Been an interesting last page. PD Social - THe opiate years... Seems like a lot of PD users end up on opiates or using dissos as opiates basically.
HeadphonesandLSD - I fully agree with your post about kratom and funeral on all accounts. If I went out an OD or suicide I would want it to be known. Maybe my death can help someone?
There should be no shame in depression and desperation. We should love eachother and want to help.
I remember when I first got high around 18 and discovered drugs. Went back home, found like 5 mostly full liquid codeine/hydrocodone etc etc bottles from me and my brothers being sick as kids. Was so stoked. lol. I was in an area where 10mg hydros were 3 a pop max for just a few.
Had a dude from highschool whose dad was a 20 year disability junkie. Got introduced to those beautiful 80mg green purdue OC's for $20 a pop. Fuuuuck. I could make one last me a week. I was always a good little chipper. Plus I liked to shit and getting backed up is not fun for me.
I smoked opium (probably black tar) a few times. I never really got a habit or looked for heroin because I knew once I was hooked I was fucked. I'd be robbing or dealing and end up dead or in prison pretty quick.
Long story short found a few huge bottles (literally found, dude was in prison and a piece of shit and found in his stuff) of hydros/dillys/methadone. Each with multiple refills. Oh man we tried to come up with ways to refill those but never felt like taking the chance. It was a potential ten thousand dollar come up. Sold off the hydros and methadone. Kept the dillys or myself. Plugged them mostly. Sporadically for a year off and on. Then flushed them when I was arguing with my mom to make a point. Bye bye $1k . hahaha. I'd say that was the best pharm opiate I've ever had. Except when they shot me up with it when I broke my wrist ;-)
Pretty much only used opiates sporadically since they shut down the doc shops in my area maybe 2008-2010ish.
Only got on Kratom to try and help get off alcohol and benzos. I couldn't use marijuana at the time and was so fucking tired of being an alcoholic. Dissos were making me crazy (duh) and decided to try something new.
I knew they were addictive, I knew there would be a withdrawal ya know. But I also knew it was way less than "real" opiates so I said fuck it.
Pretty quick taper from 20gish a day to none in like 6 days (that involved a lot of weed, diclaz, o pce, and about a half pint of whiskey and a few more beers a day). It was mostly they lethargy and depression that got to me. I never really used it for pain. More for motivation and anxiety and shit.
I've been fully off Kratom for five days now. Mostly my bowels are a little weird and I still feel a lethargy. I woke up today, took a dab, did some yoga, dosed 1.5mg diclaz. I felt ok/good, but really lacking a bit of a kick. I still have a weird bit of energy from doing the Kambo sessions, but I can feel a hole where the Kratom is missing. It's okay though, going back now would be stupid. I gave my stash to someone and said don't give it back unless you see me ordering more (wasting money) or i'm mailing it to a friend.
I've been using the last 100-200mg of o pce I have to that bit of motivation. I tried coffee, it helps a bit, but not really wanting to become a caffeine fiend again.
Weirdly vaping nicotine has been weird since doing Kambo. I cough wayyyy more and am hacking up stuff. I never used to do that from my vape. Don't get me started on dabs. Its definatly a bit more than the usual coughing. During the ceremonies, between the sananga, rapeh, and kambo, I blew out about 20 nasty snot rags of all types color mucus. One was big and orange. WTF?
It's kinda like my body just got rid of a lot of stuff and is like "yo, why are you putting it back in moron?"
I think I am going to switch mostly to edible marijuana for a while. I like it better anyway. I'm usually just too lazy. It only takes like an hour to make a weeks for of firecrackers so I think I'll stop being lazy.
I ordered 3 samples of amazonian rapeh snuff yesterday. I am pretty excited. I liked my experience with what I tried this past week. I am hopeful that this can become a good plant ally to help me stay grounded, focused, and off a bunch of other shit ;-)
started reading book two o Stormlight last night. Allready remembering shit and getting stoked.
Xorkoth I can't believe it took someone that long to mention "YO GO TO SHROOMERY" in that mushroom Id thread. lol Thats where I ided my first picks ohhhh about 14 years ago
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