. but this is all throat, so vaping makes my voice even weaker lol... hence my inclination to edibles.
@auto... the few times Ive rolled while on the verge of being sick/sick its only made things infintely worse the following days... I cant recall a time tripping when sick/it coming on ...
I vape quite a lot, my voice has been unimpeded decades.
Except..... following real sudden acute going chronic Exstacy abuse (and really the associated rapid shifts in patterns of consciousness etc vs World around you, I personally feel is the core issue there because hear me
put me right back in all those sudden dramatic too transiting situations then, as I've adapted & adjusted to since, I am 100 sure I could hit floors running & handle the drill.
No sweat from any angle.
So my apparent "neurosis" clear for all to see as it impacted my previous 23 years perfect fast speech primarily.
Communicating. Extreme stutter, triggered by specific psychoactives like tiny alcohol, ketamine!!!
Valium. Enough exstacy too.
I returned home from Swansea Uni degree June 2003 worked full time but man was that tough.
I was known by every person as the most gregarious, natural & naturally hilarious, funnest easiest person to see, talk.
And the most popular, well liked, highly respected person.
It was truly Syd Barrett like, the mental turmoil being unable so often to even speak a line, or word seeing people's eyes so shocked.
Humiliating and dispiriting.
I managed it well though.
I'd work full time all week. Off alcohol, ketamine, exstacy, and not too much wees
Nobody would know.
But my Batman life lol, f I'd go illegal forrest 4 day raving unable to communicate to nother soul!
And using ket 5 days a week, I'd go from perfect articulate speech to can't finish 1st word in 10 seconds!
But then Lyme struck me 2005 all allergies.
The abnormal excessive mucus issue was then the root cause of my stutter.
Over time I learned to eliminate this hurdle too via austere dietary restriction.
A psychosomatic element too, but I fixed this with tonnes of LSD remarkably, whenever I speak now it's as if I am reading flexibly without thought, my exact words 3/4 lines ahead like chess players.
But.....cannabis. NOTHING since 2005 allergies has disabled my speech like Chemically ferted weed vs clean organic.
I vaporize street chem-fert weed, me no speaky anymore.
Stick to my own & np at all.
